14th Bell | 36th of Spring, 517 A.V.
Bluevein Winery
Bluevein Winery
Claire always found sorrow to be a difficult emotion. Not just for herself, but everyone. It made people do the simplest things. Sometimes—and quite often—the stupidest things as well. The brightest people could always be counted upon to lose themselves in grief as if they had no brain at all. The emotion was like all others, in that everyone had a chance in their lives to feel it. But sorrow and loss always seemed to be some kind of defining arc in their lives. It built people up or it tore them down, but it always left some kind of change.
The Kelvic really wished she could tell just what kind of change it had instilled in her.
After spending the better part of a week trying to ward off loneliness, Claire simply found it too much to fight. In Alvadas, it had been the reminders in corner of her home—even after she had gathered the courage to rid the house of everything that had once belonged to her mother. In every nook there lurked a memory, a sign of peace that had once reigned in the house, torn asunder from her.
In fleeing her home she had simply left a room behind, but the memories remained. They should have brought her some kind of relief after all this time. Remembering her mother as she had been and the joys they held together. But for whatever reason, Claire could not find any happiness in them. Instead they brought about an emptiness in her life that had merely been covered up.
A deeper part of her knew it wasn’t just the loss of her mother. There was a key part of her that desired to bond. Not even her mother could have filled that void, and it was a fact she could no longer ignore. It was a piece of her that beat like the heart behind her own race. To share something with someone so deep it made it hard to tell where one ended and the other began.
It didn’t help that the first person who could possibly fill this void was… less than ideal.
Which was a stupid thought in the first place because if she honestly believed that, then there would be no chance for a bond in the first place. It was just easier to remain in denial than admit to herself that there was something alike in the two of them. So between the sorrow of her mother, and the emptiness of an unfulfilled bond, the raptor did something she rarely reached for. Drinking.
Some drank to wash away their feelings. To cover them until they could no longer make sense of the pain that ate away at them. Claire did not fall under that guise. No, for her the gift in drinking was happiness. A ridiculously kind of giddy that only came when her body tingled from the effects alcohol. In this state every thought of hers moved as one. As if they all originated in from the same space, but never lingered longer than necessary. It was almost like flying, without the effort to stay aloft. A blissful moment in time that came simply from the bottle before her.
When Claire had seated herself, she did not have the intention of being drunk. In fact she really hadn’t fully reached that point yet. Things were hazy for sure, but her mind was not addled to the point where memory was affected. She knew where she was, and why she was there. But it everything had an odd poetic beauty to it, and that included her current choice of wine.
Honestly she had just wanted to sample a few the Akalak had in stock. The Kelvic had heard of the amazing wine the vineyard produced, and she couldn’t even count the amount of times she had flown over the beautiful scenery. But to actually have the time to enjoy something like this was rare, and her mind fell in desperate need of comfort.
The stem of the glass rolled between her fingertips as she stared out a window to the sky above. Clouds moved at a leisurely pace, pristine white and fluffy. The wine in her glass however stood out in the corner of her eye. The goldish color was an ironic reminder really, of gold skin that had nagged at the back of her mind for too long. In fact the wine rather smelled like him too. The hint of vanilla that lingered in the air and on her tongue.
It was a really good wine.
Sighing, Claire leaned back in her chair. The rhythmic swish of the liquid was mesmerizing even if her eyes were not trained on the glass. The alcohol was having its intended effect however. There was no melancholy from the thoughts of the brute. Or her mother. In fact...
Her mother most certainly would not have approved of him.
For some reason the thought made her giggle. The idea of her mother sizing up the tall Eypharian was hilarious. A staring match for the ages probably. After all her mother had been much smaller than even her. She probably wouldn't have even been able to make eye contact with Rhodri.
Yes the alcohol was definitely working.
The Kelvic really wished she could tell just what kind of change it had instilled in her.
After spending the better part of a week trying to ward off loneliness, Claire simply found it too much to fight. In Alvadas, it had been the reminders in corner of her home—even after she had gathered the courage to rid the house of everything that had once belonged to her mother. In every nook there lurked a memory, a sign of peace that had once reigned in the house, torn asunder from her.
In fleeing her home she had simply left a room behind, but the memories remained. They should have brought her some kind of relief after all this time. Remembering her mother as she had been and the joys they held together. But for whatever reason, Claire could not find any happiness in them. Instead they brought about an emptiness in her life that had merely been covered up.
A deeper part of her knew it wasn’t just the loss of her mother. There was a key part of her that desired to bond. Not even her mother could have filled that void, and it was a fact she could no longer ignore. It was a piece of her that beat like the heart behind her own race. To share something with someone so deep it made it hard to tell where one ended and the other began.
It didn’t help that the first person who could possibly fill this void was… less than ideal.
Which was a stupid thought in the first place because if she honestly believed that, then there would be no chance for a bond in the first place. It was just easier to remain in denial than admit to herself that there was something alike in the two of them. So between the sorrow of her mother, and the emptiness of an unfulfilled bond, the raptor did something she rarely reached for. Drinking.
Some drank to wash away their feelings. To cover them until they could no longer make sense of the pain that ate away at them. Claire did not fall under that guise. No, for her the gift in drinking was happiness. A ridiculously kind of giddy that only came when her body tingled from the effects alcohol. In this state every thought of hers moved as one. As if they all originated in from the same space, but never lingered longer than necessary. It was almost like flying, without the effort to stay aloft. A blissful moment in time that came simply from the bottle before her.
When Claire had seated herself, she did not have the intention of being drunk. In fact she really hadn’t fully reached that point yet. Things were hazy for sure, but her mind was not addled to the point where memory was affected. She knew where she was, and why she was there. But it everything had an odd poetic beauty to it, and that included her current choice of wine.
Honestly she had just wanted to sample a few the Akalak had in stock. The Kelvic had heard of the amazing wine the vineyard produced, and she couldn’t even count the amount of times she had flown over the beautiful scenery. But to actually have the time to enjoy something like this was rare, and her mind fell in desperate need of comfort.
The stem of the glass rolled between her fingertips as she stared out a window to the sky above. Clouds moved at a leisurely pace, pristine white and fluffy. The wine in her glass however stood out in the corner of her eye. The goldish color was an ironic reminder really, of gold skin that had nagged at the back of her mind for too long. In fact the wine rather smelled like him too. The hint of vanilla that lingered in the air and on her tongue.
It was a really good wine.
Sighing, Claire leaned back in her chair. The rhythmic swish of the liquid was mesmerizing even if her eyes were not trained on the glass. The alcohol was having its intended effect however. There was no melancholy from the thoughts of the brute. Or her mother. In fact...
Her mother most certainly would not have approved of him.
For some reason the thought made her giggle. The idea of her mother sizing up the tall Eypharian was hilarious. A staring match for the ages probably. After all her mother had been much smaller than even her. She probably wouldn't have even been able to make eye contact with Rhodri.
Yes the alcohol was definitely working.
Ledger :
Common | Isur