Timestamp: Spring 21, 512AV, Late Afternoon Pash'nar found himself back in Alvadas. He could only guess at why. The Patchwork Port was looking better, but his breath still caught in his chest when he saw the stretch of beach and remembered his near-death at sea. His last memory of time on that same beach was no more pleasant, though less life threatening in a way. The tattooed sailor looked for reasons to petch about on his casinor, delaying the inevitable of entering the city proper and perhaps actually bothering to look for people he knew. He loathed the thought of all that meant, though, heart still heavy with the memories he'd dredged up that day near the end of spring in front of Sariana. Ached like the sore, still-healing flesh of his leg. Once he'd finished finding every excuse possible to remain on board, Syna's light was stretched thin, golden on the water and golden on the walls of Ionu's city. He slipped over his hull and onto the worn wood of the port's docks, wandering at a purposefully slow and thoughtful pace. What the petch was he doing here? Was he looking for one of them? Any of them? Why? How the petch was he going to find anyone in Alvadas' shifting streets? The dark-haired navigator was granted entrance by the Gaping Maw without hesitance, if only because it was easy to offer the half-hearted truth that he was here looking for work, though his own reluctance was surely obvious on his countenance or in his movements on the streets. That wasn't the only reason he'd returned to Alvadas, but it was his best answer for now. Everything else he was unsure of ... was he really here to make amends? Did he come crawling back to shore for the sake of making others feel better? To make himself feel better? Surely not. When was the last time he truly let some petching woman—or anyone, really—get under his inked skin so deeply as to make him even consider such foolishness? Decades, surely. Ages indeed. He was spat out onto an unfamiliar street, and as he attempted to search for his bearings, he simply began to think of faces he knew and people even he, deep down, wanted to see again. Pash'nar was still unsure of what he wanted from anyone, even himself. His brief time at sea attacked by monsters and charoda had reminded him of why he chose not to get involved with feelings, emotions, hearts … and yet, wasn't he? Entangled enough to get himself into trouble. Entangled enough to run away. Entangled enough to come crawling back like some petching fool. He had no real expectations, and, even worse, no destination. He simply wandered a bit through the City of Illusion, which was unexpectedly full of snow, wrestling with his own thoughts, justifying his own actions, and attempting to guess at the actions of others. He wasn't surprised to be caught off-guard by Ionu's whims, but the lack of summer inside the city made him even less sure of his purpose in being back here. Even if he'd made a petching mess, but one he'd made all his own. |