"We're aware we are the best. Keep your mouth closed, Snarky, or you're going to bite your tongue."Well this hunt was for sure much more than Addy had ever anticipated. Than any of them had anticipated. Idly, as she sat back onto her heels, her mind drifted to how the relationship had changed between the four of them over just a matter of days. Sai was the biggest shock. It had been a very long time since Addy had seen her twin shed her Endal feathers and just...be. Be herself, be a sister, be a helping hand. It was belatedly that Addy realized her twin had taken to being ordered around with perfect grace. And that must have been hard. Not that Sai could be blamed, for one would be hard pressed to find someone who would willingly step out of power for any reason.
With a strong surge of affection towards her sister, Addy refocused her gaze and let it settle where Sai sat cradling Kovac's head. Using as little strength as possible, Addy pushed her feelings through the bond between them. The link felt like a rickety bridge at the moment, and in her exhaustion Addy pushed a little too hard, feeling the bridge rock and a wave of nausea course through her.
"Alright, enough of that nonsense. Sai, I love you." Much simpler.
Kovac was also a surprise. Edgy and withdrawn with an air of "you can't hurt me 'cause I don't care", he was a tough challenge for Addy to tackle. Normally avoiding such people, being shoved into close vicinity with one for multiple days had really shaken her from her social comfort zone. People with attitudes like Kovac almost as a rule despised Aidara. And she was okay with it, for most of them were boring and bad in bed anyhow. They had to save him.
"We have too." She finished her thought aloud, unaware that she'd done so as her gaze trickled to where Renol lay.
Despite her best efforts, her mediocre healing skills hadn't yet been enough. A thin, but steady, trickle of blood was oozing from between his stitches. The skin was swollen and puffy, pulling tightly where she had sewn it shut. All in all, it was not looking good. With such a deep wound, that high up on his thigh and that close to an artery...Addy shivered and tears suddenly burst from her eyes.
"I failed. I failed, I failed." Though it was not unlike Addy to wear her emotions on her sleeve, such utter dejection was. She wasn't feeling sorry for herself either, but was instead being subjected to the feeling of trying your absolute hardest, and failing. Or, in this case, feeling the impending failure weigh down on her shoulders like all of Skyinarta was resting there. Such was the life of a healer. Sometimes you win some, sometimes you lose some. But losing was always the hardest.
As her emotional pain tugged at the last frayed bits of her energy supply, Addy felt another wave of nausea.
"Oh!" She burbled, looking up from where she had tucked her head between her knees. Her face was splotchy and tear stained, her hair a wild mess where she had clutched at it in her pain. The dizzying sweep that washed over her rocked the woman from head to toe. The world spun and spun...and stopped. She was gazing directly at her sister and Kovac. Sai was no longer holding his arm down like she had asked, and Kovac's head was facing the other direction than just a moment ago....
"Oh." Only then did Addy realize that she was crying, that she'd gone on a little emotion trip and a hop down memory lane. How much time had she wasted reminiscing?
Wow. I must be tired. I can't do this. I can't even concentrate. Allowing but a moment of self pity, Addy was back on her knees next to Kovac.
"Alright. I was going to splint his arm but there isn't enough time. I don't know how long it's been since he's been bitten, I'm guessing fifteen chimes or so. That's almost too long. I can't afford the poison to spread or I'm not going to be able to get it. I don't have any strength left." Mostly talking out loud to keep herself focused, Addy directed her words towards her twin sister anyway, looking her straight in the eyes. Greens locked on Yellows, Addy was confident that Sai completely understood her present physical and mental state. That, in and of it's self, made her feel a little more secure.
"I'm going to tie off his arm and restrict the blood, burn the poison and hopefully not cause any tissue damage. Fingers crossed." A weary, lopsided smile was directed from Sai to Kovac.
"Remember, close your mouth. I don't have enough energy to reattach your tongue, and this is going to hurt. Hm. I feel like I've said that an awful lot today." Musing quietly to herself, Addy's attention began to drift to other things again as she took another strip of cloth from her already shredded shirt. It now barely covered her breasts. It was a good shirt too. Maybe she shouldn't have worn her good clothes hunting. Ah well, next time....
A double then a triple knot was applied, making sure that the tourniquet was tight and secure. Shifting from her left knee to her right, Addy searched the dirt around her until she found a nice, lumpy stone. This was place under her slightly raised left knee, before she settled her weight back down on top of it with a wince. She needed to keep focused. No drifting off while she was swimming through the blood and poison in Kovac's veins. The sharp pain of the rock digging into her knee kept her grounded.
Right as Addy was about to throw herself into the process, she realized that her sister wasn't even sitting in front of her anymore. How long had she been talking to open air? A chill ran down Addy's spine. Was this what overgiving felt like? But she'd barely used any of her power on Renol... she was just physically and mentally tired... right? Shivering, Addy yanked her concentration back around, focusing on the sharp stone digging into her knee. She didn't need to look around this time, now completely aware of her surroundings, she realized that Sai was cleaning up the camp. Good, good. She knew Sai liked to get things done... Good, good.
With her current state of mind slowly fraying away, slipping juuuuuuust a little towards the insanity side of the spectrum due to the sheer amount of stress the woman felt she was under, Addy readjusted the Avora so that his head was nestled in her lap now, his injured arm over his chest so that she could easily hold it in both of her hands from her new position above him. With one hand on either side of the tourniquet, Addy finally steadied herself for what she had to do. She took a deep breath, but didn't consciously remember letting it back out again as she grasped for her power, where she kept it stored in what she though of as her "center". The very center of her being.
