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A city floating in the center of a lake, Ravok is a place of dark beauty, romance and culture. Behind it all though is the presence of Rhysol, God of Evil and Betrayal. The city is controlled by The Black Sun, a religious organization devoted to Rhysol. [Lore]

A Destination to Discover

Postby Zuhre on November 9th, 2018, 6:41 pm

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Timestamp: Autumn 3, 518 AV


While the sun had not yet reached a point of set, the sky was lugubrious, shrouding the sun in its wake. Rain was still coming down upon anyone who was unfortunate enough to be outside, soaking them within moments. It was funny, Zuhre thought while still in her fugue state, that not that long ago she too had been falling from the clouds.

“It’s going to be okay,” mumbled a gruff voice from beside her.

Zuhre’s eyes fluttered upwards, dodging the pellets of rain by blinking as fast as could be manageable. The gruff voice belonged to a man who was taller than her, but not by much. His sandy brown hair was wet and stringy, sticking to the sides of his unshaven face and getting into his eyes as he walked beside her. His eyes were a perfect reflection of the sky above them: grey, dreary, but so full of emotions Zuhre couldn’t pinpoint just one.

Where had this man come from? And why was his arm wrapped around her body? Remembrance is often a fickle thing, but as though blessed, it occurred. Like flashes of lightning (unless perhaps it actually was lightning), the images flooded her head. She was completely nude, washed up on the shore of an expansive lake, cold and shivering and barely conscious. Her knee had felt like it was on fire, and it still did, but she dare not look at it quite yet. May it be fate or luck, a stranger had crouched down beside her and offered her his hand. Had he not of touched her, her blurry vision might have mistook him for a mirage or some sort of wild animal.

Zuhre looked down at her body, wondering why it was she no longer felt as cold as she had when she had first come across this stranger, or rather him having come across her. She wore a long coat with small, chipped buttons, many of which were barely hanging on by the thread that kept them attached to the rest of the coat. Under that coat was a dirty shirt bearing stains from all sorts of origin and a pair of pants, both of which were far too large to be her own. Her feet were even warm due to shoes that did not belong to her. Where, then, had she acquired this attire?

She looked back towards the man, noticing that he bore no clothes aside from the hose that covered the lower half of his body. That, and the backpack that was resting on his shoulder by its strap.

“You’re not wearing anything,” Zuhre stated rather than said, blinking away stray raindrops, or were they tears?

The man chuckled, but she wasn’t sure if the laugh reached his eyes. “That’s because you’re wearing it all.”

Oh.

“Now, I need you to not say anything,” the man continued. Confused, Zuhre looked away from him and towards the direction they were heading. “Let me do the talking.”

A large stony tower pierced the sky ahead of them. Maybe that’s what was making the sky so angry, Zuhre thought as the two of them continued closer. The tower resonated a feel of ominousness that made the hairs on the back of her neck raise in objection. She knew not if it was the weather or the tower that suddenly cast a sense of contrition over her body.

Nestled between two sides of the tower were two wooden doors that had probably seen better days. They looked thick and dense; heavy, like whatever was inside wanted to keep what was outside, on the outside. That, or it was the other way around. It wasn’t until moments after examining the door that Zuhre saw the numerous guards surrounding the gates. One of them began to approach her and her chauffeur.

“I request your names and intentions,” stated the guard. His eyes were cold, like frost had blanketed them throughout the night; his expression was stern.

“Tallon Erving,” the man said from beside her, releasing his arm from around her body. “I am a current resident of Ravok. And this is-”

“Zuhre.” It was so blunt, so informal, and by the expression the guard gave her after the words had left her mouth, Zuhre so wanted to claw at them and force them back down her throat. “I-I’m requesting citizenship here- looking for work! What’s your name?”

Tallon threw his hand up and took his palm to his face. The guard turned to look at him- to really look at him- and noticed then that he was not wearing anything other than his undergarments.

