36th Of Spring 513
Morning (8th bell)
Morning had struck awfully faster thank K thought, he wanted to make it to the area before the streets crowded by commoners, and this was it. While everyone was sleeping, while everyone was resting, while everyone was inside. It was a crisp cool morning, not too cold but cold enough. He had on simple clothes, although they weren't his usual attire, they were K's. Wearing a black cloak, black tee shirt, and a pair of black baggy pants. His pants were sagging but not showing his underwear, just enough to hang. Because he wasn't in the presence of any knights, he wouldn't have to worry about his appearance. The feeling of being alone was more than enough to ease his mind, for he had always loved the silence, it was his only reprieve and relief... Next to sex of course. It was the only time for the one minded boy to think, unlike his brother Kise, he was only good at fighting... Not thinking. But today was different, today he had a lot of thinking to do, he had to think about his future. He had just arrived at the well in relative speed, barely around eighth bell. This was great time considering he had just woke up around the seventh bell. Sliding off of the saddle of his horse he began to tie it to a nearby horse rack, looking around to see if anyone was in the area, he was happy to see it was vacated.
Walking over to the well quietly, he put on his hood, the hood connected to his cape. As he finally made it to the well, he peered inside of it's bowels, hoping to see something. Nothing seemed to actually peak his interest, or even reach the peak for that interest. This forced him to turn around, still leaning his back on the simple well, as he scanned the area. "Nothing..." He said softly with a quick sigh, he looked from right to left, sweeping the land with his optical search.
A bird... Two birds... A beautiful women sitting on a bench... A stray cat... A piece of cloth... He quickly turned back to the well, leaning in once more, looking for something. "Wait?" He snapped his head around and looked for the woman... But she was no longer. He began to look down, after rubbing his eyes, was he imagining? "K.. All this stress... Your killing yourself." He said softly with a chuckle as he took out five golden Mizas. He placed them all on top of the well, creating a line around the side an inch between every coin, then he took a step back. He began to walk around the well, rubbing his right hand along the walls and closing his eyes, as he tried to suck in the imaginary emotions of the well. "Kova's wishing well... Why it was named this I don't know..." He gave a small chuckle, as he finally found himself back at where he started. He began to wonder, this was where people came to... To what. To admire this ordinary well? To mourn for Kova? To make simple personal wishes for pathetic gains? He couldn't understand the purpose of this well, so he decided to make his own... Hopefully... It would work for him. He wasn't equipped with any weapons except his simple Tamo daggers, stored together as a club in his pocket, he decided to begin what he had came to do as he scooped up the pockets and placed them into his pocket. Climbing up on top of the well, he had took a seat, resting his back on one of the wooden supports holding the pulley for the bucket. His left foot left hanging, while his right was planted firmly on the well, his head suspended in air as he placed his chin on his right knee. Holding his right knee in a small hugging position, he began to speak, hopefully he was alone enough to use his regular voice.
"Ivak... Since this was and is your girlfriends well. I will address you first... Hopefully you don't think the way I'm sitting is too disrespectful, because that's not what I mean..." K spoke out softly as he looked into the distance, wondering if what he was doing would have fallen on deaf ears. He spoke aloud, hoping the gods would hear him... Hopefully they did. Hopefully someone could comfort the boy who had been through so much ever since he became a squire, if not comfort then give him relief, if not relief... Then power. "Ivak... I don't really worship the gods... But I can say that out of all of them... You have the most respect from me..." He chuckled a bit, thinking about what he had just said and was saying. "Look at me, taking to a god like I am all high and mighty... Ya know..." He began to become quiet, thinking if he should say what he wanted to say next, also thinking what he should've said next. "I don't really know what I respect about you the most... Would it be your... Power? Your strength to protect What you love?" He choked a bit, hoping he didn't anger his imaginary god with his last comment. "You know... I know the gods exist... I know this. But I have never had contact with one, or at least not that I know of, so you can be pretty sure that I'm not one to show faith." "But for some reason... I have been looking for an output, a chance to... See there's something in my life I have been missing, or just don't know about... I know that I'm here. I know that I'm a squire on the path to knight hood... But what I'm trying to get at is..." K let out a sigh as he realized that this god must be laughing at him by now, that was the only possible thought, for if the situation was flipped he would've probably laughed at himself. "By the gods I'm hopeless..."
