62nd of Fall, 511
“But, to feel this way you do.. that is the point my sweet Lo-Lo,” Gram spoke in soft tone, induced with Blue Vision from a wood pipe. She took the small nail of her pinky and scraped out the black of the ash, cleaning the wood pipe out before packing another dry bit of the water flower into the bowl of the pipe and handing it off to Wrenlo.
It was five days after his eighteenth birthday and he had a troubled mind for a brotherly rival who was now napping in the dust. Not that this was an uncommon instance for him, bodies lay stiff around him quite often in this city. But this friend meant a great deal to him. Someone who was an unbiased ear when he needed to speak his truths as well as a someone who was tough as nails when Wrenlo was dealt harsh realities. He never felt alone in this city with him, but without him; it was hard to imagine how to survive.
Gram was doing her best to comfort his sorrows today. The house was dim lit with candles for the late evening and different pieces of tapestry, old blankets and dusty pillows where sprawled out across the floor. Wrenlo laid against a lump of pillows, cocooning himself for warmth and security while gram sat criss-cross across from him, a stacked deck of leather tarot cards between them with two candles flickering light for her to do a reading. Taking the pipe from her thin and weathered hands he lit a long piece of twine from the flame of the candle then brought it to the bowl of the pipe. He dragged deep and hard from its depth to clear every bit of the Blue Vision, pulling the mouthpiece away from his lips and held his breath for a long few ticks. She continued conversation, grabbing her stacked cards and shuffled them idly. “To be strong.. it is allowing your emotions to take place like they are, not shutting them out. Many strong men must understand heartbreak and guilt, amongst other things. To live with it kindly, and not be swallowed by it. You and Ezrae have both fought so hard to survive this long, together, and it is unfair that the odds took his life tonight. It is unfair that the city we live in is cruel and unwieldy. But you have both known your lifetime here in Sunberth consists heavily on your survival of the odds and you did everything you could to help. You took a chance to fight and knew when to run. Do not have guilt that you’re alive to tell his tale now.”
“I watched him drag his corpse with a tight rope around his chest down the back alley of Goldfinger’s.” He puffed out the words with his long held breath, but there was no smoke left in his lungs to escape. “He threw that rope over a broken corner sign on the wall and hanged him all while cooing and taunting me to come out of hiding. That is not strength, Gram. I am a foolish coward who couldn’t finish a fight. And I ended up getting him killed. Look at me..” Wrenlo open his cocoon only slightly to reveal the purple and blue bruises centering his ribs and lower torso as well as some blood splatters that weren’t his. A long blood-clotted gash ran from under his left pec and disappeared under his arm. When he closed the blanket around him to meet eyes with his Gram again she had pulled a single card from her constant shuffle and laid it out between them, facing him. The Hermit was the first pull of his reading. He knew the meaning well and he stared at it longingly as he spoke. “I never meant for him to get pulled into my fight. Ezrae has always been a brother to me.. backing me up with everything I get involved in. Christoff pulled a shank and gashed me up pretty good, but I had the shykehead straight. It got a bit hairy.. he pulled his weight on me and was ready to stab me in the lungs. Ezrae grabbed him up but then the bastard turned around and jabbed him at the neck instead. Erzae stared me dead in the eyes until he bled out and dropped cold. I shook up so bad, I could barely get myself off the ground to run. And ever since I did, I’ve done nothing but kick myself in the arse for not going back and killing that petcher Christoff with my bare hands.”
Gram quietly listened, still shuffling as Wrenlo reminisced the day’s events. A card fell from her grip, the card of Rhysol, facing him reversed. She paused her shuffling to place the card in same position but second in line from the first card pull. This time he sat up, his thoughts gathered heavily onto the image of the second card placement. Stray tears fell as he adjusted and they burned the small bit of his chest that peeked out of the wrapped blanket. He understood the meaning, but he lacked the clarity to really understand what the pull meant towards his outlook. “How am I resisting? I am admittedly aware I lack courage. I want nothing but change for the better. I want to do better. I want to let go by killing the man who caused so much pain..” Confused, his teary eyes looked into hers for comfort and conclusion.
