Spring 65
Sea of Grass, Northwestern Quadrant
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Canter foot had carried Ara with a certain uneasiness since the day that Ara had defended the Zith woman - the feeling of trust and oneness faltered between them. Ara was as my ch of it as Canter was. Each time she passed the horses head, she fanciet she saw disgust or fear in the wise old horse's eyes, and it made her stiff and clumsy in her seat. It was a different sort of lesson in riding - it was like learning to ride on a stranger, or a skittish mount - she learned a way of being forever in a state of ready tension, to listen not passively but actively. She found she rode, when cantering, better now with the distaff and spindle, as they emptied her mind, gave her a single point of focus. The spindle shook, and she knew the horse would bank.the distaff quivered a particular way, and she leaned back in her seat to let Canter slow.
It was worse, now. She had reported back to the webbing camp, with news of the lost Denusk, and asked permission to go seek out Vanator. As far as the camp was concerned, shed fit herself well enough on her first scouting expedition, finding her way home uneventfully after getting caught in a damaged snarl of web. She had even spent time repairing the snarl - in truth looking equally for signs of the Winged Woman to moon over, and signs of her own treason to disincorporate. She had sensed the mans posting positions across the web, and was following in him now, quickly.
And yet she was not sure who she wanted to meet. On the one hand, she wanted to see the man, yes. Both because she had a duty and... To see him, perhaps, as he was now. A man can look different when you know something of him. Would he be more attractive? Wasn't that supposed to be attractive, that feeling of someone consuming you, taking control of you? He was a man, of good family, and good countenance. But the little touch of the enamoured shed recognized was gone.
Instead she felt fear, a certain trepidation. The cold pit if her was full of it, unsure. She tried to simply picture him strong and straight on his Striders back, but... She could not. She kept picturing him hunched hungrily over her, rough hands, breath rank with hatred.
Had his strider reviled from him afterward, the way Canter had? Had his strider chastised him? No... No. The woman was...
She closed her eyes nd emptied her mind. No. She would not think of it.
Because, just behind hat thought was her fear: that perhaps she had volunteered to come into this part of the sea, hoping not for him - for when she was honest now, she was horrified at him, at the very idea of him, at the ugliness of lust and hate. But to hope, perhaps, for her.
Se reached deep, the late spring sage pollen high on the mid morning wind. She halted Canter, closed her eyes and breathed deep, drifting back into the web, searching.
Her fingers wove familiarly into the cording here, the work of her own spun heart, long silver lines, as pale and slender as the wink of the morning star. She held them, softly and began to hum - but she could not. She could not. Her song was gone. She only listened.
And there he was, still a ways away far from earshot for either of them. She drifted forward along the lines, the whisper of herself adding like a ghost, her lines back to herself slender and weak. She would have to be careful.
He was riding. But she saw his knot on the web, and he was not riding away. She laced her fingers into the knot and spun djed out from her lips, wrapping it around a twisted sentence.
"A sister of your clan, Delani Denusk, found alive. I will wait here down New Silver Trunk Web, for your response."
And she tied it to the mans anchor with her signature, a knot to one intimate with her identifiable as her own, and to own familiar with her people, identifiable as Drykas web work.
And then, she poured herself back onto strider, and she opened her eyes.
"Now we wait, Canter. He is a good Drykas. He will look before long."
She said the words is whisper and her voice quavered. She set the spindle and distaff to their saddle bag and drew out a flat expanse of lacework done by her teachers hand. Taking a hook, she began long rows of I letting knots, drifting meanwhile quietly in Anid it of the web. Back and forth. Waiting. And occasionally, with an empty, shameful hopeless hope, she turned her eyes upwards to scan the sky.
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Sea of Grass, Northwestern Quadrant
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Canter foot had carried Ara with a certain uneasiness since the day that Ara had defended the Zith woman - the feeling of trust and oneness faltered between them. Ara was as my ch of it as Canter was. Each time she passed the horses head, she fanciet she saw disgust or fear in the wise old horse's eyes, and it made her stiff and clumsy in her seat. It was a different sort of lesson in riding - it was like learning to ride on a stranger, or a skittish mount - she learned a way of being forever in a state of ready tension, to listen not passively but actively. She found she rode, when cantering, better now with the distaff and spindle, as they emptied her mind, gave her a single point of focus. The spindle shook, and she knew the horse would bank.the distaff quivered a particular way, and she leaned back in her seat to let Canter slow.
It was worse, now. She had reported back to the webbing camp, with news of the lost Denusk, and asked permission to go seek out Vanator. As far as the camp was concerned, shed fit herself well enough on her first scouting expedition, finding her way home uneventfully after getting caught in a damaged snarl of web. She had even spent time repairing the snarl - in truth looking equally for signs of the Winged Woman to moon over, and signs of her own treason to disincorporate. She had sensed the mans posting positions across the web, and was following in him now, quickly.
And yet she was not sure who she wanted to meet. On the one hand, she wanted to see the man, yes. Both because she had a duty and... To see him, perhaps, as he was now. A man can look different when you know something of him. Would he be more attractive? Wasn't that supposed to be attractive, that feeling of someone consuming you, taking control of you? He was a man, of good family, and good countenance. But the little touch of the enamoured shed recognized was gone.
Instead she felt fear, a certain trepidation. The cold pit if her was full of it, unsure. She tried to simply picture him strong and straight on his Striders back, but... She could not. She kept picturing him hunched hungrily over her, rough hands, breath rank with hatred.
Had his strider reviled from him afterward, the way Canter had? Had his strider chastised him? No... No. The woman was...
She closed her eyes nd emptied her mind. No. She would not think of it.
Because, just behind hat thought was her fear: that perhaps she had volunteered to come into this part of the sea, hoping not for him - for when she was honest now, she was horrified at him, at the very idea of him, at the ugliness of lust and hate. But to hope, perhaps, for her.
Se reached deep, the late spring sage pollen high on the mid morning wind. She halted Canter, closed her eyes and breathed deep, drifting back into the web, searching.
Her fingers wove familiarly into the cording here, the work of her own spun heart, long silver lines, as pale and slender as the wink of the morning star. She held them, softly and began to hum - but she could not. She could not. Her song was gone. She only listened.
And there he was, still a ways away far from earshot for either of them. She drifted forward along the lines, the whisper of herself adding like a ghost, her lines back to herself slender and weak. She would have to be careful.
He was riding. But she saw his knot on the web, and he was not riding away. She laced her fingers into the knot and spun djed out from her lips, wrapping it around a twisted sentence.
"A sister of your clan, Delani Denusk, found alive. I will wait here down New Silver Trunk Web, for your response."
And she tied it to the mans anchor with her signature, a knot to one intimate with her identifiable as her own, and to own familiar with her people, identifiable as Drykas web work.
And then, she poured herself back onto strider, and she opened her eyes.
"Now we wait, Canter. He is a good Drykas. He will look before long."
She said the words is whisper and her voice quavered. She set the spindle and distaff to their saddle bag and drew out a flat expanse of lacework done by her teachers hand. Taking a hook, she began long rows of I letting knots, drifting meanwhile quietly in Anid it of the web. Back and forth. Waiting. And occasionally, with an empty, shameful hopeless hope, she turned her eyes upwards to scan the sky.
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