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One year of Undeath.

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An undead citadel created before the cataclysm, Sahova is devoted to all kinds of magical research. The living may visit the island, if they are willing to obey its rules. [Lore]

Deathdays

Postby Pandaemus on June 26th, 2014, 9:02 am

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30th Day of Summer in the 514th Year After the Valterrain
Noon in the Prairie


It was his birthday. His death-day? His undeath-day? It was the one year anniversary of his descent into undeath and the cementing of his fate in the hands of Uldr. He had spent a year struggling to come to terms with the slow, disturbing degradation of his body as well as the loss of empathy he barely felt anymore. He had spent a year losing his humanity.

The corpse walked through a prairie.

Pandaemus carried with him the dysfunctional carcass of his latest ambitious attempt at a golem. It had failed. The directives had been flawed. Pan had done the entire project sloppily. The repetitive animations of the past season under Cid’s tutelage had numbed his mind to a certain degree. The apprentice had slipped up. Now the evidence must be destroyed. As he has exited the Citadel Pan had decided that instead of simply dropping the failed construct in the Prairie he would banish it to the void. It was a good excuse to practice his voiding, he had been neglecting the secondary art in favor of animation. But a true wizard expanded their entire knowledge-base.

“I am a true wizard.” Pan rasped, his voice hoarse from lack of use, and death. The words were frail and pathetic compared to the dark reality of Sahova. The overpowering majesty of it’s deathly power and mystery. A true wizard. True wizards walked the halls of Sahova, cold and eternal in their shrouds of dark knowledge. But he was not one of them.

Yet.

He found a patch of bare earth dried hard and flat after a summer rain. This would do. Pan unsheathed the kris from his belt. He had purchased the weapon on a whim, needing a tool to cut wood for some project. It had worked well enough, but the Nuit had used the project as an excuse to arm himself. It was naive, it was stupid. He was neither physically capable nor proficient enough to defend himself from most threats with the weapon. But it did have a few uses, and it was rather well forged.

Pan watched the sunlight shift across the wavy steel of the blade, sliding almost like liquid over the mirror edge. He knelt, not very gracefully. The tip of the kris began to draw a fine line in the dirt. The blade sired and the dirt was shifted to form a spiral, Pan’s focus glyph and the beginning of an solid glyphing. It was a bit wobbled, but he was satisfied.

The Nuit began to systematically create lines of diamond shaped glyphs, his Pathways, in a cross coming from the Focus. Then he finished forming an outer circle with Barrier glyphs. The end result was not very impressive, but he assessed it would get the job done. The glyph he had scratched in the dried dirt was about three handbreadths wide, quite ambitious for a someone so new to the art.

Glyphing had been a positive that had come out of Pan’s first meeting with Annalisa Marin. She had taught him a bit of glyphing, and in exchange he had explained the rudiments of animation to her. She had intimidated Pan pretty easily, being a far superior wizard. But the exchange had been beneficial to the Nuit on the whole. The glyphing had severely streamlined his animations and on a few instances, stabilized his void portals. He was, however, far from proficient.

As they said, practice makes perfect.

Pan closed his eyes, trying with all his willpower to meditate on the idea of complete emptiness. He felt the blackness in his mind and imagined it was empty of all things. The dirt and the tall yellowing grass of the Prairie were swept away. The Prairie itself diminished to nothing, taking with it the pack of Gibbat dogs barking off in the distance. Even the barks were gone, the air that they moved through sucked away. The particles of dust that drifted past his breathless mouth vanished. Void. Nothing. An emptiness that held only intimidation and danger. The intangibles that flanked all unknowns. The void was the nexus of the unknown.
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Postby Pandaemus on June 26th, 2014, 8:23 pm

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The blackness of the void poured from his mind into the pinpoint of djed that he was focusing on, just above the Focus of his glyph. The djed poured out of him and it felt exhilarating. The ebony black of the void began to widen, quickening with the help of the glyphed pathways. Pan would be able to make the portal large enough to rid himself of the embarrassing failed construct. But his mind was far from the day’s recent failure. He was smiling now, pleased with the smooth expansion of his portal. All thoughts of use were subtly pushed to the back of his mind, making way for the nothingness before him.

