46th of Summer, 514 AV
It was hard to believe that Lucillus Nitrozian, one of the youngest cubs of the growing Nitrozian pack and fearsome advocate of Ravok, had such a thing as the "good old days". It was actually unjust to consider, that he could be so young and vibrant, and still resort to nostalgia to ease him through life's daily challenges. A young man that had such potential for his future, that could one day become a powerful noble of the city, shouldn't have to rely upon fond memories of his past when far older men lived and suffered through far worse tragedies than he was accustomed to. And yet, Luc had his good old days, that he tossed about at night thinking of and reflected upon as he downed another shot of whiskey.
Specifically, he missed the days when doing something sinful and secretive was actually a pleasure, and not just another part of his daily routine. I used to get so scared visiting the brothel... I thought my family would find out and throw me out of the estate, for sullying my seed with these defiled flowers. It used to be fun picking out the girl I wanted and getting her to try all sorts of new and exciting toys. Now, I don't even get a thrill from petching boys instead of girls. It's all the same now. The fact that he was having these thoughts was sickening. More sickening than that was the realization that he had grown to accept these stupid thoughts. Instead of trying to fight back the boredom and reinvigorate his palate, Luc was content to let himself slouch into more and more tedium until he was drowning in it.
Tonight was a prime example of how little he was willing to break the mold that his life had been cast into: earlier this season, the rumours had spread of a brand new, exotic girl at the House of Immortal Pleasures that was absolutely divine to lay with... and the rumours had also spread that fat Hollywell was charging extra for a tumble with her. Luc had already tried every girl at the Immortal Pleasures and then some, so a shot at fresh meat should have sent him running towards the brothel with a hand already shoved into his coinpurse. But his allowance from the Nitrozians had been cut in half, transforming every purchase he made into a more crucial decision that he was accustomed to. In order to save money - money!, the very thing that he lived in excess of - the lawyer decided that he wouldn't indulge himself tonight, but instead sit quietly at the bar, keep his head down, and bask in the atmosphere of the House.
And the sad part was that he had nowhere else to go for a chance at relaxing, for the estate was no longer a home to him. Oh sure, the doors were always open to him and the setting was comfortable enough. But he just didn't feel alive there. Sitting quietly within his room invariably made his skin crawl and his head begin to pound uncomfortably... it was like getting locked up within a tomb, or being buried alive. At least here, in this sinful establishment, he managed to get a little voyeuristic thrill from listening to whores getting pounded in the adjacent rooms. Without that thrill, he began to feel lost, and then he became confused, and then he started to grow a little crazy and the whole evening was lost to the dogs. Taking a low sigh, Luc ran a hand through his tangled hair, closed his eyes, and tried to focus on the muffled sound of moaning coming from just above his head.
And try not to focus on the smell of burning. Earlier this season, Luc had just barely managed to survive an attempt on his life by some unknown opponent. The three thugs had already long fled by the scene by the time that he was finally rescued by an old friend, leaving the lawyer with the frightening knowledge that whoever was after him was still out there. He knew that he should be taking more security measures, and not lingering in public spaces in such an exposed manner, but a small part of him actually wanted the bastard to take another shot at his life. Though it scared him to admit it, Luc had actually felt alive when the thugs had tied him down and tried to set him ablaze along with the rest of the housing unit. It was certainly a lot more exciting than dealing with the constant shyke of contracts, disputes, and legal cockwaving that is my job. But the encounter had also shaken him up, introducing more than a few nightmares and trembling fits that overtook him when he least expected them to.
At least it was a quiet night at the Immortal Pleasures. Only a few clients lingered in the common room, and good old Hollywell had long given up of trying to convince Luc to partake in one of his whores. The proprietor and the lawyer had reached an understanding long ago that the Nitrozian was free to do what he wanted in the place, so long as he took care not to ever, ever change or fix up his addictions. It was a good deal for Hollywell, who was probably able to afford two more slave girls thanks to how many mizas Luc had shovelled into his pocket over the years. Taking a deep breath, the young man leaned back and rubbed wearily at his temples, trying to consider... well, he wasn't sure what yet to consider. At this point, I wouldn't mind too much taking another shot at the whole, 'burning alive', thing. Certainly would be a hell of a lot more exciting than this shyke.