Anxiety soon racked the poor girl as she realised how strange the situation appeared. Her nervousness only increased once several guards started walking towards them with shared stern expressions as the guard they were currently conversing with. Zuhre closed her eyes, bracing for what they were about to do, but all they did was touch certain parts of her body, and investigate the contents of the backpack that was slung across Tallon’s shoulder. She noticed the contents of the backpack consisted of some various sizes and shapes of knives, a net, and some other tactical gear.

The guards retreated to their stations almost as soon as they had advanced. The first guard was still looking the both of them up and down as if trying to unearth a secret he thought they were hiding. Zuhre smiled in an attempt to right any wrongs she might have accidentally caused. Tallon was still seemingly hiding behind his hand.

The guard’s gaze dropped to a book he was holding in his hands. Zuhre saw her and Tallon’s name being scribbled across the previously blank paper. “Go on through,” he muttered under his breath.

Relief flushed through her body, neglecting to further recognize any issues she may have caused both her and Tallon. She had other things to worry about such as, what had happened to her previous to the point of time she can remember?

Once they were on the other side of the tower, Tallon took Zuhre by the arm. “What did I say about letting me do the talking?” His eyes were colder, Zuhre noticed, but they held something else within them. Concern. He was concerned for her? Why would he possibly have any concern for someone he had just met? Someone who had been naked along the shore in the middle of a storm, no less?

She shrugged her shoulders, feeling the tension of the muscles and bones grinding together. She was still in so much pain, and her lungs continued to burned from having swallowed so much water in the fight to breach the waves of water that came crashing down upon her. She was very much on edge, even after being granted clearance into a place of refuge, but she couldn’t deny the fact that she had no idea where she was, or what she was doing. Being on land, in the presence of another person, and promised that “everything was going to be okay” were just a few minute components that made up an otherwise completely negative situation.

She heard Tallon sigh, but refrained from looking into his eyes, for fear of finding a worse emotion displayed within them. “Let’s just hope that whatever you do, you don’t piss off more than just the guard that grants you access into a whole bloody city.”

That was not the reaction Zuhre had been expecting. Her crystalline blue eyes met his smoky grey ones. She could have sworn she saw a sparkle encircled by the cloudiness. She was about to ask him something, but was interrupted by Tallon’s movement down a pathway composed of various types of stones. She followed.

At the base of the pathway was a docking port, a ferry attached to it by a thick rope. A man was standing beside the ferry, with an expression that contrasted greatly with those the guards on the other side of the gate.

“New to Ravok?” asked the man with a strange smile. She saw his eyes survey Tallon’s clothing preferences.

Tallon didn’t given Zuhre any time to respond. “Returning,” he grunted as he boarded the ferry. He held his hand out to Zuhre so that she wouldn’t fall or hit her head when she transferred from the docks and into the boat.

“Then, I bid you a pleasant return.”
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A Destination to Discover

Postby Zuhre on November 11th, 2018, 3:35 am

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The entire day thus far had left a stale taste in her mouth. Although, the state of the day was improving. The sky was no longer crying large globules of tears nor was it grumbling and shouting. While Zuhre was still soaked, Syna had decided to come from out of the clouds, kissing everything with her light. It felt warm, and Zuhre was sure her skin was tingling because of it, dancing away the clouds and the cold.

After the ferry ride into the very heart of the city, Tallon had spent some time with Zuhre, helping her with her registry as a citizen and in establishing a place for her to stay. He had told her that she needed to acquire a job in order to keep her house and her status as a law abiding citizen, and while she knew this, she was thankful of his support. She was still without answer as to why she had been naked, washed up on shore without any prior memories. Had she of been cast out into a foreign and unfamiliar city all by herself, her confusion and anxiety would have grew exponentially.

“Will I be seeing you again?” She had asked him after he had placed a small, rusted key in her hand. She had heard his footsteps receding but was afraid to look up at him, for fear of this being a permanent goodbye.

It had taken him a while before responding, but eventually Tallon returned to her, placed his hand on her shoulder and told her not to worry. She had looked up then, and stared thoughtfully into his eyes, hoping she would be able to tell if what he was about to say next was the truth.

“Of course,” he had said then. “I mean, I’ll eventually have to come back to reclaim my clothes, you know?”