"Ivak. I have no idea what I want to say to you... Or what I'm even trying to say.. But what I will say is this... " He took in a deep breath, giving him the needed push to get his next request out of his chest.
[b] "Ivak. If your listening... Please come into my life.. Please. I need... Power to protect what I love... Possibly what I want, but mainly what I love. I'm pretty sure you can tell what's on my heart and mind, but please.. Please..please?" K looked up, hoping to see an explosion of some sort, gracing the gods graceful presence. He got nothing. Except, he didn't rage or slap a frown upon his face. No, he had matured a bit in the past few days, most likely because of his encounters. As he didn't hear the god's reply, he looked back down, placing his chin back on his knee. "Ha... It was silly of me to think that you were just gonna appear to some guy who just grew a bit of random faith... Especially because he had felt alone and in need of power... But nonetheless..." K spoke up a bit louder, hoping that his last message would be enough. "I will worship you. You now have my faith... I am now... Yours." He said with a serious voice, tossing one golden miza into the well, waiting till he heard the splash, which never came. "Well... With that being said I move on." "Now for you..."
"Sylir..."
"Sylir... You have my respect because of your values, you are peace and civilization. You are a necessary part of balance, you are a... God. Once a god always a god... Even if... Your dead." He clenched his fist at the thought, Syliras a godless place, or at least this was what he knew. "It's just that... I respect your ways. I respect peace and keeping the peace. I know that as a knight it would be and already is my job to strive to maintain this peace but I... I just can't!" He felt a throb as he slammed his right fist into the cold hard well, his emotion shielding only a bit of the pain, by nonetheless he continued on. "I need your help, I need you to show me the way... Show me how to keep the peace. No.. I need you to bring me peace... I'm corrupted. I'm... Not right. I need you to guide me, I need you to keep me on the path of peace. I won't lie... Because you have seen it all... I can't lie. I have been an awful knight, my honor is trashed... I have had no respect, no code... My name has been disrespected by my blade and hands. May my blood spill... On enemy lands if I continue my ways." He began to breathe slowly, thinking about all the past days, and events he had indulged himself in. "Consider this... My confessions."
"I have vowed to kill a man, although it was a side of me I am not proud of... I won't sit here and avoid the truth. As a knight of your peace and code I am obliged to tell the truth... And that is that I have failed you. I have wanted to get even with this man for a long time... The rogue knight... The man who had dumped me into the waters of our land. Alas it was a cruel day when a knight of our own vows to kill a man... And for that I must say sorry. For if you wish to punish me I shall not decline, if it is death by beheaded I will not decline, may you wish to have the commoners stone my until I die... I will not decline. Lord Dyres wouldn't look twice in my direction... And I wouldn't judge him. I am no knight.. I am a pathetic excuse for a human being... I have held a woman against a wall... A blade pressed to her body, with intentions to kill... I am no better than the scum who plagued the earth and still do... A common madman inherits this body and for that I must apologize."
"Lord Sylir... If you can hear me... Please no that I am sorry. Please know that I wish for all to be forgiven, please know that I will clear and restore honor to the Yamehaka household. I will no longer live to disappoint you... I only aim to please you my lord. I am to keep the peace... I just need your guidance... Thank you lord Sylir and may you bless Syliras and my blade in your name... " K kept his position as he looked up and tossed on more golden miza into the well. Giving a slight smile, he couldn't help but think if the god's had heard his messages. Did other gods listen to him, did they wonder why he didn't pray to them... He then thought of Rhysol and his smile was replaced with a frown, thinking about the sick god. "And may sad days and bad luck come for the dark one, may he be judged by all with eyes of disappointment... May he meet his demise." K said softly as he tossed one more coin in, not wanting to say his name and kill his mood. He stayed sitting on the well, a smile creeping back up on his face, well a slight grin to be exact. As he looked up into the sky... He wondered if he had made the right decision. To start finally worshiping... Pretty soon he would had to take a trip to the temple of the gods... All gods. But for now the only thing he could think of was...
How long will I be alone? Am I alone?... Now?
