Winter 15th, 512AV Scintillating Scents; Afternoon Life wasn't about sitting idly and doing nothing, waiting for something to happen; Life was not to be sqaundered on meaningless thoughts and dreams. For life, Life itself, it was all about doing what you came to your mind; with that said, Ana had finally realized that. All those nights, sitting alone in Sunberth waiting for something miraculous to happen while she read books and had fantasys of a life she couldn't possibly of had at that time, to the time in her old room, her old home in Zeltiva where alcohal and family problems were really.. a problem. Sitting. Sitting and waiting. Ana couldn't stand it anymore, she said she would change, but she never did, she always dreamed, she always wished, but she never DID anything. The thief stared into her reflection at the lake, it was early morning right now and the fog made it almost impossible to see around her; it was that incentive that had lead her to choose right then to do what she wanted to. One, somber sigh escaped her lips as she leaned closer to the smooth, glass like water, it was completely still. In her reflection she saw the darkened eyes, the black circles underneath her lids, while the gold was watered down with the blue black colors mixed in. The worrysome wrinkle, even the freckles which were little more than faded dots. Down to her upturned lips, chapped, pink, but with a full lower lip, a sharp upper lip; absent mindedly she lifted her hand to stroke her jawline down to her chin. Details, which she would not of taken in before, at any time, she was now committing to memory. Ingraining it into her skull, etching on the walls of her cranium, carving it out in her eyes. Ana would not forget herself, she would not lose herself to the magic, just as Wren had warned; but she would not spiral into a world of chaos that would forever change her appearence, for better, or worse. "My idenity is mine, and mine alone, no one can take what I know.. away.." she mumbled to herself, tiredly, this was now the third day of having of been wide awake. Ana would do something, she would be the person she always dreamed to be but she would be better, more realistic than that silly dream of being a mastermind thief in a story book. She would make her own story, and shape it to her will, but she had to have that will to plan it out and look at how the present can affect the future. The hand, which had remained upon her face was still tracing the outlines of herself, slowly, committing to a physical memory before finally focusing onto the colors of herself. Strands of a white blonde littered her face, covering mostly one side of her face and slightly the other, the reasoning behind that had been to hide a scar on her right cheek. Letting her hair down from its limp bun, she ran her fingers through the dirty strands. Hair was not as important as eyes, as the hair could be dyed different colors through non-magical means (which Ana did not have the dyes with her) so she focused on the golden honey of her eyes. The irises were large, pupils black, large as well, slowly Ana would, after a few moments of brief concentration- digging into that inner pool of djed to pump it into her eyes, she wanted to mimic the water in its color. Watching, her eyes in the reflection of the water turned into a blueish black, almost melding into the water with its color. The process was slow, but she had all the time in the world right now to get these things right, if she was careful then she wouldn't have to worry too much about her eyes or hair being seemingly permanent in their morphed colors. Water was not the best mirror there ever could have been, but it was Ana's only option, she had to be able to see what she was doing. Next, she began with the circles of her eyes, this wasn't something that would require her to constantly look at the water but to look at her own skin and match the normal colored skin to the dark ugly circles, foretelling her sleepless nights. It was pale, with a hint of yellow, maybe even creamish in color; so she began to assimlate the color she saw in her arm, into the skin around her eyes. One finger gently brushing over the dark circles, cream following close behind them, as if making a path for the djed to follow through. Ana did the same to the other eye, just as painstakingly slow as the first, she wanted to be careful as she could be, she wanted to look different. When she was finished with that, Ana felt pretty confident in her ability to do this kind of magic. Actually, she looked beautiful without those awful circles framing her eyes. Eagerness set in to change her, whispers to change more of herself, become something different invaded her thoughts. Ana knew better, she had to restrain herself, but maybe doing her hair wouldn't hurt- after all, who else in the Spires had white blonde hair, that wasn't some konti? The thief smiled grimly at her reflection, doing the same as she had done for the circles under her eyes, but this time with the palm of her hand, she paved the way for the djed into her messy, if not a little greasy locks of blonde white hair, the color in her mind was already evident- brown black, just like her brothers was. She remembered his appearence very well, his death, vivid in her mind, the red blood, the fight, the run- Ana stopped. She had frozen in terror, for what she had meant to make brown black hair had instead turned a bloody red color on one side. She had let her thoughts get away from herself, and because of that, her djed had followed her memories strong singals; related to colors. Schrieking, Ana cut the flow off, but kept it suspended for what was in there and jerked her eyes away, covering her face, shaking, trembling, she was scared of what she had just done. She wanted this to never of happen- No. No. No. Ana had to suck it up, she had her minor disguise up and running, she was not backing down from this any more. There was no turning back, not because she chickened out over silly memories which would be put to rest with her fathers death. For a few moments she stayed like that, collecting her sanity, and dragging it back into place within her mind. There was no turning back. She would have to do this now. Plans had to be put in action, otherwise, if she did not, then she risked the possible chance of leaving for good. To do something with her life. With those thoughts in mind, she gathered her black cloak and draped it around herself, and pulled her hood up. Her destination was the perfume shop inside of the Spires itself, and her goal? Perfume strong enough to mask her natural scent, so no one, no animal, or beast could discern her from one human, to the next, and then put two and two together that it was her- Ana. The trip had taken most of the morning, and she finally arrived to the shop in the afternoon, after of being lost for perhaps a few bells at first. When Ana entered, she was amazed by all the plants inside, how would she steal any of these for the commodity known as perfume? How did these play up to become perfume? Was this the right place at all? Standing there, without a clue of what to do- Ana grimaced, and kept her head down as she made her way to the counter. Eyes to the ground mostly, shielded from veiw by the cloak. |