Pan had always had a healthy fear of the void. Ever since Lowych had introduced him to the art as an adolescent Pan had been hesitant to practice it. The Nuit had never been a particularly brave soul, and the prospect of the dark unknown triggered his fear more than anything Lowych could have done to him. Far more powerful things than he had been swallowed by the void, never to be seen again. He had seen it as cautious to practice the art as little as possible while still not displeasing his master. It had carried over into his undeath, though his confidence as a practitioner of magic had climbed. Since earning an apprenticeship and learning glyphing from Marin he had been bolder with brushing the boundaries of ‘safe’ magic. Perhaps he had grown too bold.

The portal was growing. Pan began to feel the tug of the djed as it poured from him faster The wizard grimaced with concentration as his portal into the void was growing to its full capacity. His diminutive soil was reaching its limits. But limits were made to be broken. Pan was tired of being the unnamed, unobserved, uninteresting apprentice. He had originally thought that Sahova would be the fast track to power. He thought it would be enough to stop his fears, but it had just created more. He could feel himself becoming stronger now, as he let his djed be pulled into the creation of the portal.

It surged. Or rather it felt as if a surge of djed had been expelled from his being. The portal, however, only sped its growth by a small fraction. It was enough to make Pan smile in victory. The void, the darkest of his fears save for the terror he felt for Uldr, was within his grasp! He felt as if he was locked in a battle with a nemesis, struggling for dominance, and was finally gaining ground. Slowly but surely. The blackness of nothingness was harnessable.

Surely he could push a little more.

Yes.

Yes he could. Sahova favored the bold. He could not contend with the likes of Marin or Cid by shying away from power! He would control the void today.

Pan poured more into the portal, focusing his willpower on the task. The rate at which he gave up djed was much faster than the rate at which the now hand sized portal was growing. But it was growing, and that was enough to keep him going.

You can make it bigger. You just need to try harder.

He strained himself.

Try harder!


The voice did not disturb him. It was clearly the ambition in his soul rising to motivate him through his conscience. His conscience was giving him the edge he needed to beat both his fear and the strain of the task at hand! He could grasp the void.
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Postby Pandaemus on June 27th, 2014, 1:59 am

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Oblivion beckoned. The sweet pull was tantalizing. Pan was not completely entranced by the portal he had put so much of his essence in. His mind was filled with thoughts of enlarging it, making it adequate to step through. Of course he was going to step inside. It was simply the right thing to do! If he wanted to master the void he had to truly know it. And he was so close to mastering it.

Yes, come on and push yourself to your full potential. You know you have the ability.

Laughter snuck its way into his mind. A gleeful sound that held no fear. Pan’s mind wandered briefly, wondering who was laughing. It took him an exaggerated minute to realize that sound was coming from his own mouth. The apprentice was feeling euphoric. What would usually leave him crippled was giving him an exhilarated feeling of strength. It was akin to an adrenaline rush that permeated throughout his entire body, distorting his senses and instilling a deadly false confidence. But the delusions shifting through Pan’s mind blinded him to such obvious falsehoods.

He was in control. He was gaining power. And He was going to come out on top of the situation. He was a true wizard…

In the back of his mind a pain sprouted through the ecstasy. It was small, like a pinprick, but growing in intensity. The convulsions, once laughter, were shifting across the spectrum. They were lost somewhere between laughter and sobbing. A corpse sobbing was even more unnatural than one laughing. The dead do not feel emotion. The dead were released from such things. But the truth was, and had been for a year, that Pan was not dead. But he was far from alive as well. The two simultaneous and opposite stimuli mixed and confused the Nuit who was entirely unprepared for the sensation.

His mind went numb. No longer was there a feeling of gleeful success. No longer was he close to mastering the void. Now he was a fool poised on the edge of a well, in the process of stumbling in.

