Kavala moved among the horses, at ease in their midst, not at all considering one or more of them might consider her a threat. She'd been raised Drykas all her life and even at Sanctuary surrounded herself with things that were Drykas in nature. Riverfall was a magestic place, one she'd chosen to make her home. But it felt good visiting Endrykas again, even for a moment. Here, she could pretend the things that happened to her hadn't happened.
She could be the innocent Ankal's daughter, the healer, she once was.
Kavala let the furred hood of her cloak slide off her head revealing a sleek waterfall of white hair. With the wind died down, it almost felt like spring would come sooner than later. Snow could be deceptive, hide spring's traces of brightening green grass emerging from the winter-dead thatch nestled beneath it. But that too was a dream. Here and now winter had Endrykas locked in its icy heart and there would be no escaping it until winter itself lost its battle with spring and the seasons shifted into a new balance of power.
Kavala longed for it.
Until she was back on the grasses, she hadn't known how trapped she'd felt. Caged. Forced to ride a single ridge line with no chance of dropping off either side and into new scenery. There was so much to do and time enough to see it done. Things hadn't turned out quite as she'd envisioned them. Other women in her clan had marriage on their minds, children they would produce, the plotting of their movement around the run to calculate. There were weaving and tanning and knotwork aplenty. But not for her. Eachann had taken a konti wife as his second. He'd done it for lust and prestige and for the fact that she was a reknowned healer. She'd given him offspring of course, but both daughters had been as white as snow and scaled like their mother. Konti. They had grown slowly and added nothing to the pavilion of their birth other than the other Ankal's scorn at Eachanns such thoughtless choice. When one had ridden south to learn more of her blade, Eachann hadn't forbidden it. When the other had rode north to Mura to learn healing, he had said nothing at all.
It was hard to belong nowhere to nothing completely. Too Drykas to be Konti and too Konti to be Drykas. So Kavala was building her own world, a Sanctuary where she didn't have to be one or the other. And in doing so, it eased her pain ever so slightly.
Coming back to Endrykas brought it all back to the forefront. But she needed to be here. She needed to find a stallion if she could. Not Seme. Not Strider. Not anything she could put a finger on. Was it possible to find the best of all worlds?
Kavala kept moving among the horses, touching necks, drawing hands down flanks, offering a small sweet to a foal here or a kind word to an elderly mare that felt the cold more than she should in her arthritic knees. A touch and a tap of Kavala's gnosis mark eased the mare's pain, taking away the inflammation as Kavala quietly thanked her for her years of service to the clan she served.
There was nothing here that she sought. The horseflesh all around her was amazing but almost pure strider. Kavala sighed and continued moving through the snow, slowly deciding to work her way back to the center of the city where she could find something warm to drink and work up the courage to go visit her father and reveal some truths to him she'd rather not have to share.
Birthdays sucked.
Kavala had come home for hers, as if looking for some forgiveness or respite from the mess she'd made of her life. She'd come home to be a child again - where others would take care of her just for a moment because they saw her as a girl and not as a grown woman or the leader of all of them. Sanctuary had taken its toll. Always the protector. Always the leader. Always making the decisions. Kavala walked through the snow looking for more than horseflesh and realizing that her mind had played a trick on her urging her to return home because that place and that girl no longer existed.
Lost in her thoughts she hadn't been prepared for the outburst that hit her sensitive conscious like a sledge hammer on ice. OUTSIDER?!! Pain filled her mind momentarily as well as the urge to fight or run. Run was winning out as she tensed up and glanced up. She saw the flanks of a powerfully built buckskin stallion standing with a herd of mares that he seemed somehow not part of. Her eyes scanned back and forth, but he was the only one that snorted, threw up his head, pawed at the snow with his hooves, and then lunged into the suddenly confused crowd of mares.
She stood startled uncertain of what she was seeing as the stallion retreated and a man reappeared. Naked save for a necklace hanging from his neck. Kavala tensed in fear for a moment and mentally reassured herself she had her blades on her even as her mind penetrated her awareness with a single word: Kelvic.
She could feel him. Ordinary men she could not. Her konti gift didn't run to truthspeaking or reading the future or seeing the past. It ran towards animal empathy. She could read their feelings and know their pain. If their thoughts were strong, she could even pick up images of what they saw or tell exactly what they were feeling. It depended on the animal, the individual, and she was particularly sensitive to horses. And this one was challenging her outright and thinking loud thoughts.
She winced, pulled her gift in protectively, and realized he was speaking.
Azure eyes studied his form automatically, looking for sign of injury both old and new. Old habits died hard as she assessed his strength and automatically looked for a weapon. Scars were noted and even his maleness was examined. Kavala knew Kelvics when she saw them, being uniquely qualified and generally surrounded by them. So she knew he wasn't worried about his clothing or shyness. So she was not either. He was big, not as big as the Akalak she was used too seeing, but big for a Drkyas and hosting one heck of a presence. His stance said stallion, as did the unaltered state of his organs. His demanding words allowed for no hesitation in her answer, though he wasn't threatening yet either.. It was the way horses treated each other; males were protective and at the same time bossy.
She answered him in perfect Pavi, and then again in Common that was only slightly less fluent.
"I am Kavala Denusk of the Denusk Pavilion, Sapphire Clan, Daughter of Eachann Denusk, Ankal." She said once, then twice, allowing him to pick which language he was more comfortable in.
"I am here clearing my head, thinking, looking for something. I offer you and your mares no harm nor did I wish to disturb you. Most of this herd is my father's and they know me." She said softly. Her words had to ring true because none of the other horses seemed particularly upset by her presence. In fact, they almost ignored her as if she were one of them.
"If you are the big buckskin I saw, you are lovely. I am out here looking for a stallion for my herd at home. I no longer live here, but in Riverfall, and I am just home for my birthday. I'm starting to think it was a bad idea." She said wistfully, then offered him a smile.
"Do you have a name? Most just call me Kav or Kavala. Feel free to use it." She said softly, her words gentle and nonthreatening.
A mare beside her nudged her hand then and she offered the lovely little strider mare a soft word and scratched her ear.
"I learned to ride on her mother." Kavala said, affection in her voice.