Midwinter Observances - Alses sends a winter prayer of thanks to Syna for the year. Achingly formal, because she's lost the knack of talking to Her properly
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Syna-' Only now, after the ritual requests and honorifics were done did Alses feel she could dispense with the sacred titles. '
We take heart from your light and your warmth as ever we have.' A gentle smile, a memory of how the world now seemed perpetually new and beautiful to her eyes. '
We feel You at our back every day and everywhere we look we see You immanent in all things on the surface of this world. We taste echoes of Your power in the food and water that mortals need to survive, in the clothes they wear to shield them from the elements, even in their very skin, and we delight in this revelation. However, the dark is drawing in, now, the domain of Your lover Leth and all his kin; we know this is the cycle, the natural order of things, and yet...I pray for the strength to continue through the Winter, for all the bells without Your warmth and reassurance beating at my back.'
She paused, debating with herself – but Syna was
her goddess, the one who had given Alses all that she was, and there could be nothing secret between them. Nothing could – or should – be hidden from Her sight. '
We have seen a bright echo of Your power, felt the phantom touch of Your glory, in the eternal night which so frightens us. It confuses me, and is a pale shadow of Your presence in the day, yet we take heart from it even so, and are thankful for it also. An involuntary smile curled her lips as poetry, all unbidden, came to her mind. '
My soul is full of Your whispered word, and my blindness now my sight; the dark shadows that I feared so long are all ablaze with light!'
Poor doggerel, perhaps, but it went some way to describing the curious, fluttering elation she'd felt when first the echo had revealed itself to her, the fading pulse of Syna's power that never entirely went away. '
Your signature in the night makes our time as a mortal more comfortable, more bearable, it gives us something to remember at the nadir of the day. Something to hold onto until the next dawn breaks.' A deep, shuddering breath as Alses finished and cast about for a further prayer.
They were Ethaefal and goddess, trying to rebuild the fragmented tatters of a relationship that had surely once been closer than friends, now reduced to bridging the gap between the sacred and the profane, mortal and immortal, divine and mundane through scraps of prayer, brief remembrances of joy unbounded and infinite, perfect energy in the Goldenlands, and through the whisper of Alses' celestial name in the middle of the night that caused her to start upright in bed, wondering and wondering.
A long and hard road, praying to a goddess who was no longer within easy, immediate reach, no gnosis-mark link or real remembrance of what import she had been to Syna. Her prayers went into the yawning void, or so it seemed; faith told her all prayers were heard, and that Syna would in Her wisdom provide what was needed. Pessimism wondered how one prayer in hundreds of thousands could be discerned, and decided that Syna would help those who helped themselves.
Alses sighed at her own blasphemous thoughts. '
Forgive me my imperfections and my failings-” of which she knew there were many '
-the exalted state we lost. You are our confessor, my sword and shield against the cold world, and I find guidance and hope in Your light. I pray for our continued strength in Mizahar, the will to keep hope alive. I pray for our fallen brethren, scattered across Mizahar, wherever they may be and in whatever circumstance they find themselves. I pray that those still close at Your side escape our fate...and I pray that You will look kindly on all our endeavours. By Your grace and favour, and in the blaze of the noonday sun, so mote it be.'
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Contemplations on a Dawn - A short, simple prayer as thanks for Alses' feast of dawn light.
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Radiant Lady, I thank you for the feast this morning! For your light to see the world, for the joy and beauty you bring, I give you my service and devotion as ever I have. To the glory of the sun and the Everlasting Flame in all things that I do today,” she finished softly.