4th of Winter, 518 AV Rodel picked his way through one of the many meandering paths through the Alheas Park. As he stepped, he made sure not to disturb any of the diverse and sometimes delicate flora that made this place its home. He didn't walk alone, at least, not to his own eyes. One of his hallucinations walked with him. "That woman at the Gazette is up to something. She lures you back there day after day with promises of money. Isn't that suspicious? She probably wants to kill you." Rodel checked behind him to make sure there was nobody within earshot. He was perfectly aware that nobody could hear the phantom figure's words, despite how real they sounded to him. His replies however would be much more noticeable. “She’s my boss, I work there. You know as well as I,” Rodel said, turning to meet the paranoid figure’s eyes. He was in the form of a rather thin weasel-looking man. He had manifested this way since he had first appeared to Rodel after he had learned to meditate. That was when the hallucinations had started to take shapes other than formless shadows and terrible monsters made of darkness. The wiry man--Ratface, as Rodel had taken to calling him in his own mind--snorted with derision. “The perfect way to lure somebody into a trap, like offering a rabbit a tasty morsel before snapping its neck in a snare.” The apparition circled Rodel as he spoke. Rodel turned where he stood to hold Ratface’s gaze, refusing to lower his eyes. He knew he wasn’t supposed to speak to his hallucinations, every master of meditation he had ever worked with had told him as much. He still did it though, he couldn’t help himself sometimes. He did hold fast to one of the rules they had given him though. He could never show subservience to them. His mind was his own domain, and he couldn’t afford to give them any more purchase on it than they already had. “What would you have me do then? I need to work for someone unless you would have me starve.” “Run to the wilds. Everyone here has plans, plans everywhere… We need to go away, far away where they can’t touch us.” “Take your own advice then, run to the wilds and leave me be in my own head!” Ratface didn’t answer. None of the hallucinations ever acknowledged when he confronted them with their own reality. “She treats you like a street brat anyway. Always barking instructions at you like you’re barely worth her notice. You should cast her aside,” called out another voice. Rodel pivoted on his heel to face a taller stocky figure. He called this one Meathead. He wasn’t surprised it had shown up. When he talked to one, the others always came. “And how does that differ from what you do?” Rodel asked the hallucination. “I have your interests in mind.” “More so than she?” “Of course!” “Why should I trust you in saying that?” “I have known you far longer.” “Yet you have helped me far less.” Meathead snarled, eyes burning with the anger always present in his countenance. Ratface paced behind Rodel, his mutterings a constant backdrop to the conversation. “I have never left your side, while she values you as much as the dirt beneath her heel!” “She values me as much as the Kina she pays me. No more, no less,” Rodel replied. “You on the other hand have never given me anything worthwhile. How am I supposed to interpret that in regard your value for me?” “Clever words, clever words…” Ratface rasped. “You may think yourself smart but there’s always someone smarter.” |