Gram’s lips pressed thin but the corners perched softly into a smile, doing her best to reassure him into a calm state. “You are pushing yourself into a cycle of fear and self-loathing, even if you project it as vengefulness. If you really want to break the cycle as well as take an eye for an eye then,” she flipped the last card. Facing upright was the Magician. “Take all this pent up rage, sadness and reflection and harness it. Don’t hold back on your emotions and use them in full potential. As I’ve said, that is a true strength to wield, to do so without letting it eat you alive.” She paused and set the the rest of the deck stacked besides his three-card pull. One hand reached out in a cupped position, flicking her fingers a few times before Wrenlo placed the wood pipe back into her palm. She cleaned the bowl out in the same fashion with her pinky while looking him dead on with a stern expression. “What if I told you his unresting body could come into good use for… well, practice of Malediction? What if you took all these extreme emotions you feel and controlled them into a small fragment of his body. Something quite useful for the deed you want done? Putting an end to both Ezrae and your aggressor,”
“I’d call you a crazy old hag who pushes her irrational ideas of practice onto her grandson selfishly.”
“I am crazy, Lo, and crazy is what has kept me up and kicking this far. This trial of pain and recycle could do you good too if can stomach past your sensitive soul.”
“How can you think to ask me such a thing?? After everything said and done.”
“Because,” she puffed in a long drag and pursed her lips up, blowing the hit above them. “I believe that the bond between you two runs very deep. And in my practice, that goes a long ways into the outcome of a talisman. My love, I don’t speak this way as though he’s an object of use. I say this because the soul still binds to it’s comfort. That bind is a powerful force to be reckoned with. Take a part of him home with you, put your heart into him, and watch him flourish. The two of you have gone so far together, because he has died does not mean he can’t still take part in your life. He still has much to offer in life, even if you can’t see, hear, or feel him now.”
Gram managed a small smile as Wrenlo processed the idea. It was a difficult one to wrap his head around. He didn’t find her idea a sour one, but the work put into damaging his lifeless corpse was troublesome. Ezrae’s kind soul deserved a burial.
“Take this with you tonight,” she handed him the card of Rhysol. “Think of it in your dreams. Change will come wether you want it to or not, but you can create the outcome if you put your mind to it. Have some hope Lo-Lo.” She collected the rest of the deck and set it on the small wooden table to the well, then licked the the tips of her thumb and forefinger and put out the candles one by one. Wrenlo laid there silently, fiddling the card in his hands. There was no sleep to come, but he laid back down against the lump of pillows while the visions of his day replayed in his mind.
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It was five days after his eighteenth birthday and he had a troubled mind for a brotherly rival who was now napping in the dust. Not that this was an uncommon instance for him, bodies lay stiff around him quite often in this city. But this friend meant a great deal to him. Someone who was an unbiased ear when he needed to speak his truths as well as a someone who was tough as nails when Wrenlo was dealt harsh realities. He never felt alone in this city with him, but without him; it was hard to imagine how to survive.
Gram was doing her best to comfort his sorrows today. The house was dim lit with candles for the late evening and different pieces of tapestry, old blankets and dusty pillows where sprawled out across the floor. Wrenlo laid against a lump of pillows, cocooning himself for warmth and security while gram sat criss-cross across from him, a stacked deck of leather tarot cards between them with two candles flickering light for her to do a reading. Taking the pipe from her thin and weathered hands he lit a long piece of twine from the flame of the candle then brought it to the bowl of the pipe. He dragged deep and hard from its depth to clear every bit of the Blue Vision, pulling the mouthpiece away from his lips and held his breath for a long few ticks. She continued conversation, grabbing her stacked cards and shuffled them idly. “To be strong.. it is allowing your emotions to take place like they are, not shutting them out. Many strong men must understand heartbreak and guilt, amongst other things. To live with it kindly, and not be swallowed by it. You and Ezrae have both fought so hard to survive this long, together, and it is unfair that the odds took his life tonight. It is unfair that the city we live in is cruel and unwieldy. But you have both known your lifetime here in Sunberth consists heavily on your survival of the odds and you did everything you could to help. You took a chance to fight and knew when to run. Do not have guilt that you’re alive to tell his tale now.”
