Raiha looked up from her hands, as she tried to coax the res to become airy and vaporous once more. She did. Too well - it seemed to have evaporated, and focusing on the area where it had been with her Auristics showed a thinly-stretched cloud of it. She frowned at it, and tried to draw it back to her without touching it. Movements were a handicap. She had to learn to manipulate it while being still. Sure, that was setting a high standard for a neophyte, but she didn’t need Kanikra to tell her that she had to either go big or go home. Work smarter, not harder. Develop those habits from the start rather than rely on baby steps that might led straight to an early grave. The young Akontak breathed out, eyes narrowed as she looked overhead at the res which was still trickling upwards. Come back, she urged it silently, come back.
She coaxed it back together, at least, into a single, compressed cloud. It was like herding cats or chickens. She would get one clump of res back to the main body, and another piece would break away. She was sweating by the time it was staying in once place. Bringing it down without grabbing it, however... She could change the density of it. Make it heavier. That would bring it down, certainly. But she had managed that before, and now she wanted to control where it was and how it was moving. Raiha tried to imagine it coming back down. It just kept floating insolently, out of reach, and not at all where she wanted it to be. She pursed her lips, and envisioned sticking her hand back into the core of golden fire, that filled every part of her body with a blazing warmth and breathed it in before trying to pull it back down. This time, it came, lower and lower until it drifted in front of her, trying to segment again as she clamped down on it, keeping it together, reinforcing the shape she wanted it in - presently, a ball. With one hand in the wellspring in her core, manipulating and controlling it became easier as she slowly, slowly expanded the ball. Its shape wavered. She blinked, closing her eyes for a minute, her thumbs touching, the rest of her fingers interlaced.
She watched the core slowly expanding. The return of djed made the core brighter, more powerful, and she had to back away from it, easing her hand out so that the palm was only touching it. That was good. She was getting her energies under control again. She opened her eyes as the ball of res stabilized. “We all wear a mask. We all play a role. The only true freedom that we have is who we are within,” she smiled faintly at that. She wasn’t sure she even had that, with Kanikra lurking there, like a spectre cloaked in shadows, watching, waiting to pounce on faults, to harass and harangue whenever and wherever necessary in her crusade to improve her sister-soul. She had backed off somewhat, just a little bit, since meeting their fathers.
Somewhat.
She removed her hand from the wellspring, watching it glow, before sticking her other hand in it, too. There. Now she could experiment with that, and see what that did. In her mind, she poked at the ball of djed, making it roll slowly away from her in the air. She chuckled again, the faint smile turning to a grin. So. That was how it wanted to do it, huh? She pulled it back to her, using djed-soaked hands to hold the ball in front of her. Well, now... that made things easier. “It’s finding those little things,” she breathed, “the secrets that have been there all along, and you realize... how silly that you didn’t see it from the start.” She let out a low, controlled breath. In some ways, this was like meditating. It was pure focus. Except while she was in a state of relaxed alertness in meditation, open and receptive to the world around and within her, here, she was alert and aware, and focused, primarily on herself and the djed that had manifested outside of her body. “It won’t come back in, will it? Once djed becomes res, it stays res or becomes an element, but it cannot be reabsorbed and returned to its initial state?” She had a few sips of water, wiping at her forehead with her shoulder to clear away the beads of sweat that had accumulated there. “Let’s see if we can figure out what element I’ll be starting with. Which element chooses me.”
She coaxed it back together, at least, into a single, compressed cloud. It was like herding cats or chickens. She would get one clump of res back to the main body, and another piece would break away. She was sweating by the time it was staying in once place. Bringing it down without grabbing it, however... She could change the density of it. Make it heavier. That would bring it down, certainly. But she had managed that before, and now she wanted to control where it was and how it was moving. Raiha tried to imagine it coming back down. It just kept floating insolently, out of reach, and not at all where she wanted it to be. She pursed her lips, and envisioned sticking her hand back into the core of golden fire, that filled every part of her body with a blazing warmth and breathed it in before trying to pull it back down. This time, it came, lower and lower until it drifted in front of her, trying to segment again as she clamped down on it, keeping it together, reinforcing the shape she wanted it in - presently, a ball. With one hand in the wellspring in her core, manipulating and controlling it became easier as she slowly, slowly expanded the ball. Its shape wavered. She blinked, closing her eyes for a minute, her thumbs touching, the rest of her fingers interlaced.
She watched the core slowly expanding. The return of djed made the core brighter, more powerful, and she had to back away from it, easing her hand out so that the palm was only touching it. That was good. She was getting her energies under control again. She opened her eyes as the ball of res stabilized. “We all wear a mask. We all play a role. The only true freedom that we have is who we are within,” she smiled faintly at that. She wasn’t sure she even had that, with Kanikra lurking there, like a spectre cloaked in shadows, watching, waiting to pounce on faults, to harass and harangue whenever and wherever necessary in her crusade to improve her sister-soul. She had backed off somewhat, just a little bit, since meeting their fathers.
Somewhat.
She removed her hand from the wellspring, watching it glow, before sticking her other hand in it, too. There. Now she could experiment with that, and see what that did. In her mind, she poked at the ball of djed, making it roll slowly away from her in the air. She chuckled again, the faint smile turning to a grin. So. That was how it wanted to do it, huh? She pulled it back to her, using djed-soaked hands to hold the ball in front of her. Well, now... that made things easier. “It’s finding those little things,” she breathed, “the secrets that have been there all along, and you realize... how silly that you didn’t see it from the start.” She let out a low, controlled breath. In some ways, this was like meditating. It was pure focus. Except while she was in a state of relaxed alertness in meditation, open and receptive to the world around and within her, here, she was alert and aware, and focused, primarily on herself and the djed that had manifested outside of her body. “It won’t come back in, will it? Once djed becomes res, it stays res or becomes an element, but it cannot be reabsorbed and returned to its initial state?” She had a few sips of water, wiping at her forehead with her shoulder to clear away the beads of sweat that had accumulated there. “Let’s see if we can figure out what element I’ll be starting with. Which element chooses me.”