5th day of Spring, 512 AV
Since branded with Returning, Miro’s life had changed completely. It was for the best, really, but there was so much happening. He really was ready to leave for Zeltiva, now a changed man. His destiny waited beyond the Suvan. Ender was a great addition, giving him some security, but to have his life bound to another was a bit unsettling. It seemed that when things got interesting or exciting it would trigger a response, but anything other time Miro would simply get an order to let him observe. The Irylid was a strange creature, but had great potential. If only they could get past the attitude conflict.
Trying to resist dominating the creature was the hardest part. They would slowly take over, these thoughts that would try and convince him that he was the one who called the shots. Whispers of setting the balance of power straight appeared in his mind. Miro had however agreed to treat him as a partner, and would at least keep a guise of it. Any influence was only for the summon’s benefit anyways. Anything he had to do was not his fault, but his unwilling partner’s. Kinneas was gone, and though his mind would tell him that the man was only a tool to survive, something to use up and discard before he moved on, the Chained One knew better.
Love of his lost ones were all the company he had left in his unbeating heart. They would want Miro to do right, to keep doing things to help people, and despite his immortality and cravings for power, he still could. He had been blessed by the gods with so much power, yet had none to show it to. Yet the raspy whisper of a voice always reminded him of the city around him. Alvadas was weak, filled with people who were impossible to truly dominate or leave a proper impression on, and he needed out. It was not the place for his kind. His new destiny was one of magic, and he was finally able to explore on the world without fear of death.
It was time though. No longer would the restraints of the past restrain him. His target was set in sight, now he would take time to prepare. Through reading his books, Miro found their contents were nothing to be impressed by, but they gave an insight, just enough to show what was possible. There were some subjects that were more appealing, but he would look over each of them once more. The bitter lonely feeling began to root itself in the Reimancer’s mind once again. He wanted to reach a hand out and hoped he could find a light in his Familiar. ”Ender, tell me, why don’t you turn into an orb? I am really glad to have you with me, and to see you are safe, but you don’t react. You could talk, to say what you see or your opinions. Are you really okay with just watching me live? Always you are so idle.”
As usual, his words fell upon deaf ears. The Irylid cared little to respond to his questions and mindless rambling, which only made the undead feel more lost. Only when Ender needed something did he ever speak. Miro gladly obeyed any request, but wished more casual interactions would take place. Instead he was left with a wrist covered in ice, his only companion through life. They had only just met, but there had to be some way to become closer to the summon. Kinneas was always willing to talk when he was needed. Why did Ender care so little for him?
Choosing a Familiar lead the wizard to believe that each was desperate to join him. And though this was true for some, this creature seemed ambivalent. From what Shale had told him, their world was not a pleasant one, and yet Ender did not seem to worry of being sent back. At the time it seemed as if he did not fear the world, but the kid had to wonder if he was simply too apathetic to do anything other than sit idly and watch existence move along. The relationship was frustrating, but easy to forget. Sometimes the silence was nice, and he could appreciate not being bothered constantly.
However he rarely ever truly appreciate being without bother. When it was not his cravings clawing at his insides to get out, it was other things. Rarely Ender, but more commonly after thinking of the creature. The blackened arm would dig its claws into his mind, whisper doubts about the Irylid, the city around him. Things he suspected, felt he needed to be cautious of. It did not make him feel as much paranoid as it did a pariah. He was without his former identity, and though his new one had a fancy title, he was estranged from everything outside of the walls of his home. He would still make an attempt to bridge out to his Familiar however.
”Ender, someday we will become best friends. No, more like brothers, definitely.” The wizard was starting to feel a tinge of excitement within. He spoke using his voice rather than the telepathic link. ”No, definitely closer than brothers, almost like twins. Like twins that are connected and have to do everything together.” And for once Ender actually replied to aimless musings. ”I am sure of this too. Often have I promised myself it would be my eventual fate. I am hardly content to sit by idly. I simply do not act without need.” And it was comforting to hear, until the whispers crept into the wizard’s head. ”Lies”, over and over repeated in his mind.