Closed Swimming as opposed to Soaking (Edreina)

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Swimming as opposed to Soaking (Edreina)

Postby Matthew on August 19th, 2013, 12:31 pm

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"You are welcome." He was almost painfully apathetic about the whole ordeal, a complete opposite to what she had briefly assumed. He simply turned from the kiss and went right back to eating. He was opposed to failure, but not really in this sense. He had picked up on the fact that she was looking for an answer from the kiss, and not actual any sort of physical or mental pleasure. From what he could tell, she was paying him a single Miza to silently help her out with whatever internal struggle she was dealing with. Funnily enough, if the red-head had been so inclined to actually demand that he put everything he had into it, he may very well have declined. He had a feeling it would take a little extra persuasion to push her body to where it would need to go, and he didn't really want to do that to the Svefra. He was generally opposed to using his magic for sly manipulation anyways. He had no desire to make enemies, and using magic to mess with someone's mind was certainly a quick way to go about that. He silently chewed on a few strips of dried beef before noticing the boat had turned back towards Syliras. He felt a moment of disappointment, but also just a bit of relief. He was still unsettled out here on the Suvan, so having something a bit more solid to stand on would do his heart good.

"So I am assuming you haven't actually told him how you feel yet?" The question came from left field, like many of them did. There was actually a tone of mild irritation for a moment, though. What would the harlot have to be irritated about? "That would make all of this so much more simple, you know. It is common sense to talk it out with the object of your affection in order to unravel how you feel about him. It doesn't have to be this complex little scheme that I am almost absolutely positive it is." He turned to her, raising an eyebrow, blue eyes staring steadily at her back as she slowly steered the ship back where it needed to go. There was still the lessons that she wanted him to give her, but he was fairly sure she didn't even need them. If she was going to try and seduce who he thought she might try to seduce, then he doubted she really needed that much finesse. Not that her target was easy or anything like that, Matthew had just seen the look in his eyes. He did what he could to read people, at least when it came to this particular subject. A dull elder could probably read his face when it came to the fire-head, though.

He was more or less irritated by how complex that emotions were making it. Perhaps there was more to the story, but in the back of his mind, even that didn't matter. If you stripped the emotion away from every situation and looked at from a purely logical standpoint, then in the end, it would usually become much more simple.

Matthew himself had taken steps to completely abolish himself of what she was struggling with now. He hadn't really shared it with anyone, but that was part of the reason for this whole entire charade. The need for love and companionship was almost the single most influential driving force to the mortal kind. Lust was a major component as well. After years upon years of selling both love and lust to any woman who would pay the right coin, he was eventually becoming numb to such feelings. He was devaluing the thing that so many held so important. Endless whores would solve probably one of the biggest pieces of his Problem. He doubted the fire-head would ever find such a solution to be desirable. She was noticeably passionate in her day-to-day life, so such an idea would be a complete contradiction to who she was. Her passion seemed to be part of her. More so than others with the same condition. Perhaps that was why she was making her problem so complex. She just couldn't help it.


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Postby Edreina on August 19th, 2013, 4:08 pm

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"So I am assuming you haven't actually told him how you feel yet? That would make all of this so much more simple, you know. It is common sense to talk it out with the object of your affection in order to unravel how you feel about him. It doesn't have to be this complex little scheme that I am almost absolutely positive it is."

At his words, Edreina felt a small, panicked sound rise into her throat. Tell him? How could she possibly tell him? Not when she herself knew not the truth of her feelings. And not while there was still...

She slowed the boat, nearly to a standstill, as she considered his words. "I don't tell him because I don't even truly know... How I feel. I've kept myself isolated from others so long that anything transcending friendship baffles me. So this... Whatever this is... I don't want to tell him anything until I'm sure." She hesitated, lower lip caught between her teeth. "And there is something else... Back in Falyndar... He fell for a woman of his own kind, and they were promised to one another. I fear that his only feelings for me stem from loneliness. I'm not..." She sighed once, a dark look crossing over her features. She wanted to say"good enough" but that was not the right phrase... She was good, far moreso than the tainted warrior. He had seen more darkness than Edreina could imagine existing, and had emerged harder; there was an undeniable darkness that clung to his soul. He had done unspeakable things in the name of his goddess and yet... She was drawn to him. As a moth was drawn to light the light in her was drawn to Razkar. For all his fierceness, his savagery, he was more fierce and strong and courageous and just... Everything that Edreina was not. "I'm not fit for him." she said finally, running a hand through her still damp hair.

