21st Day of Spring, 507 AV
It’d been a week or nearly so. Her blue eyes were bloodshot from repeatedly sleepless nights. Sybel lie awake on the firm ground, her gaze tracing the folds of her tent. Love was truly double-edged. For all the joy it brought her, there was also sorrow and more importantly, doubt. Would she be enough? Could she forsake her freedom for something more? For every daylight hour she denied these questions, they were there waiting as the sun sank low. Her own mind reprimanded the depth of those feelings. Life wouldn’t remain simple for long. Sooner or later, questions required answering and then someone would have to sacrifice.
Light poured through canvas, illuminating the swirling motes of dust. The sun had been up for hours, though how many was hard to say. The Benshira sat up and peered about blearily before raking her fingers through mussed hair. Fatigue had gotten the better of her just before sunrise and for that, she was blessed with a few hours of actual sleep. Sybel uncoiled her aching muscles with a long cat-like stretch before rising, dressing, and strapping on her longsword.
One glance in the looking glass and she found herself suitable for human contact. Sure, she looked like a Nuit but… What the hell. It was better than being a Nuit. Despite the onset of insomnia, she was determined to remain positive. Sybel would dodge her own doubts for as long as possible. She’d do anything to savor the fleeting happiness she’d found. It was that thought that carried her as she stepped jauntily over toward the Denusk pavilion.
It seemed odd, waltzing around so openly armed where there was clearly no need. In the beginning her sword belt had put the locals on edge. It was funny how things changed. Now each passerby gave her a polite nod as she went along, disregarding the weapon entirely. Drykas were warm people - once you were accepted, anyway. The thought arranged her otherwise exhausted features into a smile. Sybel nodded back absently to each, her mind already elsewhere.
It felt wrong to just stroll into his family’s tent. Arms folded, she stood in front of the main entrance. The smile slowly faded, replaced with a more serious expression. She hadn’t been challenged this way before. Normally he’d come to her tent or they’d meet in the Grass. But this time she was clearly late for their appointment. She had no choice but to come to him. Sybel couldn’t seem to think of a single joke, either. Humor usually smoothed things a bit. Perhaps she was a bit too tired for smart remarks.
Perhaps the Ukalas would freeze before that was true. Clearing her throat, she peered around. That was a laughable behavior – as if anyone was watching. Except someone was watching. ”Syna’s flaming knickers!” She exclaimed, eyes wild. He’d been completely silent. ”Just how long were you standing there, exactly?”