88 Winter 510 AV Three days seemed like forever. Reth had been tied to the Web, and evidence of his death had been swept away from the Pavilion, but Denen's heart was heavy still. He was tired, drawn from the lack of sleep. The past nights had been spent awake, sitting a bit off from the furs, his legs hugged close to his chest, face pressed into his knees in order to keep himself from waking Sama'el with his crying. He would snuggle into his friend until Sam fell asleep, and then draw away to mourn. It was painful, almost agonizingly so, and he struggled to lift his spirits. He tried valiantly. He didn't want to make Sam and Dymphna uncomfortable with his grieving. What was more, Denen had only known loss like this once before, and even then, with the shock of Jada's death, it had not been thus. Reth was different. Reth had been the being closest to his soul, and he was gone now. Denen didn't know, nor could he imagine, where he would have been, had he been without Sama'el and Dymphna, and this new, tiny family. They'd held him together, comforting him whenever he appeared weak, and even when he managed to feign being all right. They had both lost Striders in the past, knew what his heart was suffering, and were more loving and attentive for it. He needed them, and in turn, they gave his all. Was that not what family was for? It was early morning, and Denen had risen from bed to light the fire and sat by it now, wrapped in his cloak. The sky was dim still, and Denen was quiet, muted as was the sun. He covered his head with his arms, and curled in on himself for warmth and comfort. Goddess, he whispered in thought, please strengthen me. Heal my heart...Give me the courage to heal my heart. He rubbed his hands down his face and sighed in irritation. He needed to be better than this, braver than this. Endrykas was waking up around him, and as he sat by the fire, people came and went by, moving on with their lives, while he remained where he sat, thoughtful. Too thoughtful. |