This had made Zuhre chuckle, but now, as she stood alone in front of her new unit, she was without laugh, feelings of emptiness, confusion, and most of all loneliness swimming within her.

She gracefully fit the key into the lock, afraid that if she applied any unnecessary pressure, that the frail looking key would crumble into nothing more than fine grains of dust. She turned the key and held her breath. What if opening this door was a statement of resolution? What if opening this door meant that she was bound here, in a city she did not know, forever? Zuhre bit the inside of her cheek, trying to drown the oncoming slew of tears before they could drown her. She hated this. She hated all of this. She hated how her memory failed her; she hated how the first person she remembered was a complete and total stranger. But what she hated most of all was that she had an inkling as to what had happened. And that suspicion made it all the more dismal. So while the sun was smiting the grey in the skies and brightening the earth with its vibrant rays, Zuhre was standing in front of a door to a room that did not truly belong to her, with the knowledge that she did not belong anywhere if she did not belong where she had come from.

The lock finally clicked, relinquishing its domain at securing the contents of what was behind the door. Zuhre quickly stepped inside and shut the door swiftly behind her. Her legs began to wobble, feeling unsteady under all the weight it had been carrying. She slid down the surface of the door until she was sitting on the floor. Her knee felt like embers had charred a decently sized hole through it. The imagery was frightening enough to cause Zuhre to look down and observe the damage.

Her fingers found their way to the waistband of her pants and she slowly started to pull them down. A thick band of fabric was tightly wrapped around the part of her knee that smarted the most. Peeling the fabric away from her knee, she bit her tongue. Warmth soon flooded her mouth, and the taste of metal accompanied the heat. Her knee was a medley of blues, blacks, greens, and purples, and a substantial gash starting from the top of the patella roamed in strange arcs and angles until reaching the upper shin, a few inches below.

Zuhre brushed back her ratty hair with her gritty fingers, and let her head fall back against the door. She closed her eyes and inhaled a shaky breath, hoping that her next words would be heard through the strain in her voice.

“Leth,” she started, having faith that He could hear her. She tried to clear her mind, wondering if any form of clutter prevented her prayers from reaching him. She cleared her throat. “I plead that you are hearing me. And I beg for your forgiveness. For I am undeserving of knowing all that you know, and I am unworthy of understanding all that you understand, but if you will allow me, I am willing to try.”

The floodgates crippled under the sheer volume of water, and the tears began to fall, staining her cheeks as they left their salty footprints.

“I pray that you will one day forgive me, or that you will at least tell me why- why you chose me to fall and why you did so when you did.” With a nod of her head, she closed the proverbial channel between her and the God and began wiping at her tears with the sleeve of her coat.
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Postby Zuhre on November 12th, 2018, 4:16 am

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Zuhre hated feeling vulnerable, so instead of sitting slouched over herself and letting her tears run free, she stood up, brushed herself off, and decided to take her mind off the pain. Wallowing rarely ever results in productivity.

She took in her surroundings, finding that a small bunk that looked just large enough to fit one individual, sat positioned over to the right side of the room, nestled against the wall in the corner. Directly across from it was an old rotted chest with two tarnished metal bands decorating the middle. On the opposite side of the room, was a large hearth, fresh wood already piled high inside. Zuhre gracefully took the chair next to it. There was a small window next to the door that allowed light to filter in, accentuating the small dust particles that drifted throughout the room.

Zuhre closed her eyes and began to think, with that imagery in mind.

“What if we are all just dust particles in this seemingly infinite world?” She said aloud. “What if the Gods and Goddesses wanted our existence to be just for their pleasure?”

Saying this made it seem all the more stupid to Zuhre. She didn’t want to believe that she held no purpose being alive; that her entire existence was nothing more than just a game for the otherworldly deities to watch and amuse themselves with. There were some who were not so cruel. And regardless of her initial emotions, and the confusion that bubbled up inside her, she was certain that Leth did not cast her down here because he simply “wanted to” or because it would be “funny”.

She thought deeper, wondering about the possibility that she was sent here for an alternate purpose. Granted, she still felt remorse and loss and anger at him for doing what he did. But she also believed that she knew not everything. That the part of which she did not know, Leth knew, and his reasoning for having done what he did to her resided in the part she did not know.