On the Anchorage, pairs that formed usually had some common quality: intellectuals mated intellectuals, the strong mated the strong. Even in a Svefra's third or forth or fifth pairing, it was obvious which suit they favored. Surely it was the same for Myrians, for all sentient life. There was no doubt in Edreina's mind that eventually Razkar would lose his taste for how "different" she was and would move on. The strong and the weak, they could not exist together for long. Eventually the unevenness in the symbiosis would begin to weigh upon the stronger and send them off seeking more.

More.

Funny how that word kept emerging in Edreina's thoughts. To the Svefra, Razkar was more. More courageous, more strength, more willpower, more cunning. And every time she imagined becoming Razkar's more, her mind's eye was filled with a dusk-skinned woman, fierce and passionate, strong and brave and every bit the warrior her mate was. Would that not be a more fitting match? Would it not be better for Razkar to remember his vows to her, forget about Edreina, and move on in the life he was destined to have? But then, who was she to claim knowledge of Lhex's grand scheme?

Every time she though of being without Razkar... An odd feeling stirred her heart and upset her stomach. It was a younger sibling of the despair she knew she would feel if ever she was parted from the Suvan. He had become an aspect of her life that... Well she was not sure how she would fare without. But did he feel the same? Even remotely the same?

Groaning quietly, Edreina removed her hand from the water and rested her forehead upon it. She had never truly allowed herself to imagine what love was save for once in her youth. The only love she had ever needed was that of her pod and of Laviku, the all father. After a moment, she sighed and muttered a quick apology to Matthew. She absolutely abhorred bringing others into her problems, sullying them with her messes. But, he could ask. And certainly he could not begrudge her for her answer.
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Postby Matthew on August 20th, 2013, 9:29 pm

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"Oh. Well, that actually makes it a lot easier." Matthew blinked, and then went back to his dried beef without offering up any sort of explanation. He just wolfed the food down, though still quite polite with his bites. Drawing any sort of speech out of him while he had his mouth full was next to impossible, and he was certainly taking his time swallowing. Then he realized that the boat had pretty much stopped. He narrowed his eyes, pausing mid-chew, and glanced over to Edreina. Glancing back at the water, he suddenly came to the realization that he had just committed himself to a rather deep conversation. The girl hadn't actually talked about this with anyone? The savage and the fire-head briefly made the harlot consider a career change to sexual therapy. Or couples counseling, or something of the such. He would certainly make quite a few Mizas off of the two of them if he did. Finishing his mouthful of beef and swallowing, he slowly turned, patting his hand free of any leftover strands. Slowly rising, he headed over to the girl, a somewhat cautious eye on her.

She had her head on her hand, and he couldn't tell if she was crying into it. Her shoulders weren't moving, and he was pretty sure he had just heard her sigh. It seemed safe so far then. He still approached slowly, suspicious of what the conversation could draw him into. "I mean, it should be easy to just move on then. Right? I mean, you obviously have no idea of your own head. So much so that you buy a kiss from a harlot to try and figure out something. I know this will sound odd coming from me, but you don't need to listen to your head when it comes to this sort of thing. Your mind can be manipulated to think anything, if you aren't careful." He shrugged his shoulders, voice still quite neutral. "But I doubt you will ever be sure. You'd rather be unsure. It is safe that way. You'll just hint and stutter at it around him until he figures it out, or at least you secretly hope he will. Best just to abandon it. He has someone anyway. And you aren't fit, like you said. I don't see the problem."

His voice had changed from neutral to icy. Even if he wasn't purposefully meaning to, he was being rather harsh. He was blunt with his acknowledgement of all her reasons that she shouldn't pursue this, and even more blunt with the verification that she was completely right. She wouldn't figure it out. He did have someone. And she wasn't ever going to figure it out.

"Unless." A sudden ray of hope? He turned, heading back to his food. He had thought some sort of deeper conversation would be needed, but as he had spoken, he had realized something. It was actually all quite simple.

"Unless you are just a coward when it comes to this." Again, he didn't really spare her. They were just cold words. He spoke what he thought, and she had appreciated it before. Would she appreciate it now? "You are just scared of the result, so you are coming up with all these excuses. Does it make you feel a little bit better about how it is all going? It isn't your fault you haven't done something about your little problem. It is his. It is fate. It is the woman he is promised to." Matthew shrugged his broad shoulders, pausing at his food. He wobbled a bit as the ship bobbed, steadying himself and catching his balance before he sat. Folding his legs calmly under himself, he picked at his meal and lifted it to his lips. "Then you should really just forget it. It is obvious to anyone that a coward in anything is a horrible match for a warrior in everything. You'd just be a handicap." He turned to watch her, sticking the jerky in his mouth and tearing off a chunk, chewing at it slowly.

