Ethan's words barely reached Sigrun's ears. The young girl's gaze was fixated upon her mug, where she was sure the ale inside of it would taste sour and stale, as her tongue was coated with lead.
"Sigrun..."
Sigrun's body curled inwards as she clutched the side of her head with her hand. Grumbling softly, she attempted to continue listening to her companion.
"Sigrun, how does papa bring all those fish home?"
"He strings them along with a magical piece of thread from the sea."
"Where did papa get the thread, Sigrun?"
"He prays to Laviku and he blesses him with rolls of it!"
Sigrun shut her eyes and balled her fists, lifting one of them in the air and preparing to slam them on the table. The memories were too much for her. Tension rose up to her chest from the pit of her stomach, causing her breath to hitch. She lost Ethan for a moment, and the rest of her surroundings as well.
"If I pray hard enough, sister, will Laviku bless me too?"
"Only with hard work and dedication will you achieve anything, Sigmund. Remember what mama always says!"
"Mama knows so much, sister!"
"And someday, you will too!"
Her eyes snapped open and she directed her lifted fist to her thigh, barely making a sound. She bit her lip and scrunched her brows as the pain rippled through her leg, lingering for a moment before becoming a dull soreness.
Her face softened and she sighed, her eyes closing for a moment, only to open wide when she'd found her nose merely inches away from Ethan's. The young blonde gulped nervously.
"If what you truly desire is a passion for another, a love that could stand the ages, then my lady you shall have it. If it is something you truly want with all of your heart then do not give up on your search. There is a man out there who could truly make you happy. Of this I am sure."
The young man moved away. Sigrun sank in her seat and turned towards the hearth, her eyes scanning the glowing embers.
"I don't desire anything," she replied solemnly, "neither do I expect anything."
"I'm impossible to impress," she mused, her eyes turning towards him. He had already piqued her interests quite a bit, but she was unwilling to call it love, or even an intense attraction, no matter what the pit of her stomach were to tell her. She willed herself not to feel such things for anybody.
For some reason, however, she was failing to do so in this situation.
"Now I am very interested in hearing your story, but if this is not yet the time to tell it then let us be off somewhere else. There is still much to see in the city!"
Sigrun responded quickly after he'd finished his sentence. With a sad smile, she revealed everything. Her words rose from her shoulders, and there was nothing she could do but expel them, reveal them. It wouldn't hurt for one person to hear, and if it did, she felt that she wouldn't end up regretting that it was Ethan.
"My mother died giving birth to Sigmund," she said casually, though her voice began to shook a little. She took a long swig of ale and continued.
"My father, when I was around fifteen or sixteen, eventually left us, and I had to take care of Sigmund by myself," she turned to face the young man, "which, I tell you, wasn't easy."
Chuckling, she took two more swigs of ale. It was slowly turning sweeter once more, just as her shoulders began to lighten.
"Sigmund passed away a few years back because he got sick," she spat out the last word of her sentence as if it had been poison stinging her lips, "and I couldn't help him."
She shook her head.
"I sold our home at the Maiden district and settled into Traveler's Row because I didn't want to continue on living amongst all those memories. I can't leave, even if I wanted to, I..."
Sigrun dug her fingernails into her palms and laid both her furled hands onto the table.
"I can't."
She laughed bitterly, "I don't even have a reason to stay, but I... I can't. I can't leave."