Zuhre opened her eyes then, drawn to the pain radiating from her knee. She stripped of her pants, and threw them aside where they casually fell onto her bed. She took a closer look at her knee, wondering what she could about her injury.

She had no real knowledge of the effects of infections, or how to sew up gaping wounds- she had never needed to. This earthbound form was unfamiliar territory, and she wasn’t sure she liked it.

Her gash was no longer bleeding, but some blood had congealed in certain areas of the wound. Blood had encrusted around her knee and down her leg, making it look like some morbid form of art. She contemplated removing it for a moment, but shook her head.

Spitting into her hand, she began washing away the dried blood. She wondered, if she spat into the wound, would it aid in the healing process? She knew that water helped flush out debris so that the body could heal itself better, so why couldn’t saliva?

She tested her theory and leant over her knee. A thick strand of spittle fell from her mouth and into the wound. Instantly, some strange pieces of green floated out, clearing the injury of anything foreign.

She leant back in her chair and stared at the ceiling; she wasn’t looking at the ceiling, but rather through it. Her eyes glazed over as her vision began to blur, the ceiling and the marks and scratches in it duplicated. Her lips tasted like salt.

Was she now something foreign?
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Postby Zuhre on November 12th, 2018, 5:16 am

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It had felt like she was in a different realm. Her skin had gone numb, and her mind had grown fuzzy, like little sprouts of mould were forming inside her skull. She felt disconnected from her physical body and it had felt good. But as soon as the sensation had begun, she had snapped back into reality, and it stung.

She shook her head, trying to dislodge any fantasies that were trying to disrupt her clarity. Inhaling sharply, Zuhre licked her lips, tasting the ever present salt that lingered like the bad taste that kept inside her mouth.

She noticed that her leg was no longer smarting like it had a few chimes ago, but it ached. It ached something awful, and the feeling was not unlike the aching of her heart, the longing she felt for being something… foreign.

Her knee still looked red and irritated, but the small particles of dirt and debris had been washed away. In order to prevent anything else from getting inside her injury and causing more redness or swelling, she took the sleeve of her shirt and ripped off an acceptable amount of fabric, hoping Tallon wouldn’t mind terribly about the inconvenience she was causing him.

Surely he had other favourite shirts, right?

She wrapped the cloth around her knee tightly, and tied it with a bow. Reaching out for the pants she had recently shed, she slowly began pulling them back over her legs. Shifting her position on the chair so that it faced the bunk, she lifted her wounded leg up and placed it on the bed so that it was elevated slightly. Noticing the pain slowly start to dissipate, Zuhre smiled, taking her hands through her matted hair.

She may not know much in the ways of medicine, but keeping wounds bound seemed to keep not only the pain from worsening, but also from it getting more irritated.

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She knew not how long she had sat in that position until the sun had shifted its position in the sky so dramatically so as to send a ray of light directly into her closed eyes. She blinked rapidly, trying to adjust to the change in lighting so she could see.

She saw through the window that there was no longer a cloud in the sky, but the sun was beginning to set. There was still so much Zuhre wanted to do before night would come and Leth would bless her with his radiance.

A blinding flash- like lightning hitting a nearby tree, but it was all in her mind. So why did she see it before her eyes? It was a stark realisation- remembering what Tallon had told her moments before she had gone to the register’s office to denounce her status as a citizen of the city.

“I am glad you don’t have any strange aspects, other than you’re dorkiness,” he had told her, laughing through his nose. “People here don’t take too kindly to folks who aren’t human. They’re often slaves, the lot.”

Zuhre sucked in a sharp breath, reaching up to her head. Her fingers were delicate, tapping gently the spot of where her temples were. There were no “strange aspects” she could feel. Yet.

She wondered, unknowingly cocking her head to the side, why people were unkind to those that were so different from themselves. Was it fear of the unknown? Her contemplative nature began to take hold, as her knowledge of the immaterial broke through.

