Ricky couldn't pull himself to smile as she congratulated him, as she gave the impression that it was good news he still didn't know what to feel. Ricky could only describe himself lost, the territory he now treked far beyond the power of his knowledge. When he looked at Leila sincerely in the eyes to understand why she said good father and husband, he actually found that Leila still seemed to be upset with something. Was it because he left without any time to say so? Or was it the news he had shared with her? He clearly had a lot to figure out now. Leila went off after Ariann, a small distance off to where he could hardly hear their short conversation. He stood up and watched the two, but didn't make any other movements to them. When Leila ran off however part of him wanted to stop her, and the other part wanted to stay put.
"Don't... Don't go." He didn't want either of them to run off on him, but it seems that it couldn't be helped. Slowly he turned back to where he was facing before and took a seat back on the fountain, his mind filled with newer questions that came about. 'Husband? How would I be a good husband? Why does she believe I'm gonna be a good parent?' That was two that had told him that, two people that tried to convince him otherwise. Yet they hadn't the ability to understand the pressure he felt, the fear in knowing that a child you made is growing, and how heavily dependant that child will be on you.
This fear was almost enough to paralyze Ricky, as he couldn't believe in himself as far as others could. Not when something this major came along, it became nearly impossible for Ricky to convince himself otherwise. 'I'm... I... I dunno what to do damn it!' He felt himself almost cry once more, the fear and worry settled in once more as he believed to be alone once more.
"Don't... Don't go." He didn't want either of them to run off on him, but it seems that it couldn't be helped. Slowly he turned back to where he was facing before and took a seat back on the fountain, his mind filled with newer questions that came about. 'Husband? How would I be a good husband? Why does she believe I'm gonna be a good parent?' That was two that had told him that, two people that tried to convince him otherwise. Yet they hadn't the ability to understand the pressure he felt, the fear in knowing that a child you made is growing, and how heavily dependant that child will be on you.
This fear was almost enough to paralyze Ricky, as he couldn't believe in himself as far as others could. Not when something this major came along, it became nearly impossible for Ricky to convince himself otherwise. 'I'm... I... I dunno what to do damn it!' He felt himself almost cry once more, the fear and worry settled in once more as he believed to be alone once more.