5th of summer, 513
Lenell stepped out of the cafeteria in the early morning with a fully belly, and a tangled sense of pleasure and guilt. It was wonderful that there were no food shortages right now, but at the expense of such a decimation of the cities population? She would gladly have gone hungry to bring back a few of the poor citizens who had died. What potential friends had passed before she ever had a chance to know them? How many had lost children, parents, lovers? Why couldn't she have arrived a little earlier, and done something to help? Now, she felt like a vulture, arriving in the aftermath to feast on a bounty left by suffering.
She sighed, wiping back a few strands of hair that had escaped from her "work-worthy" braid, and began walking towards the Glassworks. There was nothing she could do, there truly wasn't. And she would have helped if she could, she knew that in her heart. And denying herself good food, or wallowing in guilt about it, would not bring one single soul back. She would contribute to her new home in any way she could, but she was young and experienced, and could only plan on taking some pride in the pottery she would be turning out for her city's personal use.
She leaned her head into the sun as she walked on, and breathed in air that carried the smell of the sea with it.