“There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so,” she said to herself. She ran her fingers along the seam on her pants, noting the fragments in the thread, where the seamstress must have gone from the outside to the inside.

If it was fear that was holding these people back and forcing them to make those who were not human into slaves, it could be because of their idea of bad. Maybe they thought that what they didn’t know was bad. That because someone was different from them, then that meant they were not good.

Zuhre massaged her temples with her forefingers, trying to relieve the building tension. She found herself feeling anxious, terrified of the citizens finding out about her true nature as an Ethaefal. What if they viewed her as something of which they did not know and in turn think that she was bad? What if they forced her into slavery because she had horns sprouting from her head and hair that changed in colour alongside the seasons?

The brunt of her thoughts sprang itself from amidst the others, front and centre: what if Tallon found out that she was not who he thought she was? After all, she looked nothing more than another everyday human. Admittedly, she was a subgroup of the humans, a Svefra, but she was humanoid nonetheless. Much more humanoid, in fact, than a horned being with iridescent skin and vivid violet eyes.

Tallon was the only friend she knew, for he had come to her aid, had given her his possessions, all in order to keep her safe. Was her safety that important to him? Was his sense of morality different than others? Why hadn’t he left her? She was nothing but a stranger. She was…

Foreign.

Zuhre tried to calm her mind. She closed her eyes, imagining a cell, with thick metal bars, unbreakable, impenetrable. She envisioned her thoughts, pushing them into the cell, containing them, keeping them from contaminating the outside where all the goodness lay.

She took a deep breath, trying to calm her heartbeat. She could hear it racing, like a horse’s hooves against the compact sand on a beach… on a shore… like the one she washed up- She shook her head, squeezing her eyes shut tighter, if that was even remotely possible. She tried her breathing again, and found a rhythm, following the slowing rate at which her heart beat.

It was working.

The calm was coming in.

Like waves.

Like waves on a shore.

A shore.

Like the one she washed up on.

She held her sleeve up to her open mouth and screamed.
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A Destination to Discover

Postby Zuhre on November 15th, 2018, 3:25 am

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The tides were at bay for the moment so Zuhre decided to use this time to do some more adjusting to her new life.

She had gone into town to see the sights, or all that she could in the time period of an hour. She still had vowed to herself to return back to her sanctuary before the moon blossomed in the skies.

She had been gifted with a satchel filled with essentials as a form of welcoming into the city of Ravok and with the little money she had been given, she sought to purchase a few nonessentials that made all the difference to her.

One of those nonessentials was a leather bound book with blank parchment tied together via dark thread. It was the way the book smelled that caused Zuhre’s toes to curl in delight. Maybe it was the musk of the parchment or the strong odour of the leather. Perhaps it was just psychological, something like the fusing of two metal pieces together by fire- a connection she made subconsciously with a time before now.

Along with the book, she had purchased some thick sticks of ebony charcoal, for sketching or writing or doodling- anything her heart decided it desired.

She had been coerced by a fervent merchant into giving up a few golden coins for a clay pipe and a few ounces of “pleasant” blue vision herbs. It was her thinking aloud that spurred this situation. She was complaining to herself about how her knee was still aching and the merchant had overheard her. Not only was this herb great for recreation, it also took users out of their heads for a while, with positive side effects such as pain relief.

Zuhre wasn’t gullible per se, but she was very easily swayed, especially when the results regarded a greater good.

So as she strode back to her unit with her arms wrapped around her new acquisitions, she made plans to investigate them, until her eyes bore weights too heavy to continue lifting.

Her excitement propelled her forward, her gait picking up speed until it transformed into a run. She felt her thighs burn as her legs carried her through the city. Her feet slapped against the pavement, sending shocks up her back. But it felt good. It took her focus of the pain of her knee in another direction. The aches were being displacement throughout her body. And her rampant thoughts of earlier events of today began to melt away as well.

There was a loud crash as the door slammed behind her. She dropped in the middle of the floor and all of her materials dropped with her.

Zuhre took her multiple thick hairs and pulled them behind her back so that they wouldn’t shroud her vision. The grease that exchanged from her hair onto her hands allowed her to deduce that tomorrow would be a great day for a bath.

