When Matthew's touch changed, she expected for him to make her aware of another erogenous zone. But, she was not expecting the hot wave of desire that rippled through her body before dissipating just as quickly. In spite of how quickly the reaction came and left, the time was enough for a small, delicate growl of wanting to bubble up between her closed lips. The explanation of the point fell upon deaf ears as the newly clean woman attempted to make sense of how a single point on her body could affect her in such a way.
And then there was pressure again, sending another pulsing sensation dancing through her body, flickering from her fingertips and her toes before rebounding to settle deep within her belly. Once there, it paced quietly, growling and stalking satiation. The feeling, while not unpleasant, what very much unwanted. More often than she would like, Edreina found herself a slave to an urge: the urge to swim, the urge to explore, the urge to feel the wind dancing through her hair. Now, that urge was to be consumed by pleasure and lost in the sounds of passion. But she could not give in. Firstly, she was not entirely attracted to the current object - for there was no other word for it at this moment - of her attention: the harlot Matthew. Despite the fact that the familiarity of his blue eyes seemed to become more enticing with each moment, sex was but a sword to him.
Secondly, anything that might happen would come with a price tag.
Thirdly, for some reason, the thought of giving herself to anyone repulsed her. For the first time in years, Edreina craved something greater than sex. She wanted to make love to someone. And Matthew? He was not that someone. The instant her mind attempted to stray towards that line of thought, a cold sensation flashed through her body, washing away her arousal.
Tis not meant to be... Grow up and move on...
With a sigh, she turned and lay back lifting one leg so that it rested upon his shoulder. Attempting to distract herself, as was becoming habit nowadays, Edreina used her uninjured arm to lift a lock of her hair and examine it carefully. The ends were bleached to a light gold by the sun, but were ragged and rather rough, unlike the rest of her hair. It was definitely time to be cut. For a moment, her lips pursed as she wished that she would have thought to have her mother do it before she left, as had been their yearly tradition when she was younger.
"If you love the sea so much, why are you in Syliras?"
The question was innocent enough, but it blew Edreina's insides into a flurry. By traditional knowledge, she should be unsure of her decision to leave the Anchorage, the Suvan. She was a curious Tuna straying too far from the school, hoping that she would not be snared by a net or latch onto the wrong snack only to find a hook buried within. The question was a porthole into some of Edreina's most basic ideologies. "To learn... more." She finally answered rather lamely. How could she explain to an outsider what it felt like to constantly wonder what else was out there? To be mocked by everyone she held dear. "The Sea is enough. Our Father saw to that," she had heard so many times when saying her goodbyes. In spite of all of the warnings, her curiosity had been constantly goaded by the influx of outsiders passing through the Flotilla, giving her a taste of their culture. There were so many amazing people living through Mizahar. If she could learn a tenth of what they had to offer, she would be a better person. And, who knew! Perhaps, something she learned out in the world might be able to help her people upon the Anchorage and throughout the Suvan.
"When I lived on the Anchorage Flotilla," the Common name always seemed so clumsy to the Svefra, "I always saw people from the corners of Mizahar. They were so different from me, from what I've always known. I had to learn more. Syliras seemed to be the best place to start. It is... a melting pot." She smiled gently at the term liking the way that it sounded. She sat up to her elbows, startlingly unaffected by the sight of a very capable male between her legs, and sought some glimmer of recognition in his crystal eyes, hoping that she was not, once again, explaining herself to a brick wall. |