Spring 24th, 514 AV – The Knight’s Armoury – Midday
Zandelia found herself leaning upon the stone wall that comprised the shop front for the Knight’s Armoury, one foot upon the stone so that her right knee was jutting out at a perpendicular. She was filled with a jittering feeling for the first time in as long as she could remember. These were not the butterflies of love, nor the twisting of fear. It was the feeling that one got when they knew that they had done wrong, done wrong to someone who whilst may have been met a handful of days previously was worthy of more than an affronted retort. Her bones felt heavier than usual, flickering of guilt burrowing through her head.
I shouldn’t have said it, I know I shouldn’t. Oh, she gave as good as she got but It was a low thing to comment on, not really bond building material. Least I now know she’s sensitive about it…won’t be making that mistake in a hurry she told herself sadly.
“I’m just surprised we didn’t try to kill each other, the crew certainly gave us the fearful eyes as if expecting a scuffle” she muttered to herself, sadness turning into a dark cloud of fleeting anger.
She had been insulted in exchange and it still stung. She was not a little girl, nor a young woman but deep down inside her she still held insecurities about herself that were just so easy to exploit by those who could read her well enough. Oh she flaunted herself, her current garb shone tat out like a beacon, but that was just business. Business required the use of any asset, no matter how bloody or crude. She considered what she wore – tight leather trousers, white blouse pulled tight under a body-hugging corset. Leather jacket and gloves finished the attractive scenery, though her Shadowsilk Robes draped over her shoulder carefully fell to hide that body part.
“Petching little shyking…” she trailed off the muttering, seeking control as she waited to see if her peace offering would even be accepted, “I hope she does, otherwise I’ve lost a decent ally” she sighed to herself, not willing to admit how quickly Bitzer had grown upon her – close quarters bred affection as the saying went.
Losing Bitzer would not have been the worst thing to have ever happened to her of course, but it would put her plans back and cost her the wit and wisdom of a woman who she fancied could match most men in their fetid, skulking city. Sunberth! She watched the crowd ebb and flow, they were the life’s blood of Sunberth – not the syndicates. The mob ruled it, though they were tricked into thinking that they didn’t for the most part. She hoped to sue that, Bitzer hoped to use that too she thought. They had had ten days to discuss all manner of subjects, from philosophy to schemes. There was a crude outline of events that they hoped to achieve but so far nothing to achieve them with. She wondered if Bitzer had spent the last few days seeking out her supposed contacts and taking action.
Perhaps she doesn’t even need me? Perhaps…I am… she slipped into self-loathing melancholy then, her dreams had dark of late.
She missed Orvin too, that little pup had always had a way of cheering her up. His boundless energy and playful personality seemed to reflect everything that Zandelia was not.
“Come on lass, show up. Come on. I need you. You need me. Come on” she whispered to herself, a mantra over and over as she protected her bagged belongings upon the floor and awaited her judgement.