Winter 45th, 512AV Entrance to The Spires Today would be the day they finally left Spires, all three of them, Zandelia, Ximal, and Chamaeleo; and they would never return. Ana thought bitterly to herself as she made her way to the small group of travellers, their horses would have been ready, and their bags packed up the night before. Such a fine city would be a pity to leave, but it was necessary for them, or at least, very much so for Ana; they didn't belong in the tree tops living a paradise. Winter may have been a terrible time to travel, but it was uncertain how truely welcome they would be in seasons time, it would have to be now that they left; or face dire consequences. The place known as Nyka was in their sights, a minor checkpoint for a long journey, and it seemed logical- Zandelia did know the place after all. Guilt rested heavy on her shoulders, and she stopped a moment to look back; her travel companions there waiting for her at the entrance, she looked back to the Spires, feeling a tension rise in her chest. Eyes watering somewhat, she would regret leaving the city and its peacefulness some day and wish that she had stayed, and never left, but that day would not be today. Outside elements forced her to remain resolute in her descision, it would not matter if she were with child or not; she was not welcomed here anymore, especially not her, perhaps Cham, Ximal, and Zandelia would be but most definitely not Ana. The thief had over stayed her welcome; both emotionally and action-wise. Jakobi.. Please hate me.. Despise my very being, I harmed you.. I'm despicable, but I can only hope that in time that you forgive me for my actions... Nay... Don't forgive me, I don't deserve to be forgiven by you.. I never deserved your love, or affection, or adoration.. None of it.. I hope you find a girl that will truely love you one day and settle down, because I have failed in doing that for you.. Watery emotions began to flood her eyes, she inhaled, biting them back. Freezing over towards any remorse for departure of the Spires, and Jakobi, she grimaced, and then turned away to never look back again; I won't even try to justify my actions, I'm just that awful. Terrible breeded trouble; he didn't need her in his life and she didn't need him either, she was done using people she liked to stay afloat. No more! Confidently she strode up to her travel companions, her heart echoing her despair within her rib cage, but the determination never left her eyes, a growing fire to never be put out again; as it had smouldered to weakened embers upon first leaving Sunberth, the fire... It came back alive. She would not allow herself to get truely close to someone again, she wouldn't let herself feel the pain that she had; but that didn't mean she would not do the same thing to other men, as she had to Jakobi, if it furthered her goals, or had a purpose in doing so, then she would do it.. She just would stay as aloof and distant as she could, hopefully. Glancing between the three, she broke out into a smile and then mounted her horse with some difficulty but slowly, and practicedly to shimmy her way up to sit on the saddle, "well what are you all doing standing there? Lets go already! I'm tired of eating bugs, sleeping with horses, and getting in trouble with monkeys; lets ride!" |