[Aidara's Scrapbook] It's Real For Us

[Aidara]

Competition Jen says I need it. And maybe I do. Sometimes I seriously lack motivation, but it doesn't last for very long. I'll be de-motivated for a day or two before I pick back up. But why? I don't know why it happens. Sometimes it's really random. Maybe I just push myself too hard and just get mentally worn out. Like today, I need to post. I'm roughly 4k words behind where I should be. Not too bad, as I can just spend a couple hours writing and then I'll be fine...but I've sat here looking at a word document with only a few sentences on the page. The meeting between the Valintar and Jameson took longer than Addy initially expected. It should have only taken a couple minutes, right? What could they possibly be talking about that would take this long? Moving from standing attentively by the door to lounging against the opposite wall, Addy looked around for anything that would hold her attention; it would not do for her to wander off in the middle of a tour. But the hallways were empty, leaving her immediate vicinity completely void of anything interesting at all. That's all I got. That's all I've had for the past hour. I know what I want to say, how I want to say and what I want to happen. This is not a lacking of inspiration or muse. Like I also mentioned to Jen when we briefly talked about this earlier, I have an exam tomorrow, the thought of which is looming over me all day so far. I am 99% positive that is why I can't make any posts. I feel like I should be studying instead: Again this goes back to being too hard on myself and at the same time stifling my creativity. I wish I could change it. I mean, it's good that I am so focused on school because I get really good grades but at the same time I need to relax. I can't study all day. If I am not studying, why shouldn't I post? I'm so weird. Maybe it's just that because my mind is full of technical information regarding my Chem exam, I physically can't switch gears in my head to the more creative side of my brain. Is that possible? That would actually make a lot of sense. Either way, I may or may not post today. I need to not worry about it since it's not like I am just slacking. This is more telling myself it's okay then anything else. Otherwise I just might unnecessarily beat myself up.

[Bolden Denusk]

*noms n hugs the Jules* sit down with some nice hot chocolate, soft music and just hug a pup or kit. Take some much needed Jules time and just simply relax. You are much loved. <3 That is all.

[Sira]

Don't feel bad Julsies, I am about 10k words behind and haven't been able to convince myself to post for the past few days.

[Aidara]

So while I boasted that I have done 50k words before and can do it again, here is to hoping that I can get it done for NaNo. I had underestimated how much work the two exams I have during the month were going to take and the weeklong trip back home for Thanksgiving. Apparently I am also lacking in motivation due to the fact that I keep thinking how behind I am and freaking out a bit, when it doesn't even matter. At least if I don't make it, I know I tried my best

[Bolden Denusk]

You can do it hon! *luffs on Jules and gives cheer kitty*

[Indigo]

Congrats DS!!!

[Aidara]

Happy Thanksgiving! I have such a stupid sense of humor. I hope everyone is having a wonderful time with family, friends, and food. Develop a relationship with your most favorite chair in front of the TV and watch your favorite movie/show/football game. It's seriously the only day where overdosing on tryptophan and being extremely lazy is encouraged. I personally, will be shoveling way too many mashed potatoes down my gullet and then going to sleep. For those of you who have taken notice, I have been MIA that past couple weeks. I actually have made it home to Rhode Island to see my friends and family for the holidays! It's so exciting. It is like I never left, which is exactly what I was hoping for. Everything is exactly like I left it, friends and family welcoming me back with open arms. After a stressful couple months of living in a brand new place, living with unfamiliar people and feeling less than productive, this is what I needed. I am exhausted and can barely keep my eyes open...and yet I'm not tired. I might actually bang out a couple posts today (Ron, Rista... I am so sorry to keep you waiting) but we will see. I don't like putting out half-ass work so.. I frequently get little mental blocks. I was reading Lisa's scrap and Jen's response to her and I wonder if I have the same problem. I also meant to comment on both Jen and Lisa and Daniel and multiple others scraps and haven't had the chance to do so yet... I was on the plane for 6+ hours just a few days ago and I did a lot of thinking. I might scrap about it soon. But I'm in too good of a mood to post anything less than exciting! Anyway that's not the point. I just wanted to give everyone a wave and hug and let you all know that I am indeed still alive <3 Jules

[Sira]

Have a happy thanksgiving, Jules! Mine is sure to be filled with craziness and drama as it is every year, but a guy can dream, can't he? Lol. I'm sure I'll have something crazy to post on Friday though. Anyway, Happy Thanksgiving! Have a good time with your family, and we'll be waiting for you when you get back! ~Ron

[Aidara]

Oh god, you need to fill me in on all the drama afterwards. The funny parts, at least Although you can pretty much make anything funny.

OH! And since I've been home I dug out all my Renn Faire stuf.... >.> I'm totally going to put a little jar on my desk that is the "Go visit Sir Weasley Fund"

[Jameson Kindle]

Happy Thanksgiving, Beautiful. I'm so glad you made it out to Rhode Island to see your friends and family. It's a great feeling. Stuff your face, and take it easy. We'll all be here when you get back. (But we'll still have missed you just the same!)

--Daniel

Ps, eat me a piece of that pie you were making!!