Oblivion beckoned. Oblivion beckoned and Pan recoiled in terror. It was a terror that sent waves down the spine. A terror that shook the deadened nerves of his corpse-body. The fear of the ultimate unknown. And it rode the flanks of a pain Pan did not know he could feel. He fell back and did not register hitting the ground. The corpse writhed in torment, convulsions enslaving his body an mind with sheer power of pain. Pan could no longer think about maintaining the portal. He could barely think about anything.

As Pan convulsed in the dirt of the Prairie he watched his portal grow impossibly large. It was growing to a size that could engulf his entire body. It was as if the void has a sentience, and it was hungry for foolish apprentices.

Pan gazed on in horror as one of his worst fears was becoming a reality. And in the depths of the void something shifted. A darkness that was not nothing. A black something against the backdrop of black nothing. A figure. A silhouette woven from the darkness of shadow and fear, and it was moving closer. A swirling tempest of shadows and blackish smoke that somehow confined itself to a humanoid shape, though still giving the aura of chaos. Pan had never witnessed such a terrible visage. A faceless head gave no indication of focus, but he knew it was looking at him.

“I see you…” A voice slid, unwelcome into his mind like a snake breaching a chicken coop. “I will have you…” The amusement in the voice was like ice in his joints, freezing him rigid. The figure, the monster, raised a black arm towards him, it was now almost ascending from within the portal. On the end of the horrid arm was a pasty white hand that Pan had not noticed. The skin seemed wet with a grime so nasty to make the ichor in Pan’s corpse-body curdle. The hand grew and grew in his vision, eclipsing the other details of the figure, and eventually the other details of the portal as well.

“I… See… You…” If Pan had blood his face would still be as white as a fresh sheet of quality parchment. Paralysis had taken him completely. All the Nuit could do was think on his imminent death. In the center of the hand a black swirl formed, dancing across the grimy palm. Pan fixed his gaze upon it as it shifted into another portal into black nothingness. It would grab him and bring him into the fold of the dark, he knew. “I see you, Pandaemus…” The voice hissed, driving its threat deep into his soul.

But the mention of his name shook him from his paralytic trance. He was still an apprentice. He was still existing, if not living. Then he did what cowards are prone to doing. He fled.

Pan rolled over onto his stomach. He fought through the convulsions through sheer power of fear. He needed to get away from the creature! The terror had shifted from a paralytic grip to an adrenaline powered crawl through the dusty Prairie brush. Pan gripped at grass and slid ungracefully over dirt, twig, and insect, getting the grime of the island all over himself in the process. But with each grasp, each fumbled crawl, he felt better. These were things. The grass stabbing at his fingers, the dirt in his mouth, the animal calls in the distance. This was not inky black nothing.

Finally, he looked over his shoulder and relief swept over him. The figure, the hand, and the portal were all gone. The glyph below the portal had been blown away also. There was little evidence left of the nightmare Pan had just endured. Little evidence besides the Nuit now shaking in the dirt. Pan rolled back over and focused his dead eyes desperately on the mound of dirt in front of his face. The physical presence of the dirt comforted him and served to distract from the continuous trembling. Pan lay there, face down in the dirt for half a bell before he stopped convulsing. It was another bell before he could stand. Eventually he was able to hoist himself off the ground and make his way unsteadily back to the Citadel.

The construct lay in the dust, forgotten.
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Deathdays

Postby Mirage on July 6th, 2014, 3:27 pm

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Pandaemus

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Glyphing: 2
Voiding: 2

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Voiding: the feel of overgiving

Overgiving
From time to time Pandaemus will hear whispers just out of range of hearing, and brief flashes of a figure in the corner of his eye or as he turns a corner. These could be tricks of the imagination, but somehow they feel very real. These effects grow stronger when Pan attempts to use voiding, full words able to be made out instead of whispers and sometimes Pan will see... Something in the void he cannot explain. These effects will clear up after 40 days unless further overgiving occurs.

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