Morning (8th bell)
Morning had struck awfully faster thank K thought, he wanted to make it to the area before the streets crowded by commoners, and this was it. While everyone was sleeping, while everyone was resting, while everyone was inside. It was a crisp cool morning, not too cold but cold enough. He had on simple clothes, although they weren't his usual attire, they were K's. Wearing a black cloak, black tee shirt, and a pair of black baggy pants. His pants were sagging but not showing his underwear, just enough to hang. Because he wasn't in the presence of any knights, he wouldn't have to worry about his appearance. The feeling of being alone was more than enough to ease his mind, for he had always loved the silence, it was his only reprieve and relief... Next to sex of course. It was the only time for the one minded boy to think, unlike his brother Kise, he was only good at fighting... Not thinking. But today was different, today he had a lot of thinking to do, he had to think about his future. He had just arrived at the well in relative speed, barely around eighth bell. This was great time considering he had just woke up around the seventh bell. Sliding off of the saddle of his horse he began to tie it to a nearby horse rack, looking around to see if anyone was in the area, he was happy to see it was vacated.
Walking over to the well quietly, he put on his hood, the hood connected to his cape. As he finally made it to the well, he peered inside of it's bowels, hoping to see something. Nothing seemed to actually peak his interest, or even reach the peak for that interest. This forced him to turn around, still leaning his back on the simple well, as he scanned the area. "Nothing..." He said softly with a quick sigh, he looked from right to left, sweeping the land with his optical search.
A bird... Two birds... A beautiful women sitting on a bench... A stray cat... A piece of cloth... He quickly turned back to the well, leaning in once more, looking for something. "Wait?" He snapped his head around and looked for the woman... But she was no longer. He began to look down, after rubbing his eyes, was he imagining? "K.. All this stress... Your killing yourself." He said softly with a chuckle as he took out five golden Mizas. He placed them all on top of the well, creating a line around the side an inch between every coin, then he took a step back. He began to walk around the well, rubbing his right hand along the walls and closing his eyes, as he tried to suck in the imaginary emotions of the well. "Kova's wishing well... Why it was named this I don't know..." He gave a small chuckle, as he finally found himself back at where he started. He began to wonder, this was where people came to... To what. To admire this ordinary well? To mourn for Kova? To make simple personal wishes for pathetic gains? He couldn't understand the purpose of this well, so he decided to make his own... Hopefully... It would work for him. He wasn't equipped with any weapons except his simple Tamo daggers, stored together as a club in his pocket, he decided to begin what he had came to do as he scooped up the pockets and placed them into his pocket. Climbing up on top of the well, he had took a seat, resting his back on one of the wooden supports holding the pulley for the bucket. His left foot left hanging, while his right was planted firmly on the well, his head suspended in air as he placed his chin on his right knee. Holding his right knee in a small hugging position, he began to speak, hopefully he was alone enough to use his regular voice.
"Ivak... Since this was and is your girlfriends well. I will address you first... Hopefully you don't think the way I'm sitting is too disrespectful, because that's not what I mean..." K spoke out softly as he looked into the distance, wondering if what he was doing would have fallen on deaf ears. He spoke aloud, hoping the gods would hear him... Hopefully they did. Hopefully someone could comfort the boy who had been through so much ever since he became a squire, if not comfort then give him relief, if not relief... Then power. "Ivak... I don't really worship the gods... But I can say that out of all of them... You have the most respect from me..." He chuckled a bit, thinking about what he had just said and was saying. "Look at me, taking to a god like I am all high and mighty... Ya know..." He began to become quiet, thinking if he should say what he wanted to say next, also thinking what he should've said next. "I don't really know what I respect about you the most... Would it be your... Power? Your strength to protect What you love?" He choked a bit, hoping he didn't anger his imaginary god with his last comment. "You know... I know the gods exist... I know this. But I have never had contact with one, or at least not that I know of, so you can be pretty sure that I'm not one to show faith." "But for some reason... I have been looking for an output, a chance to... See there's something in my life I have been missing, or just don't know about... I know that I'm here. I know that I'm a squire on the path to knight hood... But what I'm trying to get at is..." K let out a sigh as he realized that this god must be laughing at him by now, that was the only possible thought, for if the situation was flipped he would've probably laughed at himself. "By the gods I'm hopeless..."