Instead of making a mental note of this, Zuhre flipped to the first page of her book. She reached for one of her charcoal sticks and positioned it her clenched hand so a piece of it was sticking out. She leant over the book and gently pressed the tip of the charcoal to the page. She observed as her entire armed seemed to make an exaggerated movement in order to curve the first letter, and dot the vowel of the next. She accidentally pressed down too hard on the third letter, smudging the beginning part of the last, but had her word bold and centre at the top of the paper: list.

Zuhre continued to write, annotating the importance of taking a bath with thick strokes under the word “tomorrow”.

Satisfied with her work, she sat back to take a breath. Her pocket felt light; the remaining money had been stashed there after she had purchased the pipe and herb. She wondered, was this herb such the wonder the merchant had made it out to be?

Her curiosity led to the investigation of the weed. She picked up the small sack that contained the leaves and buds of the plant. The first thing she noticed was the unusual smell. Having nothing to compare it to, she couldn’t determine whether the smell was good or bad. So far, she didn’t feel any adverse effects. Maybe that’s what the pipe is for, she thought.

Hesitantly, she took a small pinch of the blue vision herb between her forefinger and thumb and carried it over to the pipe, setting it in the opening on its end. The other end was the site of a mouthpiece, to which Zuhre placed her lips around. She sucked on the mouthpiece, assuming that whatever “pleasantness” was in the herb would have to get into her somehow. Yet, nothing happened. Puzzled, Zuhre surveyed the gadget again. Maybe she had to change the way the herb appeared.

Common sense had shown her that the air she had fallen through was much different than the water she had landed in, which was much different than the hard and very tangible rock that had cut her knee. They were all aspects of life, they could all be seen, they could all be felt in someway or another, therefore they all existed. So what was different about this touchable weed that prevented it from being taken into her body?

She already knew not to eat it, or rub it into her skin. That would have removed the need for a pipe. Then she had a resurgence of memory; she had seen smoke billowing out of a nearby cafe, but it hadn’t been the visual of the smoke that had caught her attention but the scent of it. She had inhaled the sweet, yet spicy aroma before seeing the thick swell.

She snatched the flint and steel within her knapsack and enthusiastically struck the flint against the steel until at last a glimmer of light, a spark, had ignited. It grew as it made contact with the weed compressed within the nodule of the pipe. She blew on the tiny flame until it only thin wisps of smoke wafted above the pipe’s end. Lifting the mouthpiece back up to her lips, she sucked in a deep breath.

Oh the pain was so strong. Her lungs were wailing in protest of the heat, wishing for the sensation of almost drowning to return to that they wouldn’t have to feel as if they were on fire. Zuhre coughed and coughed until it felt like she would heave up one of her poorly damaged lungs.

Why did people find this experience so pleasant? she thought to herself, grimacing and moving to set the pipe on the ground. Before she could however, she began to feel a tingle on her forehead, near her hairline. It spread from her third eye and across her forehead until it reached the tips of her ears. It felt strange, scary, but good.

She scrunched her face up in anticipation of the pain and inhaled another puff of the smoke. The second time wasn’t nearly as terrible as the first, but her lungs still felt like they were stretching beyond their normal limits, trying to rid themselves of the burning sensation.
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Postby Zuhre on November 26th, 2018, 7:39 pm

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Having braced through several deep inhales, the world was not like it used to be. The Ethaefal’s skin was buzzing, as though there were hundreds of bees trapped underneath her flesh. It was surprisingly pleasant, however, the sensation being accompanied by a gentle heat that continue to span across the whole of her body.

The warmth spread especially towards the middle of her body, lingering just below the girl’s heart. She gently placed her pipe down on the ground, not quite feeling it leave her fingers. In what felt like slow motion, Zuhre raised her hands to her heart and pressed lightly against her chest, hoping to feel the beating contained within. The pace at which her heart raced gradually decreased, and with every inhale of breath, she felt herself grow calmer.

Soon, she could no longer feel her own chest unless she were to press firmly against it. The subtle tingling had reached her fingertips. As Zuhre swayed her body from side to side, her perception of the bed in front of her swayed at what seemed like half the speed.

