Did her name have a special significance?
At this question, Inka blushed a deep crimson. She could see the memory clearly, feel the hand that had stroked her hair. Her mother's voice had been soothing with Inka in her lap, showing the young girl her grandmother's tarot. Inka had always loved the vibrant pictures and the feel of silk twisted around her fingers.
"I love my children with all my being. In moments like this," Esha whispered, resting her cheek against Inka's curls as she hugged the girl tighter. Her son, Inda, lay sound asleep on a cot on the floor, a small stuffed rabbit stitched from scraps tucked under his chin as he snored softly, "You make feel whole."
Inka was quiet, shuffling through the deck, chin tucked to her chest. She may not have seemed like it, but Esha knew she listened, "Look, ma!" The child held up a card, a dhani falling from the sky with arms outstretched in eager thrill. A golden wheel was painted in the foreground. Eagles with beaks of colored glass soared in each corner, wings outstretched behind them. Upon the turning wheel were symbols in Nari, signifying the names of the gods, "What's this one mean?"
Esha took the card from her daughter's hand, keeping her voice soft as to not wake the boy, "This is the Wheel of Fortune, always in motion, just as life never stays the same. What goes around, comes around," Esha traced her fingers clockwise around the circle, thoughtful, "You cannot stop the wheel, only accept what is happening. Everything will work out for the best."
Inka didn't fully understand in her youth, wrinkling her nose and stuffing the card back into the deck, "I don't like that one," she grumbled.
Esha laughed, "I'm sorry, my starling, there are many things we won't like in this life. Even yours and Inda's name has meaning, just like these cards."
"Really?"
"Yes. Inda's name means 'beautiful blessing', and yours Inka, means "foremost beloved'." Esha gave the girl another squeeze and kissed her cheek, "Go on then, why don't you pick another?"
Inka had forgotten that memory and now it came back with painful clarity,
"Yes, has meaning but... I not know how to say in Common Tongue." She feared she might sound arrogant if she misinterpreted it,
"I tell you when I learn better." Inka offered a small smile, nodding at the idea of going together to find a ranged weapon. It would make her feel better, if only to remind her of the archer's back home.
***
"Discuss... mean to talk?" Inka ate quietly, not even sure where to begin. She wasn't sure what 'circumstance' meant, but she understood the word 'similar". It must have something to do with. experience. Life. Inka chewed a piece of fish and tore a small bit of the bread to dunk it into the flavorful liquid as she mulled over what the woman was asking, as well as what she should say. She glanced up, past Mos'rila, to the women in the lounge, doubting they had siblings with the same disabilities. Would they whisper that he was cursed if they heard her brother's story?
The mere thought sparked a flash of frustration; her brother was only different. Now she had a word in common to describe it.
"I have brother - same age brother - Inda," she said this slowly, carefully,
"Inda is like Riverfall. But Inda need me to watch over him, like hawk. Like... mother hen... " No one else knew how to understand him. Not like she did. Even Esha struggled to connect with her son when he was seized by his difficulties. Brows furrowing, the young woman had to choke back the emotion that had materialized in her chest,
"Inda is good. Inda is wind in chest," the Inarta touched her breastbone, feeling her heart beating as her eyes filled with loving tears,
"Inda is sun on cold day. But.... Inda....." Smile faltering, Inka looked away,
"Inda is unique..."She met Mos'rila's eyes, tapped her own temple. Other Inarta had said he was 'touched', 'simple-minded', a 'fool'. She hated those words,
"I do anything for family. But my brother needs care - good care - more care than Wind Reach life allow me. Care needs money. So I come here, to be Nakivak."Inka took a deep, resolving breath and wiped away her tears, a determination burning behind her gaze,
"Maybe I fail or die... But I try... for Akalak and for Inda."She had travelled across continents at the chance to give her brother a future, to help others in spite of the risk it posed. Inka may not have known the cultural difficulties or differences between her race and the giant warriors, but she knew there was a lot of complexity in what she asked. But as far as she was concerned, both her and the Akalak were both desperate to reach theirs goals. They just needed to find a symbiosis. Inka continued her meal and after a while, Mos'rila gave her the clearance to rest.
"May I have bath after food?" The bisque was being eaten quickly - Inka had enjoys stews on Skyinarta mountain, but nothing like this. It was delicious.
Mos'rila was happy to comply, making sure hot water was drawn and left in her quarters. Once the meal was finished, Inka cleared her mess and made her way down the hall to her room. There she undressed and washed in a small water basin, scrubbing her body of any remnants of dirt and sweat until her skin was pink. Her body begged for rest and while she would have liked to have looked through some of the books in the common room, decided to call it an early night.
Her mind was tired from all the information it had to process. Once her head hit the pillow, she fell asleep and didn't stir until morning.
***
The soft gentle knocking lulled the woman awake and she stumbled to wrap the sheet around her and peek out the door, curls blooming untamed around her face,
"Mos'rilla?" she glanced at the window over the hearth. What time was it?
Mos'rila gave explanation and Inka shut the door to brush her teeth and get dressed. Her feet were still bare, pattering across the cold floor as she followed the owner through the building, each step stirring her further into the waking world. Inka was led into an office, with a desk and leather chairs. where a woman with familiar hair introduced herself.
Nimi.
After a bit of confusion on part of both Inarta and introductions exchanged, the meeting began in earnest, each sentence given pause as Nimi wove the information together. Examinations, silver bracelets - Undans and Undanas - Inka listened closely, scooting forward to focus on each facet of the pending arrangement.
If she was accepted, she would meet with the Council of Ten where they would discuss her skills, her future and long term living arrangements. Inka nodded slowly, signifying she understood each sentence Nimi translated. Things were starting to make sense, and it was almost reassuring how elaborate the process was. It made her feel like there was structure to this place, something to cling on to.
Once the process was explained in full, Inka looked at Nimi,
"Thank you..."There was a hesitation in her next words,
"Please ask Mos'rilla how to increase the chance of obtaining a contract and how one is released? I do not intend to seem eager to rush to my potential death, but please understand that I'm doing this in an effort to ensure a future for my twin - he has difficulty with his mind and our mother grows old. I would like to be free with him one day, after I do this for Riverfall. This is more important than anything; I will take classes, I will do whatever I can to increase my chance of success."
Then, after a pause,
"Tell her I have never shared a bed with a man. I had intended for that day to be with my love, but this is not the path I can take any longer," she wasn't fooling herself with girlish thoughts of romance and courting. This was a transaction made by a grown woman,
"It is not the path I would have wanted, but it is the path I choose."To make sure Mos'rila heard it from her own mouth after Nimi relayed what she said, Inka nodded in solemn confidence,
"Yes. This is what I want."