She considered, then Kail responded with, “Yes. I see your point.” Then went back to work on the vegetables. She worked with her hands enough that she didn’t have to think about it as she sliced them into bit sized pieces that were all about the same. It was easy to sort them while thinking. Her mind started going very fast and her internal voice took over lecturing her.
She thought to herself, ‘Stupid, stupid, stupid. You knew better. You decided before you left home that you were not going to say anything, just watch, listen and learn. And what’s the first thing you do? Open your mouth and say something, well several things, that you really shouldn’t have. What do you think, you’re at home talking to your sister? This isn’t a place to share what you are thinking, or feeling. Just shut up and listen.’
In the back of her mind, behind the voice, she was thinking. If Rakia considered Taith in this light, that must answered her question. Unless of course Rakia didn’t know Taith was only Akalak half the time and didn’t remember his life as a full Akalak. Or maybe it didn’t matter. Not really an answer after all, but something to think about.
In any case Kail was forced to look at her home from another perspective. She always loved the polite and kind standard of Mura and thinking about that as a negative for her life and for her city as a whole was difficult. She did know that it left her ill-prepared for life off the island and now she was learning how. She always wanted to learn everything and knew Taith, the trip, and the whole mission were learning experiences. It was just hard: a different kind of education.