He failed to mention that Razkar was just as much of a coward as she was when it came to this sort of thing. But he wasn't about to say that out loud. It would probably get back to Razkar, and then the Myrian would come looking for him. Matthew was still afraid that the savage would take the harlot's pretty blue eyes and replace his own black ones. Myrians could probably do that.

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Postby Edreina on August 22nd, 2013, 12:43 am

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OOCApologies for the wait. I just kind of stared at this for about... forever. xD

"A coward..." Edreina sighed softly, shaking her head. "That is one thing I thought that I would never be called." A dry, humorless laugh bubbled up from between her lips and was greeted by a small, sad smile. "When I was a child... I was always the first to greet the newcomers to the Anchorage if I met them, the first to investigate an odd sight or sound. I have traveled all across the Upper Suvan entirely by myself. I befriended an Otani... And I befriended a Myrian... But telling that Myrian that I-... care for him... deeply... That is an entirely different matter for some reason..." She stood up and walked over to the mast, resting her shoulder against it, and her cheek. "Hells, I can't even admit my feelings to myself. You've surely noticed that by now."

Her index finger began to idly pick at a grain in the wood ever so gently, sating her nervous need to be doing something with her hands. "And that is because it terrifies me. What I feel. I have always purposely avoided falling into- coming to care for someone deeply," her mind had an affinity for switching speech tracks in an instant, as soon as she got too close to admitting what lay in her heart. "I don't want to get tied down, forced to stay in any one place with anyone to worry over except for myself. But Razkar..." Her nail became rougher on the wood. "I don't know. It is like I can't help myself. No matter how many times I told myself that we were just friends a deeper part of me knew that there was something more, something undeniable. And then, when I woke in the infirmary, and he was at my side..." There was a twinkling in her eyes, one that Matthew probably only saw a faint, nearly nonexistent version of in the eyes of each woman he seduced, if he even saw it at all.

In all of her life, Edreina had never been one to open up to others. Any problem that could not be fixed with a quick leap into the Suvan was not worth working through. But then Razkar came along. He was a puzzle and a challenge and a problem that she would never grow tired of attempting to solve, to figure out. He challenged her mentally and physically to extents she had never dreamt of, he had reawakened her soul. And, despite finally opening up, to at least some degree, to the harlot, old habits tended to die hard.

With a groan, the woman walked from the edge of the ship and disappeared with a splash into the Suvan.
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Postby Matthew on August 23rd, 2013, 12:26 pm

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He shrugged indifferently at her first comment. Did it really matter what she thought she would be called? People would form their own opinions. They would notice the facts. Had she simply changed from what she envisioned herself to be at this point in her life? Matthew had often noticed that love came unexpectedly. He supposed this was the same exact thing. Her confusion, lack of confidence, and general loss of control over her own feelings and the situation was exactly one of the reasons he didn't bother with this sort of thing. He had dreamed of losing control, just like she had lost control of something inside of herself. Even worse, though only maybe to him. He had hated every moment of those dreams.

Turning to try and put an end to the conversation, knowing that it was about to turn into an endless circle of saying the same thing in different ways, he was instead met with the woman diving off the side of the ship. Blinking rapidly, he sat there a moment before furrowing his brow. This is what he earned when he meddled. They had been so close to leaving the still-scary Suvan, and now they had come a complete stop and she had even gotten off the ship. They weren't going to be getting back any time soon, were they? Sighing quietly to himself, Matthew gently put down the bite of beef that he had been holding and slowly stood. Walking to the edge of the ship, keeping away from the edge out of the faint suspicion that she would grab him, he glanced around until he found the confused Edreina roaming around in the waters. Crossing his arms, he stared down at her, his face like a stone statue. There was a flicker of displeasure in those intense blue eyes though, which was saying something. Tilting his head, he curled his lip a bit and then finally managed to speak. "I very much doubt Razkar will stay in one place, nor do I think you will have to worry about him." How could she? Had she seen the hulking thing? He supposed she knew him better than he did, though. Sighing again, he tilted his head back and stared at the sky.

"You do realize it is only a feeling?" It probably wasn't what she wanted to hear. Perhaps she wouldn't even believe him. He didn't really care. He had started this whole business to numb himself to the very thing she was now feeling. He had learned to mask the numbness in his eyes when he stared upon a woman, and now he was having to mask the utter apathy in his voice when he spoke of it. He did quickly correct himself though, not meaning it how it probably sounded. "It isn't a knife. Or flame. It will not burn, nor will it pierce. Yes, it can hurt, but it will not kill. People seem to forget that so very much. What is there to be afraid of? You say you are afraid of admitting your feelings, but have you considered what else there is to be scared of?" He tilted his head the other direction. Love was a logical thing to him, which was completely opposite to how so many other people seemed to feel about it. "And when you consider that, have you realized how much clearer it makes your feelings? Imagine him with the woman that he is promised to. Imagine him leaving you behind. Loving someone isn't simply being able to live with them. It is the realization that you can't live without them, and actually making a move to do something about it. Love isn't merely emotion. Like and want are emotion. Love is very much a lot of decision."

