Salara had found her bond-mate and lost him, setting her adrift in an unknown life. Back then there had been no courtship and very little friendship before they knew they were destined to be together. It had been so easy to fall and so terribly, terribly difficult to let go. She didn’t know if there could ever be another such as him; but what a lonely life to live without at least some heartfelt companionship? How could she even consider asking someone else to choose such a bitter-sweet gift only to know that it will be lost? Her body shudders slightly with the thought, could she herself survive the anticipation of another such loss? The air and ardor cooled after her words and she worried that her bumbling inexperience with how things were done between a man and woman had perhaps ruined their fledgling friendship, which would surely sour the long days before them all. Although he stepped closer causing her pulse to leap, Karyk’s silence throughout her revelation was daunting as her mind raced in turmoil streaked with embarrassment. Waiting with gaze unfocused for him to stomp off in disgust that she should be thinking of such permanence; or even worse, laugh to her face with the fact that he’d never intended any such thing regardless of Dorrin’s encouragements. Or maybe, just silence. In her mind’s eye she imagined him distantly turning to finish setting the tent, of course he was too much a gentleman to leave it lay at this stage, and then simply walk away. How would she show her face among their fellow travelers again? She hardly felt a slow tear drizzle down the cheek turned from him. Silently her mind raced through half-hearted curses at those such as Dorrin and Tollivant. Oleander, Hortense, along with the other knowing looks and confirming nods, which she caught tossed her way by many others of the caravan after seeing the two of them together even briefly. To put such silly girl dreams in her head that he would have even considered a future with her worth losing. Only Kesh, in simple friendship, seemed innocent of ‘seeing’ a connection between them. And then, the touch, his second ever, brings a startled jump and gasp along with helplessly fluttering lashes. His coarse warm fingers reach, seemingly knowingly, to brush away the silvery trail of tears as he cups her face to turn her. His eyes black rimmed by the deepest brown say things she dared not believe, then the molten warmth, a river of heat, his kiss granted. Too soon he pulls away but only to bring another proof, his life’s blood pumping vitality as if he could bestow more upon her through her palm upon his chest over the scarred badge of their meeting. Looking into his eyes, she leans in as if they weren’t close enough, to whisper, “I believe you are the most capably intelligent man I know. It is my intelligence I have concern for to bring this nature, me, to you and yours.” Still, the slightest flicker, a bare hint of darkness ghosts across the damp gleam in her eyes, knowledge of a letter buried deep within her pack. But now was not the time for more painful truths; besides she was beginning to feel, it too would matter little in what the days ahead would hold. Teasing him to chase away any lingering shadows, “You’d better not go anywhere. We still have a tent to put up and wouldn’t a fire be nice too?” Grinning toothily she pulls her hand free of his, reaching gently to tug his beard hair, for a fiercer kiss to trap his lips, which closely followed. |