The woman shrunk back at the harsh words the man spoke to her. She couldn’t criticize anything, though. She wasn’t much better than he was. She kept trying to understand what made her obligated to say such words to him.
A part of her knew she didn’t mean it, but another part of her knew that it would hurt him. The latter portion of her thoughts were correct. Her words cut him like a knife, much like he had done to the empty vessel of the man lying bloody on the floor a few feet away from them.
She bowed her head and stifled a few more sobs. She was weak and she had no self-control. She knew she wouldn’t last in this world all alone. She knew that she had grown up faster than she should have. But she also knew that life wasn’t fair. It played nasty games with an individual until eventually they crack from under the pressure. Was Lenz soon to crack too?
The woman dared to look at Roy, his expression hostile. She was able to picture froth coming from his mouth if she could, but tried not to. This would only give her more anxiety than she already had.
“You don’t give one shyke about other people.” She cringed at his words. She understood his anger, but she didn’t understand how touchy he reacted.
Ever since she could remember, Lenz has always been considerate of others. She knew when they were feeling terrible or when they hurt, but she never knew how much. She always ended up pushing someone over the edge with her words.
She was a terrible person like that. But isn’t everyone in some distinct way?
Lenz knew she was in a very bad situation when the man suddenly stood up. She tried to cry out in disagreement, but her words were hushed over the dark tone he gave her.
“Now you understand why people don’t help other people out here.” She had managed to learn this firsthand the very next day she had arrived in Sunberth. A wonderfully critical woman with words like a dagger had spat at her with rage. She was as testy as Roy was acting just now.
“ You don’t think I feel guilty enough? You don’t think I am beating myself up over and over again on the inside?” Lenz bowed her head again, giving double takes at the man over her shoulder. Her head swayed on a needle as she tired from all the enemies she was making.
She admitted she wasn’t the best person to be around, and the truth was, she was more compatible with kids. She had always been easier with children than she was with people her own age. This was a flaw in her personality and it was one she despised every waking minute of the day.
“Enjoy your stay.”
She tried to will herself to lose control, but this was something she just couldn’t do. She had had episodes in the past where she had become so infuriated that she had pounded on another person with harsh words and few physical actions, but this was random. It couldn’t be acted upon on the spot.
“No,” she said, her nose wrinkling in disgust. “I won’t enjoy my stay.”
She was acting like a child now, and she knew it, but she persisted her point, without a clue in her mind where she was taking this. Why not make another full blown enemy?
“I’m sorry if my words are offensive. Sometimes I’m about as stupid as a newborn child, but you know we’re aren’t all perfect,” she muttered loud enough that her voice echoed over to where Roy now stood.
“I could have just let you die right there on the floor after you killed that man, but I didn’t. Think of that as my act of gratitude. I am thankful of you for saving my life, so don’t you think otherwise.”
She was on a roll now, spitting out things here and there. Her eyes were narrowed slightly now as she stared down her oppose with vigorous distaste. She wished with much of her heart that it hadn’t come to this.
“I didn’t have to wrap that bandage around you. I didn’t have to go over to that stinky, gross, dead body and rip off the fabric to stop you from bleeding out. But I did.”
She was near close to adding more; preaching to him about whether or not he had ever thought about that or not, but she remained silent. It was best to not thrown more tinder on the fire that was already burning between them.
She decided to try water instead as she calmly stated, “We all have different ways of showing things,” before getting up and tentatively walking over to the man again.
She wiped the blood from her chin with one hand and outstretched her other without hesitation. She took a deep breath and gulped the cold winter air that surrounded her.
“I’m sorry,” she said, her locks of red hair falling in front of her eyes. “Can we start over?”
A part of her knew she didn’t mean it, but another part of her knew that it would hurt him. The latter portion of her thoughts were correct. Her words cut him like a knife, much like he had done to the empty vessel of the man lying bloody on the floor a few feet away from them.
She bowed her head and stifled a few more sobs. She was weak and she had no self-control. She knew she wouldn’t last in this world all alone. She knew that she had grown up faster than she should have. But she also knew that life wasn’t fair. It played nasty games with an individual until eventually they crack from under the pressure. Was Lenz soon to crack too?
The woman dared to look at Roy, his expression hostile. She was able to picture froth coming from his mouth if she could, but tried not to. This would only give her more anxiety than she already had.
“You don’t give one shyke about other people.” She cringed at his words. She understood his anger, but she didn’t understand how touchy he reacted.
Ever since she could remember, Lenz has always been considerate of others. She knew when they were feeling terrible or when they hurt, but she never knew how much. She always ended up pushing someone over the edge with her words.
She was a terrible person like that. But isn’t everyone in some distinct way?
Lenz knew she was in a very bad situation when the man suddenly stood up. She tried to cry out in disagreement, but her words were hushed over the dark tone he gave her.
“Now you understand why people don’t help other people out here.” She had managed to learn this firsthand the very next day she had arrived in Sunberth. A wonderfully critical woman with words like a dagger had spat at her with rage. She was as testy as Roy was acting just now.
“ You don’t think I feel guilty enough? You don’t think I am beating myself up over and over again on the inside?” Lenz bowed her head again, giving double takes at the man over her shoulder. Her head swayed on a needle as she tired from all the enemies she was making.
She admitted she wasn’t the best person to be around, and the truth was, she was more compatible with kids. She had always been easier with children than she was with people her own age. This was a flaw in her personality and it was one she despised every waking minute of the day.
“Enjoy your stay.”
She tried to will herself to lose control, but this was something she just couldn’t do. She had had episodes in the past where she had become so infuriated that she had pounded on another person with harsh words and few physical actions, but this was random. It couldn’t be acted upon on the spot.
“No,” she said, her nose wrinkling in disgust. “I won’t enjoy my stay.”
She was acting like a child now, and she knew it, but she persisted her point, without a clue in her mind where she was taking this. Why not make another full blown enemy?
“I’m sorry if my words are offensive. Sometimes I’m about as stupid as a newborn child, but you know we’re aren’t all perfect,” she muttered loud enough that her voice echoed over to where Roy now stood.
“I could have just let you die right there on the floor after you killed that man, but I didn’t. Think of that as my act of gratitude. I am thankful of you for saving my life, so don’t you think otherwise.”
She was on a roll now, spitting out things here and there. Her eyes were narrowed slightly now as she stared down her oppose with vigorous distaste. She wished with much of her heart that it hadn’t come to this.
“I didn’t have to wrap that bandage around you. I didn’t have to go over to that stinky, gross, dead body and rip off the fabric to stop you from bleeding out. But I did.”
She was near close to adding more; preaching to him about whether or not he had ever thought about that or not, but she remained silent. It was best to not thrown more tinder on the fire that was already burning between them.
She decided to try water instead as she calmly stated, “We all have different ways of showing things,” before getting up and tentatively walking over to the man again.
She wiped the blood from her chin with one hand and outstretched her other without hesitation. She took a deep breath and gulped the cold winter air that surrounded her.
“I’m sorry,” she said, her locks of red hair falling in front of her eyes. “Can we start over?”