![]() "Sleep," he said and released all of their answers and questions into the air, not unlike the brushing of broken blades of grass and fragments of leaves from his trousers as he unraveled to his feet. The bedroll he gave to his companion, spreading it near the fire, not bothering with pitching his tent in the shadows. It was spring and if the night grew more chill, the fire and blankets would yet be kind. Dreams failed to find him that night as he offered them no opportunity. Sleep was avoided as he sat cross legged on the other side of the fire, head bowed over the pages of books and journals. He kept watch, thusly, while the gentle whir and whisper of the forest rose up around them in what he imagined might have been a lullaby. The scratching of his pen across the parchment did not intrude on the meditative humming of the wild lands, tracing out the shapes of the herbs and plants they had used today in an attempt to emblazon them more fully upon his memory. Aingeru. Aingeru. Aingeru. His pen paused, ink blotting against the precious paper, and he hastily continued on. The hair prickled stalk of orangeroot, however, began to flow into a cardinal line dividing the page and thus the world into halves from top to bottom, north to south. The gnarled depiction of roots tangled into the place in which the waters of the southern seas would be and as the moon crept through the sky he moved on towards the leaves. Their veins stretched through a solitary land mass, outlining the edges of the continent that had once housed the empires of Suvan and Alahea. Within the rough, artist rendering of an herb meant for purification he was drawing a map of Mizahar prior to the catastrophe of the Valterrian. Aingeru. Sunsinger. Aingeru. Memories prodded but be they conceived of actual recollections dredged from the mire of the mind of Kasb'el Sunsinger while he sat in his moonlit skin or from copies of ancient works glimpsed in scholarly tomes he did not dare guess. Down that path of recollection nightmares waited that he had dodged for five, long years; but as the hours waned from dark's deepest towards sun rise, he kept to his meditations and covered the entirety of three pages in unlearned cartography blended with feeble stores of a healer's knowledge. It grew in his mind as it had been planted, desperate and grasping, ridiculous and fodder for fools. Since the day he had coughed up stardust with seawater on the unforgiving shore of Black Rock, he had clung to the incredible notion that the rift in Syna and Leth's realms was capable of being healed and he, somehow, some way, had the ability to help it happen. There was only one living being who knew of that crazy notion, and she waited for him by a gold painted windowsill in the city of Zeltiva, ever patient when he vanished for days and months to tilt at cosmic windmills. Never once did she name him for a fool or call him an idiot when he stumbled home with whatever book or scrap of paper or tidbit of knowledge trapped in hand or in brain he had gone seeking. Instead she said things such as begin with a bone and so once he was fed and rested he would turn towards the clinic to piece back together the forgotten healing abilities of a long dead Drykas healer. Or she would say even the gods use words and he would bury himself in the antique shop or go rifling through the university library to read things about divinity, about the Ukalalas, of magics and history and anything, everything that struck him as even remotely pertinent. She had not yet said to him that for a man who had a chip on his shoulder the size of the sky for Syna he was incredibly dedicated to doing her a service. He was not ready to hear it. He might never be. Sunsinger. Aingeru. Sunsinger. When the first, pallid light began to suggest itself through the trees of their copse, he at last woke from that place of deep, strangely desperate peace. The pen dropped and he tilted his head back, heavy, dark brown braids weighing against his shoulders. A breath was inhaled through his nose, filling his lungs and his bloodstream with the first scraps of daylight; and, perhaps due to the presence of Sama'el, orphan of his former homeland if not orphan of his goddess, he was motivated by the abruptly buoyant memory to sing. His voice was untutored but mellow, low and bleeding with old world Pavi into the tangle of a tune designed before the grief of Ivak to honor Syna. |