Little bird was the last thing he could focus enough on to hear for a while. As he moved his fingers to stroke Noah's cheeks as an effort to bring him more comfort, his hand stopped dead in movement because something completely bizarre began to happen to him. He could barely see anything, for a moment, losing perception of his surroundings. Instead, he witnessed an image of a silhouette in the distance surrounded by a misty fog. He stepped forward and tried to wade through, but was unable, the distance growing as he stepped on and on. Each movement was a path devised closer to the end of the path yet ironically far away from his goal: the creature that was at the end of it. He began to feel hopeless for all but a moment, being consumed by this daydream of his, because in a way it aligned to the reality of the situation he'd been in for so long. Always, he had been chasing after someone for some reason. He chased after Rhaenon in terms of physical and magical ability - accomplishments. He chased after Aoren because he wanted to have a chance at something, and feel the comfort of being close to someone so uniquely profound. He chased for Gallagher because he longed for his friend, but he never managed to catch up to any of them. Eventually, indeed, there were three men standing far away down different roads and they outran him - this false spectral image in his mind.
Then, the fog before him was blown away by wind, and in its place there was a cute eagle making a sharp and high-pitched cry. Caesarion stepped forward and he couldn't help but smile at the sight. When he drew close enough to the eagle to touch it, it transformed into Noah's human state, and Caesarion found himself turning him around and holding his arms over his chest much like their current state. He felt a cord run through him, vibrant and shimmering but also one that he couldn't necessarily see or transcribe at all. What he knew from all of this was that while he chased endlessly after three impossible specters, all of it had been pointless. In front of his very eyes was the person he would be with forever. Now, as the fog dissipated, the three silhouettes faded into dust and all that remained was Caesarion and Noah tightly holding each other. Never letting go. Never being confused or lost or having to chase after one another. Always feeling loved.
As the cord completely wrapped around both of their hearts and drew them together, Caesarion's vision shifted to that of what was real and around him. He felt like barely a moment had passed. Noah seemed stunned too, and Caesarion had absolutely no idea why. What had just happened? Why was he feeling so absolutely warm? Why did he feel so strongly for Noah now, even a thousand times greater than the intense surge of emotions he'd been feeling as they went on? Why did he want to say that he loved him, because in his heart he knew that he really did? How could one even love someone they'd not even known for a full day . . . and yet have the most endless instinct to protect them and keep them safe. To always keep them by your side. To always kiss them and hold them and tell them it was alright. He had these instincts now, these feelings that required action. He didn't know where they came from but he knew they would never go away, and his entire body was being flooded by reactions to their newfound arrival. Interestingly enough, as much as he felt love, he felt empathy. He could feel Noah's pain now, and not proverbially, but actually feel it. He could feel it in a way that didn't truly hurt but only made him want to make it feel better. Everything that Noah was feeling, he felt that too, and so he knew that the explosion of emotions just now was not one-sided.
It was love. There was no word greater, truer or simpler. It was love that he couldn't wrap his head around - how quickly it had come, and how strong it had felt. In this moment he had felt stronger for Noah than any single person in his entire life. He completely lost thought to himself, his instincts now shifting entirely to the preservation, protection and benefit of his beloved male. And - now that he could feel everything Noah felt, he knew that the pain had mostly subsided. Not only that, but around his probe, he could feel the tension vanish and his beloved Kelvic began to eagerly accept him. Whether it was the patience of these minutes of silent bonding and introspection or the sudden flood of emotions washing away his fears, Caesarion was eager to act upon the change of heart. He could now feel the man's pain. If he hurt him, he would know, and then he'd know what not to do and how patient he must be. He could feel the man's pleasure, making sure he knew what felt good and what felt the best. He could feel his desire and his need, so he knew when to satiate him and when all he longed for was a tight embrace. He could now be everything for his beloved, the man that was always there and never faltering in his conviction to make him happy. To make him his, the fact ringing joyfully throughout his soul.
He felt his hand move through his hair, the Kelvic acknowledging that the pain had gone away - even if only for the moment - and wishing to consummate that which had just occurred, their desperate act of falling in love. He kissed his cheek and whispered an okay to him, his tone altogether different, loving and temperate. He pushed his lover back up, forcing him again into a sitting position where he would grab his waists and lift him above Caesarion slowly. He loosed himself from the Kelvic's body, needing to reposition himself now that he had an idea of where he'd needed to go for. With firm hands and a patience, he would hold on to the Kelvic's hips and steer him along perfectly as he pulled the man onto him and burst through the eye of his smooth and round lower body. He shuddered in pleasure, moving one of his hands down to grip himself and relax the process. He took a deep breath that he quickly panted out, trying desperately to calm his mind so that he wouldn't lose his control. He needed to be patient. He needed to show Noah warmth and love, rather than a wild and uncontrollable beast.
