When Ayren saw her look, one between stern and pity, he sighed a little bit inside. It wasn't as if he hadn't seen such a look directed at him before, in fact many of the hunters he had gotten close to had given it to him at one time or another. There was just some part of him that wished she would understand why he didn't, couldn't hunt. He understood that there was the cycle, and anyone who spent any time outside would soon find that death was just another part of life. Any animal killed, for protection or for food, as did the Inarta. He just couldn't do it himself. All he could think about was a life ending, not how that ended life would benefit the hunter. Ayren was grateful when she changed the subject. His reasons were his own, and it wasn't up to Sira to understand all his inner motivations. Sira began to tell of her parents, and how her father had left before she had been born. He sympathized with her, a parent was a terrible thing to lose, even if you hadn't know that parent. He also understood her need to look for her father. There were times when Ayren had also felt that way, although the desire had faded slightly as he had grown up. When his father had left, Ayren had been too young to look for him and when Ayren had been old enough, he had blocked out the memories and didn't want to get up hope by looking. For all he knew, his father was glad to not have to be burdened with coming back to Wind Reach anymore. "Questions..."Ayren mused, "There are always things we wish we could ask." He cut off as he wondered what things he would have to ask his own father. Then decided that this was all just idle thoughts, to be debated on a later day when he was alone. Then he asked Sira, "So do you have any other family? Brothers or sisters?" As they stepped out of the city proper, the breeze rushed around them and Ayren smiled as it took with it some of his sadness as it went. There was something calming about being outside away from the confines of the tunnels. Automatically turning to take a rarely used path to his camp, Ayren looked to make sure Sira was still following. She was looking up at the stars, obviously lost in thought and muttered something Ayren couldn't quite catch. He followed her gaze up to the skies, and looked at the brightness. The moon was large, and illuminated the trees. He really should walk out at night more, there was a strange beauty in the moonlight falling through the trees. Everything looked different at night, more peaceful as if it had fallen asleep with the sun. Any hunter knew that it was deceptive and night was deadly, but at that moment it was hard to believe. |