"Ivak. I have no idea what I want to say to you... Or what I'm even trying to say.. But what I will say is this... " He took in a deep breath, giving him the needed push to get his next request out of his chest.
[b] "Ivak. If your listening... Please come into my life.. Please. I need... Power to protect what I love... Possibly what I want, but mainly what I love. I'm pretty sure you can tell what's on my heart and mind, but please.. Please..please?" K looked up, hoping to see an explosion of some sort, gracing the gods graceful presence. He got nothing. Except, he didn't rage or slap a frown upon his face. No, he had matured a bit in the past few days, most likely because of his encounters. As he didn't hear the god's reply, he looked back down, placing his chin back on his knee. "Ha... It was silly of me to think that you were just gonna appear to some guy who just grew a bit of random faith... Especially because he had felt alone and in need of power... But nonetheless..." K spoke up a bit louder, hoping that his last message would be enough. "I will worship you. You now have my faith... I am now... Yours." He said with a serious voice, tossing one golden miza into the well, waiting till he heard the splash, which never came. "Well... With that being said I move on." "Now for you..."
"Sylir..."
"Sylir... You have my respect because of your values, you are peace and civilization. You are a necessary part of balance, you are a... God. Once a god always a god... Even if... Your dead." He clenched his fist at the thought, Syliras a godless place, or at least this was what he knew. "It's just that... I respect your ways. I respect peace and keeping the peace. I know that as a knight it would be and already is my job to strive to maintain this peace but I... I just can't!" He felt a throb as he slammed his right fist into the cold hard well, his emotion shielding only a bit of the pain, by nonetheless he continued on. "I need your help, I need you to show me the way... Show me how to keep the peace. No.. I need you to bring me peace... I'm corrupted. I'm... Not right. I need you to guide me, I need you to keep me on the path of peace. I won't lie... Because you have seen it all... I can't lie. I have been an awful knight, my honor is trashed... I have had no respect, no code... My name has been disrespected by my blade and hands. May my blood spill... On enemy lands if I continue my ways." He began to breathe slowly, thinking about all the past days, and events he had indulged himself in. "Consider this... My confessions."
"I have vowed to kill a man, although it was a side of me I am not proud of... I won't sit here and avoid the truth. As a knight of your peace and code I am obliged to tell the truth... And that is that I have failed you. I have wanted to get even with this man for a long time... The rogue knight... The man who had dumped me into the waters of our land. Alas it was a cruel day when a knight of our own vows to kill a man... And for that I must say sorry. For if you wish to punish me I shall not decline, if it is death by beheaded I will not decline, may you wish to have the commoners stone my until I die... I will not decline. Lord Dyres wouldn't look twice in my direction... And I wouldn't judge him. I am no knight.. I am a pathetic excuse for a human being... I have held a woman against a wall... A blade pressed to her body, with intentions to kill... I am no better than the scum who plagued the earth and still do... A common madman inherits this body and for that I must apologize."
"Lord Sylir... If you can hear me... Please no that I am sorry. Please know that I wish for all to be forgiven, please know that I will clear and restore honor to the Yamehaka household. I will no longer live to disappoint you... I only aim to please you my lord. I am to keep the peace... I just need your guidance... Thank you lord Sylir and may you bless Syliras and my blade in your name... " K kept his position as he looked up and tossed on more golden miza into the well. Giving a slight smile, he couldn't help but think if the god's had heard his messages. Did other gods listen to him, did they wonder why he didn't pray to them... He then thought of Rhysol and his smile was replaced with a frown, thinking about the sick god. "And may sad days and bad luck come for the dark one, may he be judged by all with eyes of disappointment... May he meet his demise." K said softly as he tossed one more coin in, not wanting to say his name and kill his mood. He stayed sitting on the well, a smile creeping back up on his face, well a slight grin to be exact. As he looked up into the sky... He wondered if he had made the right decision. To start finally worshiping... Pretty soon he would had to take a trip to the temple of the gods... All gods. But for now the only thing he could think of was...
How long will I be alone? Am I alone?... Now?