As Noah submerged onto him, the man whispered loudly enough for the Kelvic to hear. "Noah, I am smitten by you," he said. There was a big, goofy, happy smile on his face. "I don't know how," he stopped, having difficulty finishing sentences, "but even though we just met . . ." He stopped again, fearing what the Kelvic might say to his sadly weak and emotional words that were to follow. "I never want to leave your side."
Then, the fog before him was blown away by wind, and in its place there was a cute eagle making a sharp and high-pitched cry. Caesarion stepped forward and he couldn't help but smile at the sight. When he drew close enough to the eagle to touch it, it transformed into Noah's human state, and Caesarion found himself turning him around and holding his arms over his chest much like their current state. He felt a cord run through him, vibrant and shimmering but also one that he couldn't necessarily see or transcribe at all. What he knew from all of this was that while he chased endlessly after three impossible specters, all of it had been pointless. In front of his very eyes was the person he would be with forever. Now, as the fog dissipated, the three silhouettes faded into dust and all that remained was Caesarion and Noah tightly holding each other. Never letting go. Never being confused or lost or having to chase after one another. Always feeling loved.
As the cord completely wrapped around both of their hearts and drew them together, Caesarion's vision shifted to that of what was real and around him. He felt like barely a moment had passed. Noah seemed stunned too, and Caesarion had absolutely no idea why. What had just happened? Why was he feeling so absolutely warm? Why did he feel so strongly for Noah now, even a thousand times greater than the intense surge of emotions he'd been feeling as they went on? Why did he want to say that he loved him, because in his heart he knew that he really did? How could one even love someone they'd not even known for a full day . . . and yet have the most endless instinct to protect them and keep them safe. To always keep them by your side. To always kiss them and hold them and tell them it was alright. He had these instincts now, these feelings that required action. He didn't know where they came from but he knew they would never go away, and his entire body was being flooded by reactions to their newfound arrival. Interestingly enough, as much as he felt love, he felt empathy. He could feel Noah's pain now, and not proverbially, but actually feel it. He could feel it in a way that didn't truly hurt but only made him want to make it feel better. Everything that Noah was feeling, he felt that too, and so he knew that the explosion of emotions just now was not one-sided.
It was love. There was no word greater, truer or simpler. It was love that he couldn't wrap his head around - how quickly it had come, and how strong it had felt. In this moment he had felt stronger for Noah than any single person in his entire life. He completely lost thought to himself, his instincts now shifting entirely to the preservation, protection and benefit of his beloved male. And - now that he could feel everything Noah felt, he knew that the pain had mostly subsided. Not only that, but around his probe, he could feel the tension vanish and his beloved Kelvic began to eagerly accept him. Whether it was the patience of these minutes of silent bonding and introspection or the sudden flood of emotions washing away his fears, Caesarion was eager to act upon the change of heart. He could now feel the man's pain. If he hurt him, he would know, and then he'd know what not to do and how patient he must be. He could feel the man's pleasure, making sure he knew what felt good and what felt the best. He could feel his desire and his need, so he knew when to satiate him and when all he longed for was a tight embrace. He could now be everything for his beloved, the man that was always there and never faltering in his conviction to make him happy. To make him his, the fact ringing joyfully throughout his soul.
He felt his hand move through his hair, the Kelvic acknowledging that the pain had gone away - even if only for the moment - and wishing to consummate that which had just occurred, their desperate act of falling in love. He kissed his cheek and whispered an okay to him, his tone altogether different, loving and temperate. He pushed his lover back up, forcing him again into a sitting position where he would grab his waists and lift him above Caesarion slowly. He loosed himself from the Kelvic's body, needing to reposition himself now that he had an idea of where he'd needed to go for. With firm hands and a patience, he would hold on to the Kelvic's hips and steer him along perfectly as he pulled the man onto him and burst through the eye of his smooth and round lower body. He shuddered in pleasure, moving one of his hands down to grip himself and relax the process. He took a deep breath that he quickly panted out, trying desperately to calm his mind so that he wouldn't lose his control. He needed to be patient. He needed to show Noah warmth and love, rather than a wild and uncontrollable beast.
As Noah submerged onto him, the man whispered loudly enough for the Kelvic to hear. "Noah, I am smitten by you," he said. There was a big, goofy, happy smile on his face. "I don't know how," he stopped, having difficulty finishing sentences, "but even though we just met . . ." He stopped again, fearing what the Kelvic might say to his sadly weak and emotional words that were to follow. "I never want to leave your side."