The ice, the cold, cold ice brought Ray back to a more vulnerable time in his long life. Flashes of the Valterrian, of the destruction which was wrought on the land from the battle of the gods, brought back memories of powerlessness, of fear, of having no control… In this very moment he had lost the one thing which had kept him cool, collected, and well Rayage throughout his lifetime, and that was a sense of control, of utter control. Stripped from this was more emotional trauma, and he couldn’t decide which hurt worse: his emotional state or his body.
Both his body and mind burned with this vulnerability. It made him feel worthless, it made him feel like he had no place in the world, it made him feel like perhaps he had lived just a little too long, but most of all it made him feel betrayed, hurt by someone he thought of as a child. A mere child could bring him to his knees, his child, the boy was so powerful… Though these thoughts quickly morphed in his ice shaped prison to ones of anger, how dare he, and to ones of hate and revenge. He would get him back and he would not let the boys power trap him here. Though struggle as he might, for Miro left no wiggle room, he couldn’t move. So he would have to resort to other ways of breaking the spell, with leeching of course, but even that did not work. For some reason he found that no matter how hard he tried he could not grasp the djed in the ice. So he resigned himself to wait, as ice does melt mage-made or not.
Chimes passed as did Bells as he waited, frozen in place. His mind wandering, but in this ice getting sharper as well, visions of the Valterrian passed through him and it was as if he had forgotten, but who could forget an event like that? Though there seemed to be more details coming to mind the more he allowed himself to think on it, to wander within the existence of the memory. A strange calm came over the nuit, the undead had survived the Valterrian, he could and would survive this as well. He would grow stronger from its experience. A certain resolve came to him as he realized that he wouldn’t die here. No, that wasn’t in the plans. How could he, the most powerful alchemist in all of modern mizahar, die like this? The very thought was absurd, laughable. Though it was moments like these which reminded him just how weak and superficial his power really is. Sure he commands respect and reverence, and in that regard he is a very influential man, but when it comes to more physical things he falls short.
He accepted and embraced the pain and emotions he was feeling. His mind slowly found peace in destruction, the destruction of his shattered dream, and his own private awakening to reality once more. The ice it shook him. The ice it shocked him. The power it awakened him. The fullness he was feeling was dying slowly, his very being absorbing the power which was forced into him. He was in a cocoon of ice and soon the cocoon would break away and he would be reborn once more, changed by fate. The nuit realized he could not shy away or change what has happened, the past was unchangeable, the future however had endless possibility, and within him churns the cogs of change. He would bring change to the world in its ultimate awakening one day, realizing that, in the destruction and dust of the Alahean empire, the world is much like he is. Trapped. Trapped in its own cocoon, waiting for the fire, the light of humanity, to warm it and to rediscover what once was lost.
Then the ice cracked. The noise was so sudden to him that he almost looked frightened. In but moments however he felt to ice dislodge itself from him and he was once again free. He was free, and the cacoon was no more. He was reborn as a Reimancer, as he listened to what Miro had to say. That… that was the initiation to Reimancy, though as he talked a silent and uncharacteristic rage built within the nuit. It was a primal emotion, one that he hadn’t felt to this extreme in such a long time. ”You.” there was poison in the nuits voice, the venom which soaked his words would reveal his rather foul mood, ”You did this to me? What have you done?” the nuit raised his voice, sounding more than pissed. It was very rare for Ray to lose himself to such emotion, but he was trebling and it was more than just from being cold. The emotions have taken a rather physical manifestation.
”Let me show you… Let me show you…” the anger muddled his thoughts, making him unable to verbalize what he was thinking, ”What you have caused me to remember, boy.” he told him, and if looks could kill… Well Miro would have been dead the moment ice trapped the nuit. ”This… That was not alright, yet you release me acting like nothing happened. Not a care in the world.”
”You will feel my suffering.” he announced, the images of the valterrian flashing in his mind, giving rise to a powerful feeling of helplessness and pain. Pain unimaginable, the pain of losing everything, the pain of loss, and with that pain came countless years of suffering and striving not only for the nuit himself but for humanity. He used those pictures to mediate his feeling, to condense them, to empower them. It was the process he went for when casting just about any hypnotic spell. He needed to internalize the feeling, and then project it with djed. That is what he did.
The nuit locked eyes with Miro. How dare he laugh at him, at what the mage put him through! Rayage summoned his djed and cast it forward, djed manifesting the feelings he was focusing on. Though it did not turn out how he wanted it. Instead of manifesting the feelings Miro would instead see flashes of images in his mind, much like they were his own memories, but they were different. These Djed fueled manifestations in the mind of the Reimancer were in fact the memories of Rayage, the images he was focusing on to produce the feelings of helplessness and loss which he wanted to produce in the boy.
Miro would see brief images flash inside his head, like an array of paintings being shown to him one after another but so fast that he only had a moment to take in each one. This effect was due to the fact that Rayage was using whole memories to recall the feelings and his magic would only allow brief stills. Ray did not notice his magic was warped by his mind, and continued to fuel the spell. He only wanted Miro to experience what he did, and he got his wish perhaps a little too literally. Though some images would appear more frequently than others, and so those are the ones which would stick with the boy.
The first one was a great fissure in the land itself, darkened skies provided a backdrop and ash fell like snow. From that great and dark fissure fire and lava erupted in a great display of power. The land itself was crumbling and everything was shifting. Cracks and fire, and destruction filled the place. Though it was later revealed that this place wasn’t just some barren land, but there were people as well. People set aflame, people falling into the great maw of the earth, people pushing, people shoving, and in the middle of that chaos, in the middle of a crumbling civilization is where Miro would find himself in his mind.
Rayage kept up his efforts fueling the spell still, as he saw no reaction from the mage. More and more he used the power of his mind and the force of his djed to make the other ‘feel’ what he felt, or so that is what he thought he was doing. Once and for all he would shut Miro up. The strain of his effort was showing on his face now, as he extended his hands in some display of concentration, then gripping for what seemed to be Miros throat, yet he stood many feet away.
Miro would hear the screams and the sound of destruction as the next proximate picture flooded into his head. A building was collapsing, and under the weight of the building the earth itself was opening up. People could not escape and many were thrown into the bowels of the earth. Lightning came from the sky, painting white streaks across an ashy backdrop… Lastly the pictures faded into more images flashing but going so fast that he couldn’t make them out. Finally impressed upon him would be a sense of dread and unknowable loss, and the question: is this the end?.
Ray doubled over, taking a step backwards and tripping on the ice. The nuit fell and landed in the water, still scowling at the boy. Did he even feel what he wanted him to? Rayage noticed that the spell took a lot more out of him than he had expected. Though he did sustain it for quite some time. He felt mentally exhausted, but he said and did nothing more. This was all he could do, all which was within his power.