This time it burned. Not too badly, just like when you see how close you can get your hand to a flame without touching it. Like that, when you just start feeling the heat from the fire. Most people flinch back from this heat, but Addy had to grasp it. The remains of her power looked like a flickering, fiery spool of thread. Mental fingers hesitantly plucked at the loose end, drawing it up from the center of her body, through her core, her torso, shoulders, and aiming down to her hands. But the thread snapped and shot back to curl into it's spool like shape.
Practically roaring with frustration, Addy forced herself to calmly push around the glowing mass until she found the "loose end" again. Slowly, ever so slowly this time, it was brought back up through her center, out and along the core of her mind...her torso...it reached her arms again...elbows...wrist... And finally her mental fingers slipped back into place where they should be: at the end of her arms, on her hands. With hands glowing a reddish-yellowish-orangeish color, Addy re-gripped Kovacs arm. Well, in reality she was sitting in a trance-like state, not moving at all... but Addy envisioned her power this way. A realistic version of herself, doing everything in her head like she would physically. So, she placed her index and middle fingers over the entry marks, making sure to cover the wounds with the entirety of her fingertips. Slowly, ever so slowly, she stretched the string of power that wound through her body out from her fingers to anchor into Kovac's skin. Success was evident when the skin around her tightly clamped fingers began to glow red, the light that was now within his body illuminating the blood and it's vessels through the layers of fat and skin.
Shutting out the rest of the world, shoving all of her thoughts into their separate boxes in her head, Addy let what was left of her consciousness slide down along the line of power, out through her fingers, to slowly ooze down into the damaged skin. This was far different than what she had done with Renol. Tissue repair was careful, time consuming work. She only had a matter of minutes to find and burn away as much of the poison as she could from Kovac's blood, before her tourniquet would start to damage the tissue of his arm. And she would rather prefer it if she didn't have to save his life at the cost of his arm.
The poison had defiantly spread. She should have known, by the symptoms Kovac had already begun to show. Amongst the red and pale pink of healthy blood and tissue was the black and green of the invading poison. It was everywhere. Had Addy not completely shut away all of her emotions, she would have felt the waves of helplessness return. There was almost more black than anything else. The tissue around the bite entry was almost completely dead, and it stemmed out from there along his entire arm and into his chest. Heading towards his heart. Oh no, no, no, no.
Outside of her mind, Addy had broken into a cold sweat, and she was beginning to shake despite her otherwise locked position above his head. Back inside, she had started her work. The delicate, tenacious grip on her power shifted. Hesitation meant death. Taking a strong handful of power, Addy took all of her remaining strength and used it to shover the burning bolts of her gnosis down Kovac's arm. At first, this was wildly successful. The glowing mass of power rocketed through his veins like a boat down a waterfall, burning the sticky black masses of venom from where it clung greedily to his life force. Even the thick accumulation of it around the wound burned away, but that required her to hold a seething mass of it directly too the stuff, literally burning it away, along with some of his blood. Almost too much of his blood. She had to be more careful.
Desperate to succeed, Addy had gone a little overboard and used practically all of her energy to save Kovac's arm. If that was all she had to do, than she would have succeeded, for there was none of the pervasive black goo left anywhere in his arm. But there was still some racing through his veins, with each pump of his blood it was getting closer to his heart.
But she had nothing left. The spool in her center flickered feebly, recoiling when she went to reach for more power. It evaded her every attempt to capture it, and Addy the box in which she stored her emotions for when she used her magic burst open. Panic coursed through her mind and she cried out loud as if she had been wounded herself as she was ripped painfully back to reality. Drooping, with the rock that poked her knee no longer effective, the woman slumped until her forehead rested upon Kovacs. She couldn't do it. She simply couldn't.
And then, of all things, Addy remembered the way they had all laughed at her as the goat charged through the brush, startling her so badly that she fell. A weak laugh escaped her lips. The laugh continued as Addy realized her hand had fallen away from where she had pressed it to Kovacs arm. Since she had freed said arm of poison, the womans fingers fumbled at the tourniquet. At least she hadn't lost his arm for him, she thought idly. At least.
The laughter turned to tears, which ran down Kovac's forehead and down onto his cheeks. There was no question. Addy had to do it. She had too. Too weak to partition her mind, Addy simply sunk back into herself, into her center. Balling her mental hand into a fist, she then smashed it down onto the spool of her glowing power, catching it right in the middle. It stopped fluttering away from her grasp and lay gathered in a sickly looking pool of dim, flickering yellow fire. Cupping her hands and scooping the crush spool up, Addy threw herself back into Kovac's blood stream. Like a dangerous, derailed train, Addy rocketed through his veins until she collided head on with the disgusting black goo that was the poison. It sucked her in like quicksand, and she was trapped.
In one last desperate attempt, the healer kneaded her power into a sad looking hammer. With all the energy she had left, Addy raised the hammer and smashed it against the suffocating black walls that enclosed her. Once, twice, a dozen times she wailed away at the walls. One crack, two cracks, a dozen cracks and she still hammered away. There, by her foot, there was a chip. A piece of the utter blackness that surrounded her fell away and she jumped on the opportunity. Knowing this was the last swing she would be able to make, Addy put her entire body weight behind the hammer as it crashed down against the crack.
Everything exploded.
Laughing, Crying and covered in sweat, Addy opened her eyes to see Kovac looking at her, while her head still rested on his forehead. Her hand dropped away from his arm while her other hung limply by her side. Still laughing, Addy sighed.
"Oh, so this is overgiving? It's not too bad." And she passed out.