27 Winter 518 AV
When Caspian holds his violin for the first time in weeks, the first time in earnest in years, there is no magical moment.
There is no golden light that rains down on him from above, no whistles and stomps, no trumpeting or polyphonic ooh-ing and aaah-ing to herald its reunion with its well-worn position in the crook beneath his chin. Not even, as likely as it would have been, an entirely unrelated whooping from one of the patrons at the Silver Sliver Tavern just down below.
There’s no shoulder rest, not a real one, at least. For years he had a plush one, part of the sum of this gift from Gavir, its burgundy fabric already patched and faded by the time it entered his possession. It was made for someone broader – which, truth be told, is most people compared to Caspian – but over the years in Sunberth, from his thousands of hours of practice in the corner of his highest-floor room, it had eventually conformed to sit comfortably across his left clavicle. The familiarity it expressed towards him, though inanimate, is not something he had taken for granted, but still by some measures underappreciated by him in those moments.
It’s not immediately apparent to him where it might have gone. He’s had people over, certainly, and the liquor and rest of the party trappings that came with them, and it’s possible that it was lost in the usual Ravokian drunken shuffle.
For now, though, a many layered, many folded swath of emerald velvet will do.
The first thing is tuning; it is always tuning. The bow feels a bit awkward in his grip, his right hand no longer so accustomed to that particular contortion, and the more he dwells on it the more unpleasant it seems, this sensation that he’s just a feather’s touch away from dropping it. Starting with the second string from the highest, though, he strokes with the bow – and the pitch comes flat, though thankfully not gut-wrenchingly. He lowers it from his shoulder, presses the base against his abdomen to steady it, and tightens the corresponding peg. Raises it to his shoulder again – and dips suddenly, awkwardly, because that makeshift rest is threatening to slip from its perch on his shoulder, no longer so much a trusted assistant as a flimsy, deflated parrot.
It’s alright, though, hasn’t slipped from him entirely yet, and when he tests the same string it’s –
Now a little sharp.
Standard sort of thing, for tuning, a game of over- and under-estimation.
The violin leaves his shoulder, and he twists the peg towards him now to loosen the string by the most minute of degrees. This time, when he tests its pitch, it’s quite dead on with the one permanently ingrained in his memories. The little pluck for good measure confirms it.
Next, then, the string right below it, and after that he’ll tune the very lowest, then the pearl-like highest. Come to think of it, he’s always done them in this order. He’s not sure it means anything, or would make some difference if he started low to high, or high to low, but it’s the way his father had done it, and same for Gavir. From this distance from both parental figures, both miles and years, all he’s got is habit to bind them. If he were to rosin his bow now, he’d do it much the same way they’d shown him too, with seven long, quick strokes from the frog of the bow to the tip and back. And a little more by the frog of it, the heaviest portion of its length just beyond his grip, because he’s always liked adding more friction there, to give it that extra bite.
That second string he tunes, the second-lowest (or third-highest, however way you’d like to see it), takes several more twists and turns before it settles in the pitch it ought to.
Which is alright. A manageable experience. Accomplished what it should in the end.
It’s only a small sigh that escapes him when he’s moved on to the lowest string, and the pitch rips itself so flatly, but then with a surprising rattle, one that sends a little trill of fear ringing through his heart. Has something broken?
Lowering the instrument hastily from his neck, he peers closer, at the bridge, over which the strings are elevated and should be held razor-taut. The culprit is there – well, the culprit’s marks are there, because that buzzing string’s ever so slightly visibly slack, and when he casts his eyes upwards to the scroll, he notices that the entire string’s gone and unraveled. The reduced tension has caused the end of the string in the lower bout to jam at an odd angle against the fine tuners.
It would be much worse if he were unable to diagnose the cause of the disruptive buzzing. That’s what he tells himself, attempting to focus on the positives despite his clenched jaw and gritted teeth, as he loops the string out from its own tangle and does his best to tighten the peg.
It’s been some very long minutes now since he first began. His thumbs are burning from bending backwards against the resistance of the pegs, and –
He sighs.
After all that, there’s still the matter of the very highest.