Ironically, as a girl who was still very new to her predicament of being earthbound, she didn’t let the anxiety of losing control of her perceptions affect her. Who was to say what reality was, anyways? she thought. For all she knew, this was reality, just a slightly different version of it. Then again, as she contemplated what the definition of reality was, who could say what reality really was?

Tentatively, for fear of letting her dream state actually force her into an actual dream, she reached forward and picked up a stick of charcoal. It took her several tries, but eventually she flipped open her notebook to the next empty page and applied steady pressure.

In it she wrote, If reality is a perception and everyone’s perceptions are different, then is there really a universal sense of reality? She pondered then, quite literally placing her forefinger and thumb to her face so that they framed her chin. In the way one with a beard would, she stroked her chin.

Continuing, What does the word real even mean? Existing? Occurring? Being apparent to one’s awareness? If my thoughts are real and I am thinking about a enlarged bat who spews fire out of its mouth, then is that creature real? Is there an act of association when it comes to reality?

Clearing her eyes from their glaze, she veritably looked at her words. The colour, while black, was so bright, much more so than it had been before she had smoked the wondrous blue vision.

What if this is reality? What if this world I live in when I am not on this drug is actually just a dream? Before, my senses such as sight were dimmed, duller than they are when I am high. Who was it to define what reality really was? I feel more alive in this condition; things just seem so much… more. Simply because the majority of the population presume something to be right doesn't mean it is. How can you indefinitely know something when you don’t know everything? I won’t believe there is one person that knows everything. Someone may know a little bit of many things, but that hardly is evidence for omniscience.

She was rambling now, scribbling down everything that came flying from her thought process. These thoughts did not tarry a moment before fleeing from the train in her mind, ergo she wanted to capture all that did as soon as she could.

She stopped suddenly. Fear had struck her like a bolt of lightning. The clouds began to roll in again, replacing the clear skies in her head with a cluttered mess of grey and obscurity. The tingling in her extremities was lessening and she began to feel the charcoal capitulated to the fingers that wrapped around it.

Did she even exist? If thoughts were something that could be considered unreal, then the thoughts that she was thinking could be something planted. Maybe she didn’t even exist; perhaps she was being controlled or was stuck in some sort of dream. Withal, she still thought. She thought of herself, and of how she perceived the things around her, whether they were real of not. She could still calculate and compute and deduce. She deliberated then, that if she could think, there must be a part of her doing the thinking. With this knowledge, she must exist in some fashion. Even if the charcoal she was holding or the paper laying motionless underneath her hand were an illusion, even if her hands and her hair and the flooring she sat on were fake, she knew that she had to be real; she had to be alive in some way or another in order to think and perceive all of these manifestations.

She needn’t write this down in her journal. It was newly accumulated knowledge that basically imprinted itself onto her. Zuhre took a deep breath, coming down from her high at a rather unexpected and admittedly unwanted rate.

She hadn’t even realised that the sky outside had darkened, the sun replaced by the moon, and her eyes shifting into a luminous violet. She hadn’t even realised her hair transform into a gorgeous golden hue or that elegant horns had sprouted from her temples, swirling in an intricate form beside her ears.

She hadn’t realised that Leth was subliminally telling her something.
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Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?
 
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A Destination to Discover

Postby Zavya on February 13th, 2019, 6:02 am

Grades!

 
Zuhre
Skills Earned:
  • Endurance +1
  • Medicine +2
  • Observation +5
  • Philosophy +2
  • Running +1
  • Socialization +1
  • Writing +2
Lores:
  • Medicine: Binding wounds keeps pain from getting worse and prevents further irritation
  • Philosophy: Did she fall for a purpose?
  • Philosophy: What is reality?
  • Self: Terrified of being revealed as Ethaefal
  • Tallon: A stranger who gave her his clothes
  • Vision Herbs: Make her more philosophical
  • Vision Herbs: Painful on the lungs, but pleasurable in the head
Penalties: Severely bruised and gashed knees


If you have any questions or concerns, feel free to PM me!
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