Fallon for the moment took her attention to what was before her, a set of blue velvet shoes, the smallest point of a heel gracing their base and the toes coming down into a slender point. Shaped neatly, they would have left the instep bare if worn, exposing the tender flesh of the foot and leading up past the ankle into the legs. Her head gave the smallest turn, a tilt as she looked to the ribbon bow that was positioned across the toes, small but dangling just out of reach of the sole of the shoe. Small beads of glass were laced in towards the back, the faint patterns of flowers embroidered in. Lips gave a purse, gaze peering in to the silk inside as Matthew quietly voiced his thoughts on the situation. She left them to it, trying to focus her attention onto other things, to calm the feeling that had begun to settle and grow from her core. Don't let herself react, don't show the tell tale signs of discomfort, slowly but surely slip the mental wall into place and don the blank mask - the adopted expression that went with Bitzer, a cold, blank face of pure neutrality.
"I am fine Matthew, thank you. I am merely doing my job, as per Shai's request," she gave the smallest of shrugs, her mind hummed within, a deep inhale as she turned her head the other way to look at the shoes within the light. She concluded her studying of the shoe, pairing it up with one associated with formal occasions - possibly dance, she could not tell. But her imagination was capable of playing the image within her head, "Do not concern yourself too much over it, I am sure there will be something for I to carry in good time."
Her gaze however did not shift from the shoes her eyes had settled on, another deep inhale as she felt the flicker of presence of the Symestra beside her, a forced calm of the pulse that begun to beat loudly. Her lips gave the smallest parting, the spring air being tasted as she sucked it in. A slower blink, her hands came behind her, worn leathers clapping together, tensing and then resting at grasping. Feet positioned themselves firmly upon the floor, a steady stance as the woman slid herself in between.
There was no change of expression, no twitch as her gaze was forced down into watching the other talk. The mental walls that had long been left dormant begun to slide, growing and rising into place. A barrier as the whisper of a voice strung between in its cord. The orbs glazed over, cooling in expression settling in; to not react, to not feel, to cut down the senses - it was the mental mantra that was played within her head. There was a small pull away - a flinch almost - when the hand came at her, that gentle lean before she solidified her stance and allowed the faintest brush of claws upon the tender flesh that rested there.
"Then take advantage of it," she spoke her own whisper then, words ringing hollow, sapped of anything remotely warm, "For I am but a number within your game of cards, a means to an end and a tool to be used. Break me, exploit me, play with I as if I am a little toy. Nothing more that dirt upon your boot, filth beneath your sole." There was a slow blink then, a momentary pause, "Weak. Or less than. I am nothingness that has failed again, and again, and again. A denier of one's own self of being, of who they are and yet never knowing. A disappointment that has only ended up being twisted and perverse. And only bear the scars onto my failures upon myself, in a world that favours only violence and muscles." The green-blue orbs met the other's, "A prime target. So tempting it is, to have something so broken and malleable right before your eyes. All that potential just waiting to be taken. Delicious, no?" Another inhale, nostrils gave a flare as she did. Her head gave the smallest tilt to one side, another moment of pause, "Did you have something you want me to carry?"
"I am fine Matthew, thank you. I am merely doing my job, as per Shai's request," she gave the smallest of shrugs, her mind hummed within, a deep inhale as she turned her head the other way to look at the shoes within the light. She concluded her studying of the shoe, pairing it up with one associated with formal occasions - possibly dance, she could not tell. But her imagination was capable of playing the image within her head, "Do not concern yourself too much over it, I am sure there will be something for I to carry in good time."
Her gaze however did not shift from the shoes her eyes had settled on, another deep inhale as she felt the flicker of presence of the Symestra beside her, a forced calm of the pulse that begun to beat loudly. Her lips gave the smallest parting, the spring air being tasted as she sucked it in. A slower blink, her hands came behind her, worn leathers clapping together, tensing and then resting at grasping. Feet positioned themselves firmly upon the floor, a steady stance as the woman slid herself in between.
There was no change of expression, no twitch as her gaze was forced down into watching the other talk. The mental walls that had long been left dormant begun to slide, growing and rising into place. A barrier as the whisper of a voice strung between in its cord. The orbs glazed over, cooling in expression settling in; to not react, to not feel, to cut down the senses - it was the mental mantra that was played within her head. There was a small pull away - a flinch almost - when the hand came at her, that gentle lean before she solidified her stance and allowed the faintest brush of claws upon the tender flesh that rested there.
"Then take advantage of it," she spoke her own whisper then, words ringing hollow, sapped of anything remotely warm, "For I am but a number within your game of cards, a means to an end and a tool to be used. Break me, exploit me, play with I as if I am a little toy. Nothing more that dirt upon your boot, filth beneath your sole." There was a slow blink then, a momentary pause, "Weak. Or less than. I am nothingness that has failed again, and again, and again. A denier of one's own self of being, of who they are and yet never knowing. A disappointment that has only ended up being twisted and perverse. And only bear the scars onto my failures upon myself, in a world that favours only violence and muscles." The green-blue orbs met the other's, "A prime target. So tempting it is, to have something so broken and malleable right before your eyes. All that potential just waiting to be taken. Delicious, no?" Another inhale, nostrils gave a flare as she did. Her head gave the smallest tilt to one side, another moment of pause, "Did you have something you want me to carry?"