Poetic, wasn't he? It was odd to hear the harlot talk like a lover with that oddly apathetic tone to his voice. "I can make people feel like and want. I can even make people feel love, if just for a moment. But, it is a lot more than just a feeling. That is why I cannot completely replicate it." He was fine admitting that. Honestly, love had no place in his profession. It was okay during the heat of the moment. Many people felt love in intimacy. Beyond that though? It was something he didn't care to dabble with.

He hoped he was getting through to her. He didn't want to spend the night out in the middle of the ocean. And what if Razkar came? Actually, if that happened, he might want to stay the night. At least he would have a show before bedtime.
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Postby Edreina on August 24th, 2013, 11:08 pm

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After being utterly unable to clear her mind beneath the Suvan, the redhead pulled herself into the ship and fell upon the deck with a groan. Her head hurt nearly as badly as her shoulder, but the pain there was inexplicable, and mildly infuriating. Without a word, she plunged her hand into the water and commenced manipulating the ship without the sail. They had a headwind now, so maybe this would be faster.

The Svefra did not speak, she did not smile nor even look at the harlot. She just wanted to alone at this point, to be able to think things over on her own. She had thought that talking to Matt would only make things easier, but it had done just the opposite to her. Matthew had introduced an entirely new way of thinking that the redhead would now take into consideration as well.

She just needed... space. Had Matthew not been there, she would have simply stayed at sea until Laviku's cleansing realm calmed her enough for her thoughts to sort themselves out.

Sort themselves out.

Her eyes lowered fractionally as she realized she was once again refusing to claim responsibility for her own confusion. She needed to sort out her thoughts. They were hers after all, so she should take control of them and get herself under control. But it wasn't that easy, was it?

Once they reached the dock, Edreina sighed and stood, moving about her boat in order to secure it before turning to Matthew, finally."Thank you for your help," she said hollowly, eyes downcast. Did he not realize how difficult it would be for such a passionate creature to suddenly begin applying logic to matters she considered to be within the jurisdiction of the heart and the soul rather than the mind?
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Postby Matthew on August 27th, 2013, 11:13 am

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Thank Tanroa and Lhex and all the other lesser-known deities that he wasn't famiilar with. They were moving. He was quite unaware of her mental distress, taking her silence as a sign that she was thinking things over. That is what he was usually doing when he was silent. Instead, he focused on the fact that the shore was coming closer, and closer, and closer... and finally they bumped into it with a little thump sound, the boat shuddering oddly and causing Matthew to nearly tip over as the random movement jolted his legs. Biting his lip, he quickly flexed his stomach muscles, doing his very best to keep himself balanced. He staggered a bit, but caught himself, hopping forward a little and then doing a nice little leap over the edge of the ship and onto the dock. Once he was on the solid ground, he let loose a breath he hadn't been aware he was holding, bending over to put his hands on his knees. Oddly enough, he felt even more off balance now that he was on ground that wasn't moving. He took a few moments to walk back and forth on the little dock, glancing up at Edreina. She was acting strangely. Had he spoken out of line?

Then she thanked him, and that was that. A small and polite small lit his face, a nod given in response. If he had helped, then he would settle for that. He obviously didn't know that the thanks was hollow, or that he had befuddled the passionate creature even more. If put to the test, he wasn't even sure what a passionate creature was. It just wasn't something he had encountered and wrapped his mind around.

"You are welcome. Best of luck with it all." To him, the heart and soul had no jurisdiction. They were not physically capable of producing emotion or thought, which was what she was struggling with now. There was nothing spiritual or romantic about it to him, it was all simple logic. Emotions were logical, though extremely hard to unwind. That is why he didn't want to deal with them himself. If she thought she had a handle on it though, then who was he to argue? Turning, he tossed a wave over his shoulder and gave another short nod as he stepped away. "Thank you for the ride. We'll have to do it again one day."

He was mostly being polite. He'd have to come out here a few times on his own to make sure he wasn't going to play the part of the fool again. And to check for sea monsters. He didn't actually trust her and whatever sort of magic she thought she was using. He was soon gone, leaving the fire-head alone with everything new there was to struggle with.
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