OOCSorry for the delay (and the longish post)!
Sometimes, it seemed, being a good person was not a great thing to be. Eda had helped Eldon, made sure he was okay, stayed with him as he recovered from the overgiving and made her way back to Endrykas with him. All of this, straight after he had snapped and attacked her. He had poured res into the ground and into her mouth, encasing her in stone and drowning her in water, two very different forces that battled with eachother to the point where they complimented the other perfectly, both working together to overwhelm Eda. It had nearly worked, too - would have worked if Eldon had not overgiven when he had. Eda was a good Drykas, she had helped her racial brother, and it tore her up inside.
She had made her way home, last night. Riding slowly back to the Sunblaze Pavilion on Ayira, the rocking of her Strider's pacing flanks comforting, she had debated on what to tell her family. Yartree and her father, Damie... would they care? Not particularly. They would not care about Eda and what she had gone through, they would only care about honour. They would pick a fight with Eldon, and she did not want that. Eldon could not help that he was slowly cracking inside, his sanity seeping from the lines within him. He was terrifying, utterly terrifying, but she would not wish the wrath on anybody. Eldon could not help it. She did not tell her family. The night was as simple and normal as any other night at home.
That did not stop the dreams, last night. An active imagination turned the simplest action into something complex, and the most complicated into something truly horrifying. The stone res kept rising, it did not stop at her hips, rising and rising, to her waist now, her breasts, her shoulders. All the while, Eldon ripped out chunks of her hair out as he poured water into her throat, but he did not stop - and neither did the stone. Water filled up her throat, overflowing down her neck while Eda could not swallow fast enough, stone rising past her neck and over her jaw, creeping into her mouth, over her nose, her eyes. Choked to death by water and stone, Eda stood forever more, the screaming statue girl in the Sea of Grass.
She had woken early - it was still dark out. She did not ride off hastily into the distance, eager to be away, he hair flowing out behind her and Syna slowly took control. No, she did not do anything of the sort. Instead she sat. It was still cool in the mornings, Winter not entirely willing to abandon them. Still in her bedroll, she was warm and cozy with her blanket, and she watched the sun's light slowly illuminate everything in her room. It was the longest she had ever just sat, she realised. She never had time to sit and think and breathe and just be. She was always doing something, thinking about something, reacting to something. She never stopped doing anything. The only time she paused was when she slept, and she slept late and woke early. It was as if she didn't want to sit and be her.
She would really rather be someone else.
Someone who was a good Drykas. Someone who was a good Diamond Clansman - or woman. She would be able to handle the sword with dignity, not dropping it every few seconds. Her Strider and her would have bonded young, growing up as a fully recognised Drykas. Her father and cousin would have liked her. She would not have killed her mother. Yatree had accused her once of killing her mother. It was a poor exchange, he said, of Hiya's life for Eda's life. The comment had stuck. She knew she wasn't good enough. She knew she would never be good enough - not in the eyes of everyone else, at least.
But she could prove them wrong. She would prove them wrong. She was a warrior of the Diamond Clan! She could one day become a member of the Watch, if she so chose. She was skilled - more skilled than anyone gave her credit for. Her father boasted so much and so often of his skills - he had killed four glassbeaks in a single year, he said. They shared the same blood. Her mother too, was an accomplished spearswoman. No one gave her the credit she deserved. Not her father, not her cousin, not Eldon ... not Kayiri. Kayiri treated her as a doll, as something that was going to break any second if he squeezed too hard. She needed to fix that. She needed to prove to everyone she was a Drykas for a reason.
It was mid morning now. She was leaving, for the Sea of Grass. She doubted her father and cousin noticed her leaving - Yartree had a woman in his bed. Her father slept long and heavily. Ayira snorted a greeting when she saw Eda, a happy one. Eda did not smile in return. A yvas was hastily fitted onto her Strider, and with naught but her broadsword at her side, she rode out of Endrykas, riding hard, swiftly, capitlising on Ayira's pure speed. Any Zith or glassbeaks that stood in her way today needed to be wary. She would be returning that night with the head of a Zith or the beak of a glassbeak to display. All would love her then, and despair.
Ayira ran fast, showing Eda the meaning of haste. The Strider was small - by no means a warhorse, but certainly one of the fastest she had met. She was quickly out of Endrykas. It was early enough for the heat not to overwhelm, but there were bustles of people amongst the ragged arrangement of tents. She was not too far out of Endrykas when she saw the figure of a man. She debated briefly veering off course - not that she had a course, she just needed to get out of Endrykas. She decided against it. She doubted he would stop her.
She was wrong. He did stop her. She briefly considered continuing her course, not stopping for this stranger, this man who seemed eager to talk with a lone teenager girl. A scowl crossed her face and stuck there - scowl so rarely seen on the normally bubbly Eda's face - as she realised he was one of the Watch. It became more and more evident as he neared. She pulled Ayira in, stopping. She may have stopped for him, but she did not have to be happy about it. She was angry today - angry like she had never been before. "What do you want, Watchman?" She was irritated at him for stopping her. "I have things to do." |
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