“I watched him drag his corpse with a tight rope around his chest down the back alley of Goldfinger’s.” He puffed out the words with his long held breath, but there was no smoke left in his lungs to escape. “He threw that rope over a broken corner sign on the wall and hanged him all while cooing and taunting me to come out of hiding. That is not strength, Gram. I am a foolish coward who couldn’t finish a fight. And I ended up getting him killed. Look at me..” Wrenlo open his cocoon only slightly to reveal the purple and blue bruises centering his ribs and lower torso as well as some blood splatters that weren’t his. A long blood-clotted gash ran from under his left pec and disappeared under his arm. When he closed the blanket around him to meet eyes with his Gram again she had pulled a single card from her constant shuffle and laid it out between them, facing him. The Hermit was the first pull of his reading. He knew the meaning well and he stared at it longingly as he spoke. “I never meant for him to get pulled into my fight. Ezrae has always been a brother to me.. backing me up with everything I get involved in. Christoff pulled a shank and gashed me up pretty good, but I had the shykehead straight. It got a bit hairy.. he pulled his weight on me and was ready to stab me in the lungs. Ezrae grabbed him up but then the bastard turned around and jabbed him at the neck instead. Erzae stared me dead in the eyes until he bled out and dropped cold. I shook up so bad, I could barely get myself off the ground to run. And ever since I did, I’ve done nothing but kick myself in the arse for not going back and killing that petcher Christoff with my bare hands.”
Gram quietly listened, still shuffling as Wrenlo reminisced the day’s events. A card fell from her grip, the card of Rhysol, facing him reversed. She paused her shuffling to place the card in same position but second in line from the first card pull. This time he sat up, his thoughts gathered heavily onto the image of the second card placement. Stray tears fell as he adjusted and they burned the small bit of his chest that peeked out of the wrapped blanket. He understood the meaning, but he lacked the clarity to really understand what the pull meant towards his outlook. “How am I resisting? I am admittedly aware I lack courage. I want nothing but change for the better. I want to do better. I want to let go by killing the man who caused so much pain..” Confused, his teary eyes looked into hers for comfort and conclusion.
Gram’s lips pressed thin but the corners perched softly into a smile, doing her best to reassure him into a calm state. “You are pushing yourself into a cycle of fear and self-loathing, even if you project it as vengefulness. If you really want to break the cycle as well as take an eye for an eye then,” she flipped the last card. Facing upright was the Magician. “Take all this pent up rage, sadness and reflection and harness it. Don’t hold back on your emotions and use them in full potential. As I’ve said, that is a true strength to wield, to do so without letting it eat you alive.” She paused and set the the rest of the deck stacked besides his three-card pull. One hand reached out in a cupped position, flicking her fingers a few times before Wrenlo placed the wood pipe back into her palm. She cleaned the bowl out in the same fashion with her pinky while looking him dead on with a stern expression. “What if I told you his unresting body could come into good use for… well, practice of Malediction? What if you took all these extreme emotions you feel and controlled them into a small fragment of his body. Something quite useful for the deed you want done? Putting an end to both Ezrae and your aggressor,”
“I’d call you a crazy old hag who pushes her irrational ideas of practice onto her grandson selfishly.”
“I am crazy, Lo, and crazy is what has kept me up and kicking this far. This trial of pain and recycle could do you good too if can stomach past your sensitive soul.”
“How can you think to ask me such a thing?? After everything said and done.”
“Because,” she puffed in a long drag and pursed her lips up, blowing the hit above them. “I believe that the bond between you two runs very deep. And in my practice, that goes a long ways into the outcome of a talisman. My love, I don’t speak this way as though he’s an object of use. I say this because the soul still binds to it’s comfort. That bind is a powerful force to be reckoned with. Take a part of him home with you, put your heart into him, and watch him flourish. The two of you have gone so far together, because he has died does not mean he can’t still take part in your life. He still has much to offer in life, even if you can’t see, hear, or feel him now.”
Gram managed a small smile as Wrenlo processed the idea. It was a difficult one to wrap his head around. He didn’t find her idea a sour one, but the work put into damaging his lifeless corpse was troublesome. Ezrae’s kind soul deserved a burial.
“Take this with you tonight,” she handed him the card of Rhysol. “Think of it in your dreams. Change will come wether you want it to or not, but you can create the outcome if you put your mind to it. Have some hope Lo-Lo.” She collected the rest of the deck and set it on the small wooden table to the well, then licked the the tips of her thumb and forefinger and put out the candles one by one. Wrenlo laid there silently, fiddling the card in his hands. There was no sleep to come, but he laid back down against the lump of pillows while the visions of his day replayed in his mind.
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