22nd Day of Summer, 514 It was a relief to have Vanari take Vera shopping, (or was it the other way around?) It was not just the girlie giggling of long-lost sisters, or whatever they seemed to think themselves to be. Nor was it any begrudging of Vera's lack of focus on toxin crafting. It was the relentless turmoil simmering in Inoadar's mind at how close he'd come to charging in and hacking them down in a manic fever of paranoia. The paranoia still pitched its case against reality. Not every day, but all too often. It always seemed to come to a point where Vanari and Burke became part of a staring, uncomfortable silence, stemming from some cold remark, edged with accusation, that burbled between sick giggles of his own. Vera would step in, oblivious to the truth of it, laughing at "Uncle Nolan"s joke. He had to laugh to keep from crying. The unending voice of proposed treachery, calling into doubt every conceivable way in which trust in his friends had not been PROVEN to be merited. Sneering, without respite, that this foolish trust was what got him arrested in the first place. At the end of the day, Inoadar wanted to cut his own throat for each time he'd suddenly become aware of the hate in his eyes, glaring at Verin's back, ready to push him to action. He needed a new focus, desperately. Burke and Vera were doing so well, with Verin's aid., that there was no great push needed to restock. He grit his teeth, moaning and shaking away the onset of the voice's predictable exposure of how only Verin truly benefited from the arrangement. Where was this coming from? He'd been overly cautious before. But nothing like this. He'd been put to the question before as well. But he'd never had cause to maintain such an extended span of suspicion. The voice immediately piped in that 'this is the very point. You SHOULD have been more suspicious...SHOULD have been more direct to eliminate the problem.' "NOOOOO!" he roared, slamming his head on the worktable, and pounding his fists. "LEAVE ME ALONE! I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!" he shouted at the ceiling. There was no answer. That was a good thing. All too often there was. His head sagged and he heard the silence. The silence of Verin and Burke staring at him. "As your slave, it is not my place to question where you claim to have been these last several days..." Burke said stoically to Inoadar. "But as your property, you ought to take steps to ensure that I am not stricken down in some fit of madness." He then turned to Verin, "I am no slave to you, sir. Perhaps it would not be out of line for me to ask if you could give me some...tips...as to what...hypothetical...incidents I should take special care NOT to mention...For Vera's sake if nothing else." There was a pause, Inoadar looked up to see Verin looking a question toward him. He did not trust his own voice to stay steady, so he dropped his gaze and nodded. |