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The player scrapbooks forum is literally a place for writers to warm-up, brainstorm, keep little scraps of notes, or just post things to encourage themselves and each other. Each player can feel free to create their own thread - one per account - and use them accordingly.
I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common woman with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.
All the epic stories and quests most characters are on (at least all I can remember right now) have been given to them by storytellers in epic adventure threads. So, you might ask a storyteller to add a fresh breeze to your PC's story by doing a thread with you. And things will never be the same ...
Just a suggestion. I'm sure plenty of storytellers are eager to change a PC's life! I know I am!
"Shard by shard she rearranges the world. It looks the same, she says, but it is not. It looks as they expect, but it is not." Gregory Maguire, "Wicked"
Where have you gone? I understand everyone needs a break from time to time. That's okay. Holidays are good. Holidays are fun. But yours has been a long one and I would love it if you could come back now.
Also, if you could bring your cousin Inspiration with you, that would be great.
I have to admit that lately I've been really, seriously, jealous. I'm jealous of those people who seem to have these amazing character concepts, jealous of those people who have these wide arcing plotlines and stories, jealous of those who have this amazing originality. You look at the people who have these amazing personalities which just transmute perfectly into their own characters. And I am green.
It's not just on Mizahar either. I hate talking to people and finding out they're writing a novel, or writing poetry, or making beautiful images, or music, or anything. People just have such talent. Is it bad that I really just want to have all of theirs? Bad that I want to take what they have and hoarde it? Because I really, really do.
I feel like what I can do is so meargre. Modding my posts seem really dull, my character ideas seem off and boring, and I feel like I have no creativity. I wish I had ideas that spawned threads, adventures, character development, or even ideas for a novel. I love writing, I really do, but I feel like I have no idea of what to write about. I sit there looking at a blank page, and it stays blank until I give up and go and make myself some hot chocolate and watch LOTR again. You see these people who say "I do this and inspiration hits me". I've never had anything to do that gives me inspiration. I genuinely have no idea what to write about anymore.
I used to be able to act. I was good at it. Really quite good. I suppose I still am, but now, I hate it. I actually cannot stand it. Partially my teacher's fault, partially my director's, partially mine. I get on stage, recite the words, do well from all accounts, but I no longer feel it, live it, love it. So with my acting taken away from me, I feel like I have very little left.
I'm not really sure what the point of my post is. I just ranted for three, four paragraphs about how jealous I am of all of you. There's not really all that much I'm doing to fix it anyway. I write until I hope something big, grand, and good hits me. At the moment, I really don't think it will, but I hope it does.
In other news, I love this song.
On another note, I'm flip-flopping. Not really sure what to do with Jiina and Edalene. Do I want to retire them? Do I move them? They're both very ... one dimensional. I want them to get more interesting, but I don't know how to do that with them. Thoughts?