by Leo Varniak on August 21st, 2009, 10:55 pm
Leo did not speak in reply to Nya's statements. To him, that particular topic was exhausted as he would never compare his justice to a mere hunt for food. It was probably something they would agree to disagree on, as both seemed rather stubborn creatures in their different ways. When she mentioned actual food, though, he seemed to speak in agreement for once. "That would be a good idea. Anything that could make me forget the fish would be good." As Nya had correctly surmised, to say Leo had not enjoyed their meal was an understatement.
He did not make a fuss over her touching his shoulder. Maybe he did not mind, maybe he did not care; it was always difficult to tell with Leo. Maybe he hardly paid any attention to what he deemed unworthy of it. He had no need to dart around the road to feel safe; he did not look like a rich man, and if he happened to meet a brigand, as could happen even in Syliras, the brigand would burn. A few times before, if they were particularly evil or threatened him by counting the people they'd killed, Leo had left them alive in the woods, with burns that were sure to be fatal. Leo knew how that worked. You had to focus on a broad area but spare the vital organs. He'd abandon them in the forest, leaving them enough time to repent if they so wished.
Leo was very fair. Meaning he was very cruel.
He listened on, eyes narrowing in distaste at Nya's description of bondmates. He listened as she told him that it was in her very nature to seek someone to aid, that she would feel incomplete unless she found this special soul whom she was to assist. And well before her speech was over, Leo had already made his judgment. He shared it shortly afterwards.
"Whoever created your kind was a monster," he said calmly, still generalizing Nya to her entire race. "I would wish for nothing more than to watch them burn and writhe before my eyes. They took things that were meant to be separate and merged them, giving and taking as they deemed fit. They made it so your life depended on another." Leo found that disgusting. "If your feelings are dictated by someone else, it is as if they were fake. I think I feel sorry for you. Someone tampered with your soul, and I can't even kill them."
"Syliras is where I was born," he continued pensively, "I do not need this place. I am here because I happened to be here first, and have not found a better place to stay as of yet. That is all there is to it. I don't need it. I have very few needs." He was silent for a little bit and then resumed. "I remember staring at the fire a lot when I was little. I remember watching a big log being thrown into the fire once. The fire was weak at first, it just caressed the bark and tinged it with darkness. There was smoke... it coiled into little rings. Then the flame picked up and started making a dent in the wood. They criss-crossed the bark like so many little wounds, and you could start to see the inside as it reddened. I liked how the tiny flames slipped into the cracks and ate at the wood, how it slowly splintered under its own weight. I liked that, for those brief minutes, you could see the rings in the wood. Its secrets were exposed. It was satisfying, and then it collapsed and it was over."
"I need to do that to people. Not just the fire, I mean. I need to open people and see what they have inside. I am not sure why. But this happiness everyone speaks of," he concluded, "I have never felt it. So, it makes me curious and I pry people open. If I dislike what I see, I burn them in the name of justice. Then I start over. That is all there is to me, Nya Winters. Are you sorry you asked?" He had told her at last - something more about himself. About the thing called Leo Varniak, at least.