Life Takes Over
Alright. Let's get down to business. I hate it when people disappear on here and do not say goodbye, so I will attempt to explain to anyone who is interested, why I am cutting down on my time in Mizahar.
These past few months have been hard, and I don't think it would be unusual to say that 2014 was a hella shitty year. Honestly, I really have yet to meet someone who was actually really excited about what happened last year. Most of the reactions I've heard, here and IRL, are either "meh" or "LET IT BE DONE WITH". Personally, I am siding with the latter. Well, emotional hits that set off my teenager meltdowns aside, I have not been myself lately. I started full throttle on this site. I was so pumped to be apart of this community and participate in this awesome experience (Don't get me wrong, I am definitely still there), but I've been in a slump lately and it killed my activity in creativity.
Because I am a very strong believer in the idea that you are in charge of yourself, I've taken steps to move on. There were losses and set backs that I justify my reactions to, but there were other events that I didn't need to worry about so much. To distract myself, I focused on my future. Since I am just graduating high school, I, quite literally, have my entire life ahead of me. I am dipping my toes into the shallow end of what I hope to be my career. I am pushing myself to my limits to finish all my education in as little time as possible, because I can't wait to grow up.
As a result of this sudden burst of motivation and progress in life, I have lost all my spare time. I am in high school, trying to finish my GED before next august, I am also taking two college courses at my community college (because they are free since I'm still in high school, so why not get it out of the way?). Between that, I am working, as most teenagers do, to get myself a car, and was just accepted into a very awesome course on Script Supervising (the person in charge of watching continuity on a film set), that is top notch. There was no hesitation on me grabbing that chance.
So, all in all, my life is finally turning around, and I am glad it is, but it is pulling me away from Mizahar as a result. I really regret it, I do, but it all comes down to the harsh truth. RL is more important than Mizahar. I wish it wasn't, I really do. And so I am cutting back to my one and only character. I am stepping down as an ST and I might seem to disappear for a bit, but I am here, just barely. I need to make it clear that I am not leaving, its just that I'm decreasing my presence.
Also, I'm sick, and have been sick, of this social bullcrap. Honestly, I've never really been good at it. I know I sound rude, but I connect with a few people and then find away to get myself on the bad side of everyone else on accident, so I try to avoid that. Sorry if I've pissed anyone off during this past year. Some of you can see I don't come in chat anymore and refrain from posting OOC, unless pertaining to IC play, and so I will be discontinuing my scrap. I'm just going to sort of let it fade away... and that is why I feel as if I am saying goodbye.
